by gcrocks
*sigh* today was pretty boring. i helped my friend chelsea(breathenomore) fix up her diary...then i went to my grandmother's house to see my dad...i usually don't hav fun when i go but today was especially boring...i guess it's because i didn't hav homework to occupy(however u spell that word) me*sigh*. anyway
i really like zach and if i hadn't gone to my grandmother's house i would hav been able to hang out with him...now i won't get to hang out with him until friday cuz tomorrow i hav church and he usually doesn't come outside durin' the week. this really sucks cuz even if he is home friday he'll probably go to the sk8in' rink and i don't think i'll be able to go...i'm just glad he doesn't hav aim cuz he'd probably hav my sn and then i wouldn't be able to write this stuff and get advice...even tho i don't ever get advice!! so...yea...and did i mention that i keep thinkin' about tyler and i can't figure out why!?! i don't like him i swear!! i really need to talk to him like as friends and just hang out with him for a day...i think that would make me stop thinkin' about him...but...if i hang out with him and talk to him he might ask me tough ?s that i can't answer and then get all sad when i don't answer them and the ask me why i can't answer them and that would just make it worse and then i would get upset and he would be able to tell b/c we wouldn't be on the phone he would be able to see my face...so maybe it's best if i don't talk to him or hang out with him...but at the same time i kinda wanna hang out with him just to see if i do feel a "connection" but then i would kno that i ruined everything and that would suck...ok...i think it's best that i don't hang out with him...if anyone readin' this has any advice please giv it to me...i desperately(spelling?) need it!!
i gotta go...american idle is on...bye bye!
-Andrea