Today was great.... i went to carolyns.. About A Boy was a great movie and then Final Destination 2...omg...FREAKYYYYY. Matt-im so sorry for ur loss... :-(.. i wish that i could be there for you. just no that im here for you if you need me. feel better. luv ya :-/ im all alone tonite...just sitting here, candles lit and lights off. it looks so romantic. im listening to Blink 182 mostly.." are u afraid of being alone...cuz i am, im lost without you."...explains perfectly how i feel right now. i was thinking sumthing earlier... dont ask me why...but this just was on my mind...but, if i died, how would the friends that i only talk to online..know? i mean...its just that im close to lots of these people, and id just completely disappear, and they would never know. i have to get up for softball at 8am tomo morning to be at practice at 10..2 hours early?? damn... :-( 2 1/2 hours...hope i survive..who knows...i <3 softball.. -I Miss You- "Hello there, the angel from my nightmare The shadow in the background of the morgue The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me We'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never ends Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you) Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you) Where are you and I'm so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight I need somebody and always This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunting every time And as I stared I counted Webs from all the spiders Catching things and eating their insides Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason Will you come home and stop this pain tonight Stop this pain tonight Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)" -mad love to that song- depressing nite...its a tearjerker... <3 Lauren