you're boring, go away

Listening to: awake - finch
Feeling: deranged
your just jealous because my shoes are better than yours
i havent slept in 24 hours woops yeah dont worry im sleeping in about half an hour brain hurts to much for thinking or the fact that emma had hit me on the head with an apple this morning more sleep = orgasms mmmmm i could go for some mangos right about now apparently finch broke up i hope they didnt :( i need to buy arctic monkeys geezsh xoxo sarah
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I need to talk to someone, and i know i can trust you.
I'm at school right now. My blade, the sharpest one, a meat knife from my kitchen, is in my pocket, calling to me as i type this. It has already cut into my arm once. I want to be able to stop, but i'm not strong enough. I can't cope.
But my mother is wrong, i don't need help. I need you...
ok they so did not break up!!!
i love your shoes :D
roro
I can't cope. I'm NOT strong enough.
My mother is trying to arrange councilling for me now.

i don't need help.
i need someone to love, who loves me.
i...
i don't feel safe talking about my feelings. it makes me feel vunerable, and i don't want to feel like that. I don't mind talking to you privately, but not in public, cause i don't want everyone to know just how weak i really am. Everyone seems to think i am strong, and i can do....
.... anything, but i'm not, and i can't. I'm weaker than anyone thinks, and much weaker than my friends, and you, seem to want to accept. You think I'm strong, but i'm not. I want to stop, but i can't. I don't know why, but i just can't. i'm pitiful.

help me...
sleep=orgasms?

Sarah are those dreams plaguing you again...
i don't think anyone can help anymore.
it's too late.
i'm just another lost soul, to remain lost forever.


i love you...
i love you sarah. you've always been there to help me. you're my angel=)