well bad day yesterday. and thesse are th only options i could come up with. A) avoid my coworkers at all cost. stay in front and man the customers. avoid richard. B)kill my self. im so bipolar. ever time i cry my thoughts go to suicide ever time i cry i want to cut myself. i hate and love the pain. i havent done it since...november 2rd? im such a wanna bee. im attached to a person who lives practically half way around the world. and when i think of quiting my job i think 'what about richard. ill never see him again?' i want to wake up and live for me. i felt like crying so bad yesterday. but i didnt cry. i didnt cry