It sucked ass, a day and a half after we come back from Australia I end up in the ER. and then i get the glory of spending like a week in the hospital. And of course it would be me who gets extreamly sick and gets a bad infection. I mean come on now who else would that happen to. i know the answer, NO ONE! why becasue shit like this always happens to me. On the brighter side, i'm almost better and i am all out of pills! no more meds for me!!! woo hoo!! However this summer as usual, i have no life. i get to babysit my siblings everyday and maybe if i'm lucky see my friends a few times. thats if i'm lucky. OH yea!! i finally saw x-men 3, best one! awsome movie. even better then that is Cars. make fun of me all that you like. That is one cute funny movie. If you haven't seen it or dont plan on seeing it thats too bad, you have to see it. why because i told you to:p oh! i have to go, my dad is home from work and looks angry/grumpy/like someone shoved a stick up his ass and he cant figure out whats up there. lots of love, ~Kae~

It sucked ass, a day and a half after we come back from Australia I end up in the ER. and then i get the glory of spending like a week in the hospital. And of course it would be me who gets extreamly sick and gets a bad infection. I mean come on now who else would that happen to. i know the answer, NO ONE! why becasue shit like this always happens to me. On the brighter side, i'm almost better and i am all out of pills! no more meds for me!!! woo hoo!! However this summer as usual, i have no life. i get to babysit my siblings everyday and maybe if i'm lucky see my friends a few times. thats if i'm lucky. OH yea!! i finally saw x-men 3, best one! awsome movie. even better then that is Cars. make fun of me all that you like. That is one cute funny movie. If you haven't seen it or dont plan on seeing it thats too bad, you have to see it. why because i told you to:p oh! i have to go, my dad is home from work and looks angry/grumpy/like someone shoved a stick up his ass and he cant figure out whats up there. lots of love, ~Kae~

wow... totally off from what i was going to say, but my background and all that is REALLY irritating! imma fix that as soon as i'm done here. the green can stay, but the red has got to go, maybe black. any ways, bcak on topic. I really wanted someone to like me, and i got what i wanted, just not.... i dont know, just not the someone I WANT it to be. I mean i know i sound like a brat and a bitch, but it's Max Wright and yeah. I love him as a friend, he's a really great person and all, but I just dont feel anything more then friendship for him. God this is going to sound awful, but I hope with everything i've got that he doesn't ask me out, cuz then I'll have to say "no". I've learned my lesson about dating someone and waiting on someone else. It NEVER turns out good in the end. On a MUCH more happy note, after school in bio was fun today. Kyle and I disected the frog (it wasn't that bad) and a bunch of people were in the lab. we were listening to the new Chilie Pepper's cd on Philip's speaker things. IT was awsome! hopefully someone will let me borrow their copy so i dont have to buy my own, but maybe i will get my own, just so that i have it. *sorry sie about the next thing i say, actually sorry everyone, i'm being absessive* but Logan and Minoka were doing their disection across from us and sid and dominic were diagonally from us. It was FUN!!! disecting animals and telling them all how to disect a nasty smelling fish and joking around w/ them all. I was just really happy and i dont know what feeling it was, but it felt GREAT!!!! well i've got more homework and crap to do. Lots of love, ~Kae~

well, i'm kinda bored. and get too easily distracted. i think what i need to do, is say NO msn for me this weekend and finish all of my projects. with 10 days of classes left things are getting hard and i am getting stressed. I really need to take a breath and chill out and calm down. Getting stressed is not what i need to do. o look dinner and shit to do. write later lots of love, ~kae~

with the advice of a friend, i am going to tell him how i feel. my friend told me even though i asked him out, he doesn't know i how i REALLY FEEL ABOUT HIM. god i am scared, i hate telling people how i feel about them. it makes me go extreamly far out of my comfort zone. OH YEAH! on a more postive side, my cousin Clark is home! his drug tests all came back negative, only becasue he has a very fast matbolism and all traces were gone by the time he took the drug test. so, they cant prove he used the drugs, only that he had them, he got to come home. i still haven't gotten to see him, but it makes me feel SO much better knowing he's home and in not as ....much trouble. i cant wait i go to australia in 26 days. it's so exciting. i really should start getting stuff for that, but knowing me i wont actually get anything till like a week before we go. and i wont actualy pack till like a day before we leave. i am so bad about that stuff. today was the day of silence. i did better then last year, i talked less and didn't say anything for my frist 2 classes and most of my third. then i gave up. i tried to be quiet for a little longer afterwards, btu i jsut couldn't. not talking it just too hard for me. Bryn and i had fun during lunch though, we wrote parts of songs on my white board. then on the way back to school i lost my white board marker, which is kinda sad. well, imma go to bed now. i'm tired. i love you all! ~Sakae~

hey guys, i forgot my password and it was taking too long to get a new one. it was faster to set up a new thing all together. any ways. i'm really pissed/hurt. my cousin Clark (we means a lot to me) was caught with acrap load of drugs, actually it was one drug. now he's at juvi and i have no idea when i'm going to see him again. i generally dont care if ppl do drugs or not, but this...he's my family and the closest thing to a good brother that i have. now the family isn't going to trust him, or be very found of him for a while. what i dont get is why he didn't tell me. he had plenty of chances to say "o btw Kae, i've been doing drugs for a while and blah blah blah." he knows i wouldn't like it, but i wouldn't tell on him and i wouldn't feel so betrayed now. i'm debating if i should punch him. be pissed at him, or forget all about it the next time i see him. i know for certain that i am not going to take on the motherly role of "why did you do that? dont you know that bad for you? etc." he already has people to do that, and i am not going to be one of them. on a more happy note, i was going through these pictures i have from intensives last year and i found a few really goood ones of Logan. it makes me happy! he has pretty eyes *thinks about his eyes for the next 5 mins*. SHUT UP SIE! i know i'm being crazy! to save you all i will move on. actually i have a history project i REALLY need to finish. lots of love, ~Kae~