Wow... My life is hardcore sucking right now. I know I'm starting to sound like one of the Goth kids from South Park, but, I'm seriously going nuts here. I was supposed to go over Emily's house and hang out for a couple hours until my mom got off of work, and then all of a sudden her mom just pops up out of nowhere and tells me to find a ride home and high-jacks my woman!! I was hella-pissed!! She said she really needed to talk to her. God, I hope she isn't in trouble, or even worse, my reputation is ruined because of some stupid bitch's mom. Why can't things just work out for me? I'm really tired of getting stepped on, over, and over, and over again. And even worse by the people that I care about. I think it's time things really start to change around here. But, everytime I say that something goes right to make me think that that is actually happening. And then, it all turns to shit. FUCK!!!! I want to get away from it all so badly that I can taste it. I just want to take her and run away from my issues; in that doing the thing that every one has told me not to, simply because what I've been advised has yet to work out. It feels a little odd that I feel that way about her, but I can't help it. She has always been there for me... a real friend... for what three years now. And now, we have connected on an emotional and physical level... It shows all the familiar symptoms of love, but I am so scared to admit it. I just don't want to lose another person that I love, I can't go through that again.