I miss this summer. It was some of the most fun that I`ve ever had. I got this urge of missing my favorite season while talking to Madeline on the phone. We were in the middle of deep discussion that was orginally a talk about her grandpa [RIP her Grandpa Russian] that was led astray. I mentioned my grandpa and how I never met him because he died when my mother was but 20 years young. She had me when she was 31. I was talking about how whenever I`m alone either in bed or in the middle of a beautiful summer day, I feel a slight breeze and I just know that he`s there watching me. Listening to The Scene Aesthetic doesn`t help.
This summer changed my life. Many events occured that helped to make me into the person that I am today.
My heart was broken. No, not just broken, but shattered. It took a while for it to be mostly pieced back together. There are still a few shards scattered around. I don`t know if I`ll ever find all the pieces, but I`ve found enough right now to be happy in another relationship.
I made new friends, lost some friends, and made a reconnection with a very dear friend who, at the time, I hadn`t talked with over a year. Now, we are basically inseperable.
In about 4 months it will have been a year since I was changed. I can`t believe it`s already been that long. So much has happened, and I`m thankful for it all.
the first day of fall
is the last day i`ll kiss the sky.
Though, I wish it was under better circumstances.
=/
But I'm glad we're both where we are today.
<3