Im sorry! lol Well...lets see....me and tony broke up... I like am totaly single now (which kinda sucks) and ya Its soo wierd! I havent been like this for like 3 years and i kinda like it! I like this guy naned steve....hes a freshman though...which i soo crazy cuz i dont like frechman that much...they are a bunch of babies! lol but ya....hes like AWSOME! Hes the coolest guy i kno at the moment....AND hes been through the same shit i have which i cool as fuck. But hes sooo freakin cute! The first time i met him was in lunch one day. I was talkin to a few of my friends and he came up and BIT my sholder! lol i thought it was funny so i bit him bak...lol...so ya its kinda crazy...he is totaly crazy...and i like it....hes not the typical guy...and im not really lookin for he typical guy right now. I want someone to do stupid shit with. And he seems to be like that...and ya. Im like so confused about all of it. It was just out of nowhere...maybe im changing....maybe im startin to like different things....i dunno!!! lol But ya thats wut has been goin on these past few weeks...

I am sooooo happy!....I get to stay the WHOLE weekend with my baby! We are goin to Inamorato's practice tonight and then tomorrow we are going to their concert in Terre Haute! I am sooo happy! I dont really care about the concert as much as i do stayin with mah boo. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me!I love u baby! -Danielle- YAY! MYSPACE WORKS NOW! my display name is: XoXAmerican-LoveXoX so come and listen to Inamorato...they are fuckin awsome!(if u like hardcore music of course!)There best song is on my site so visit it!

this fuckn myspace.com wont fuckin work and it is pissing me off....but other than that im ok......i hope i get to see tony b4 my dad picks me up...i will b sad if i dont get to. but ya....danny (my X) decided to show me this book today at skool that said a bunch of shit about him not bein with me....i was like w/e.....its over and he knows that...he is just tryin so hard to get me bak and its not ganna work....this shit pisses me off when he does that to me...cuz he makes me feel like its my fault...and he is the one who fucked it up so ill just let him believe wut he wants to. im really happy with Tony....he makes me feel like a human being....he is my life right now...and if it wasnt for him..i would be dead or in a relationship that i dont want to be in (one that i will end up killin myself anyway). So...i just hope that Tony knows that i am for real...i fucked up in the past with him b4...but it WONT happen again. I promise him that. So...Danny skipped last period today...lol...he thinks im ganna get back with a loser? YA RIGHT NUKKA! Danny is funny cuz thats the whole reason i broke up with him...he treated me like his bitch...he cheated on me...and im an NOT going to end up with someone that I have to take care of....i wanna b takin care of myself. A man should take care of his woman. And thats wut i want....not sayin im ganna end up as a loser though. I just dont want to have to deal with a drunkin, unemployed, loser for the rest of my life. So ya...now thats how i feel...he doesnt get that. So fuck him. Anyway...thanks to everyone who left me a comment about the bad times in my life....i just wish i had friends like u....ppl who care about my feeling. So thanks again...it made me happy!!! :) Well....peace out im ganna see if this myspace shit will work now...lol -Danielle-

i just found out that one of my best friends from like 6th grade hates me. I havent talked to her for like ever. She is just pissed cuz i go out with her X. Well she wouldnt of even met him if it wasnt for me. She wanted to fuck around on him so he was over with her. Now shes all pissed. I mean wtf?

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The SurveyName:DanielleBirthday:4-14-90Birthplace:Indianapolis Babie!Current Location:Mah Man's CribEye Color:greenHair Color:blonde...black Height:5'2Right Handed or Left Handed:right!....u know wut they say!Your Heritage:i dunno!The Shoes You Wore Today:sandals as usual!Your Weakness:letting ppl get me down for now reasonYour Fears:drowning...heights....but i like painYour Perfect Pizza:EXTRA cheese, sausage, and stuffed crustGoal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:good gradesYour Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:nukkaThoughts First Waking Up:ciggarete!!! NOW!!!Your Best Physical Feature:my assYour Bedtime:dont have one hun!Your Most Missed Memory:When my mom and dad were togetherPepsi or Coke:pepsi MacDonalds or Burger King:Mickie D's!Single or Group Dates:bothLipton Ice Tea or Nestea:neitherChocolate or Vanilla:VANILLA!!!!!Cappuccino or Coffee:Cappuwatawatawata...lolDo you Smoke:duhDo you Swear:duhDo you Sing:Like all the timeDo you Shower Daily:sometimes 2ce a dayHave you Been in Love:YEADo you want to go to College:YESDo you want to get Married:YESDo you belive in yourself:sometimesDo you get Motion Sickness:noDo you think you are Attractive:yea....somewut....but not reallyAre you a Health Freak:noDo you get along with your Parents:yaDo you like Thunderstorms:hell yes...when im goin to sleepDo you play an Instrument:i tryIn the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yes...lol...sorry dadIn the past month have you Smoked:yesIn the past month have you been on Drugs:lol wt hell? lol yaIn the past month have you gone on a Date:well...a concertIn the past month have you gone to a Mall:yepIn the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:noIn the past month have you eaten Sushi:hell no! EWW!In the past month have you been on Stage:noIn the past month have you been Dumped:no i dumped himIn the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:nopeIn the past month have you Stolen Anything:nope....never do it againEver been Drunk:YESEver been called a Tease:yes...hate to say it but yesEver been Beaten up:no...lolEver Shoplifted:yeaHow do you want to Die:lol...thats a funny ? bcuz yes i do sometimesWhat do you want to be when you Grow Up:A nurseWhat country would you most like to Visit:CALIFORNIA BABY!In a Boy/Girl..Favourite Eye Color:brown, greenFavourite Hair Color:BlackShort or Long Hair:bothHeight:5'4-6'Weight:not fatBest Clothing Style:Rocker, Hardcore BABY!Number of Drugs I have taken:who knowsNumber of CDs I own:a lotNumber of Piercings:8Number of Tattoos:none YETNumber of things in my Past I Regret:a lotCREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Besides the fact that i totaly failed my Geometry test i had a good day today! It was one of the easiest days this year so far. Tony came and ate lunch with me....that made me really happy. Cuz i havent ate lunch with him at all. He is always at McKenzie and shit soooo ya. It made my day when he showed up. Now i just cant wait til he gets off work. He is taking me home tonight! YAY! Tony- that comment made me a lil sad though! Anywayz.....ya...i havent been this happy in a while so i figured i should tell u! lol Drop me a line or 2 -Danielle-

Ight, This is mainly for Brittney Renick, Jessica Plunkit, Krissy, and everyone else in my gym class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont understand you. Maybe thats bcuz you dont understand me. I hate it when u guys do that to me in gym. I hope you know that i HATE Green days at skool cuz of u! It just starts my day off to a terible start. You guys just sit there and leave me alone. Whut kind of friends are you anyway? Wait...that isnt a friend at all. I feel like you guys are just so stuck up ur own asses that u cant even think about the people that have been ur friends sense fuckin 6th grade. And Jessica....it is none of ur fuckin business who the fuck i go out with. And no...im not going out with Danny anymore....I have been going out with Tony for 2 weeks now.....mayb u would kno that if u took a lil time out of ur precious life to talk to me! You guys are part of the reason why i just wanna fuckin die. DO YOU EVEN KNOW WUT ITS LIKE TO FEEL LIKE NO ONE FUCKIN CARES OR TO B ALONE? NO!!!!!!! YOU DONT!!!! So u might as well as just fuckin cap me in the head and just fuckin get it over with! I mean shit...u might as well. I guess this taught me something.....the ppl who u think are your friends....really ARENT! Here is a poem for u guys! Hope u like it! Do you know what it feels like to be alone? You thought your heart was made of stone. All you can feel is your heart crumbling. You take some pills and now your stumbling. The pain you feel wont go away. Your Anger is here to stay. You want to see blood on the floor. Your body's craving it more and more. You try to stand up, but u fall on the ground Your friends nor family hear a sound. So there u go...mayb this will help some of the other ppl u IGNORE out just a lil bit....cuz u already fucked this up for me. -Danielle-

Im really sad now. I think it might b cuz of my last entry. But i think its cuz i miss Tony. I wish he would get bak home from work so he can hold me. I only got to see him 1st period yesterday at skool cuz my fuckin dad picked me up at 3:30. And i miss my baby. I hate being alone. It drives me crazy for some reason. I guess ppl are right Love=Pleasure/Happiness AND Love=Pain/anxiety. I MISS MY BABY! COME HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -Danielle-

OMG! This totaly sucks! My Geometry teacher is such a fuckin bitch. Okay...the girls out there know what i mean about when u have to go to the bathroom....it means now! I knew i had just started my period and this stupid lil bitch Ms. Dunwell wouldnt let me go! She must b fucking stupid. So class ended and i ran ass as fast as i could to the bathroom....and sure enough...i was fucked! I didnt have anything either. So i had to wait till i got to Tony's house! Now im sittin here in a pair of his boxers. (hope u dont mind baby...lol i know u dont) My pants are in the dryer and i was like freakin out! It sucks cuz i was sayin just last night it would come early. And it did the next fuckin day! WTF? i didnt mean that fuckin soon! I talked to my mom and she said it was cuz of all my stress. She's probably right cuz if u read my other entries...i was stressed and still a lil am. This sucks.....why couldnt i of just been a guy God? -Danielle-

Happy birthday Momma!!!!!!!!! 40 is old. lol anyway....i gave tony like 3 hickies! haha. its kinda funny cuz i didnt even mean to. Now he wont go eat dinner with me and my family for my mom's b-day! How sad i am...*tear*tear* Its kool i still love you baby! -Danielle- -ibleedalone-

Ok....Me and Tony went to Erics House at like 3pm. We watched Dave Chapelle and then just left. Then we came back home and ate. After that we left to go to bill's crib. We ended up going to the mall with Kyle so he could see his gurl (she works at Hot Topic!) Then....later on we went back to billy's. We had to wait till like 11pm to get the party started. Tony didnt want me to drink much so i didnt. I didnt want to throw up anyway. So we chilled and i took 1/2 a KP. So i was feelin pretty good. Then we decided to leave. We came home and did some shit. I mean shit as in like sexual. I told him mow much of a freak i am and that i like it rough. lol. So it was like fucking amazing! He didnt finish though cuz i was NERVOUS. I didnt want to do anything that we might regret in the future. So we stopped. But it was fucking awsome! Who new a virgin could be that fucking good. I mean i am so lucky. He's already a freak/nympho/ and he knows wut to do when it comes to being "rough". Oh Lord! I was freakin out! And then i told him i was ganna write to u guys and now he is passed out. So i hope he doesnt get mad when he reads this tomorrow morning. (plz dont baby. No one here knows you) (XoXoX: i love you baby~boy!) SO ya, now im sittin here alone with shit to do! Im not even tierd! Well...im ganna go. Rock~On People! -Danielle- -Ibleedalone-

Last night was sooooo crazy! We went to Billy's house and it seemed kind of lame at first. No body was there but me, Tony, Jose, and Billy. Then Jared and David came over. They didnt stay though. So then andother guy named jared, Josh, and Jessica came over. Thats when the party really started. They went and got like 2 cases of beer, a fifth of bacardi RAZZ, and like a shit load of Mikes Hard: lemonade, razz, berry and pink. I started off drink some mike's. Then i drank like i dont even remember how many shots of Bacardi. I got so drunk. I gave josh like $5 for pizza....which was a bad idea. Then i ate like 2 pieces. Tony didnt drink much cuz he had to drive us home. We ended up leaving at like 12 cuz i was so hamered. We got back and i threw up like 3 times. And then i guess i took my contacts out and passed out. I DIDNT EVEN GET TO HAV MY GOODNIGHT SQUARE! thats really sad! i feel bad cuz i just passed out on Tony like that. i felt like shit though. We woke up this morning and i was still drunk! i feel better now....tony just ran out of the shower to go to the kitchen and im am very cunfuzzled now. We are going back over to Bill's 2night but i am not drinkn hard LQ. I cant. i was wayyyyy to fucked up. So ya. I LOVE U!!!!!!! -Danielle- -ibleedalone-

Ummmm....ya. Me and Tony left so i could go tanning. Then we went to Sam Ash so he could show me wut drum set he wanted to get. We also looked at guitars. Well, b4 we got there i was really hungry so we were heading to McDonalds. Well...this guy was coming out of the gas station and Tony stopped so he could go ahead. The guy wasnt even looking at the road...he was looking at the floor in his car. He hit us!!!!!! THen he tried to lie to the cops about how it happened. So now we are back at tony's. His mom has had a few beers and she is bitching out Tony as i speak. She is saying that it was Tony's fault. HELLO? I WAS THERE! I SAW EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED!!!!! So we are ganna eat and then go back to billy's house. We are partyin tonight, but im not sure if we are comeing back here. We might just stay at bill's. Tony probably doesnt want to stay here tonight now that his mom is freakin out. I feel really bad for him cuz i know how it feels to be bitched at by a drunken mom. Only my mom did bad shit to me.(mayb cuz im a girl) So ya, ill tell u wuts goin on later. I love you guys! -Danielle- -ibleedalone-

I woke up this morning...next to my man....I feel sooooo much better now....im glad i didnt do anything stupid last night. I guess i just needed to sleep....plus i was all fucked up so im sure i over-reacted myslef too. So everything is cool now.....Thanks to all the people who dont even know me for caring. I love him sooo much! -Danielle- -ibleedalone-

-Well....me and my boyfriend just got in a fight. We were just talking but then it became into this big shit. I'm really sad right now because i dont think he trusts me with my X. I told him that only God can predict the future. He was saying that he wanted to b with me 4ever.I love him so much. But seriously, who can predict the future? ONLY GOD! So now i feel like just dieing. I think it would be better if i were dead. This shit wouldnt of happened and no1 would have their hearts broken. I told him that i Will ALWAYS have a place in my heart for Danny (my X). Well....ya....i just feel like dieing. And thats all there is to it. I love him....he knows that. -Danielle-

-Me and tony went to billy's house and i am soooooo fucked up right now....and there is more of that to come. haha! We came back and i have nooooo idea how went got home. But we did. I'm havin lots of fun already...and this weekend hasnt even stared yet for me! Lol....i dont even really know wut im writing or wut im ganna type anymore....im lucky i can even type! SO ya....ill tell ya people moore 2morrow. Rock n Roll Baby! -Danielle

Well....i ended up not going to skool at all today! I would have been screwed anway cuz i wouldnt of gotten my Geometry h/w done. My dad just took me to skool at 1:30 so we could get there at 2:45. Then i got on the bus so i could go to tony's. My dad "thinks" im going to robin's to go camping. But i'm really staying with Tony all weekend. I feel really bad cuz i hate lieing to my dad, but this is the only way. There was no way he would have let me stay with my boyfriend! So if u read this dad (hopefully you don't or didn't) I'm sorry....please don't be mad at me. This was the only way. Anyways, This weekend, me and Tony are partyn' at billy's house. Then i have no idea wut the hell we are doing. We have like $38 (i think) to do w/e we want. FUCKING GAS PRICES ARE OUTRAGES! I cant believe that a fucking huricane could do this shit to us here in fucking Indiana! I mean, it happened in New Orleans for Christ's sake! But oh well. I just wish i new wat we were doing this weekend! So i have a 4 DAY WEEKEND!!!! YAY~RA BABY!

~~~~~ANSWER THIS PEOPLE.!!!~~~~ W0ULD Y0U... [1] go out with me? [2] give me your number? [3] kiss me? [4] let me kiss you? [5] watch a movie with me? [6] take me out to dinner? [7] drive me somewhere [8] make love to me? [9] take a shower with me? [10] be my gf? [11] hug me? [12] buy me food? [13] take me home to meet your parents? [14] would you let me sleep in your bed if i didn't have one? [15] sing car karaoke w/ me? [16] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone? [17] give me a piggyback ride? [18] come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere D0 Y0U... [1] think im cute? [2] want to kiss me? [3] want to cuddle wit me? [4] want to hook up with me? [5] want to (fill in the blank) with me ARE WE... [1] aquintences? [2] friends? [3] in a relationship? [4] gonna have kids? AM i... [1] smart? [2] cute? [3] funny? [4] sexy? [5] gorgeous [6] cool? [7] intersting to talk to? HAVE Y0U EVER... [1] thought about me? [2] thought there might be an "us"? [3] thought about hookin up with me? [4] found yourself wanting to kiss me? [5] wished i were there? ARE Y0U... [1] happy you know me? [2] mad at me? [3] thinkin bout me? ---I got this off my friend from www.myspace.com ---

Waking up in the morning hours hoping life was done wiping crust off of my eyes preparing for the sun. Perfume lingers in the air walking down the hall people and laugh no one cares at all. Sitting in the noisy class talk I do not dare being silent and very still no one knows I'm there. Sweat is dripping down my neck soldiers on the field trying not to think wanting to be healed. Crying quiet in my bed letting tears flow out If everyone knew, anyone knew what I was thinking about. boredom + depression = inspiration. That is the equation. Once again....BY: DAMNED

I'm far too pouty for my own good. I hardly ever smile. Well, I smile a lot, but it's not my natural expression. My 'neutral' expression, the one that I walk around with all the time, is very pouty/moody. And it annoys me. But then if you walk around with a smile on your face people think you're crazy. Why is that anyway? I gor this off of DAMNED....its tru...WHY?