sex, drugs and... parents?

Listening to: none
Feeling: addicted
Wow alot of shit has hit the fan. my parents are on my back constantly about my grades o and lets not forget that they found out i smoke weed.... yea life preetty much sux rite now except i still have my friends. shit happens on good days and on bad days u just gotta take it as it comes. And i still have Kallen my boyfriend, its the longest relationship ive had which is pretty said considering its only been like 3 months but i am only 16 u see. i have a funny story that goes along with the whole Kallen deal. well... me and him where in his bedroom and his parents came home (thank god he locked his door) and all i hear is "Kallen.. Kallen wut are you doin?" so i fuckin sprint into his closet w/ out my pants on it sucked a donkeys left nut lol it was so bad fortunatly we didnt get caught... thankfully *coughcough*
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people suck

Listening to: fall out boy
Feeling: amorous
wow it disgusts me how people are u would think that the world has changed but the truth is it never has. boys are still stupid, girls are still bitches, parents are still bithes but not as much as the girls i might add. they never forgive and never forget and people say they change but they dont, ever. its the truth
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party!!

Listening to: 93.3
Feeling: alive
hell yea fuckin party time lol last night was awesome and so was the nite before that and the night before that. well u get the picture. man Boulder ppl are great there so funny lolesp the bums that are like " come on man wheres the bud lets smoke up man" there so funny to talk 2. but enough about the bums. but me dan rose and kallen walked around boulder. man i love that boy!kallen is a sexy beast lol
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party!!

Listening to: 93.3
Feeling: alive
hell yea fuckin party time lol last night was awesome and so was the nite before that and the night before that. well u get the picture. man Boulder ppl are great there so funny lolesp the bums that are like " come on man wheres the bud lets smoke up man" there so funny to talk 2. but enough about the bums. but me dan rose and kallen walked around boulder. man i love that boy!kallen is a sexy beast lol
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white america

If you were here, I would kill your ass, nigger. Consider yourself lucky. I would stick a knife in your anus where you were raped by other niggers and fat lards, you 300 pound monkey! Haha. You just keep thinking that you're smart and know big words. Ooohh.... Zealous!!! [shmucketyduck] Scars Why don't you go fuck yourself Nigger? You've had enough experience with random people, you whore bag. Don't you think you can handle yourself now? And then you can kiss my white ass. :) [shmucketyduck] WOW WHITE AMERICA PEOPLE!!!ANIT THESE LOVELY COMMENTS GREAT! THANK U SMUCKETYDUCK!im sure u have enlightened all these fine people who have read your atrocious comments!
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Scars

Listening to: fall out boy
Feeling: amused
Scars-this is a true story,my true story I hate green. Not just any kind of green, its just that puke green you see in hospitals. Someone told me once that if you stare at it long enough all you’ll see is different shades of green. No more purple or blue, just green. But it’s hard not to stare at those ugly green hospital walls when there is nothing else to look at. If that color had a smell it would smell just like that hospital did. Like someone tried to cover up the smell of their stinky sneakers but it ended up just making it worse. I was still wearing those green clothes they give all the “fresh meat” when entering that particular ward of the hospital. I had asked the lady at the front desk if they had any shirts with longer sleeves, the lady only glanced up from her silver rimmed glasses and wavered her head from left to right. “ Ay new girl” I heard someone say behind me,” why do you need a longer shirt? We all got ‘um, I mean that’s what your here for right?” she chuckled as she placed her wrist four inches from the tip of my nose. “My name is Kirra,” she replied before I had time to say a word. She lowered her wrist from in front of my face to my hand. She was unlike anybody I had ever known before, and she was ok with that. She was ok with being different. I didn’t really need to talk when Kirra was around; she was the one who did my part and her part of the conversation. I didn’t know then that the reasons why she talked so much, why she had a bunch of little needle pricks in the crease of her arm, why she always twitched, and why in the middle of the night she had crazy temper tantrums. But I did know she was my friend. Me, Kirra and the rest of the adolescent delinquents headed towards the cafeteria where the food looked and tasted just like the walls except for the Kool aid, which was red. Kirra’s piercing stare caught my attention; she cocked her head a little to the left. I sped up till I was parallel with her. I dropped my right hand she dropped her left, we clasped hands only for a brief moment. The wad of paper in my hand was wet from hers. I opened it and read. As soon as I had read it my fearful eyes darted back to find hers. My lips formed the word how? Before I was answered she grabbed my hand looked into my eyes, smiled and she ran and I was with her. We were free, the real kind. Kirra was female version of 007 and I was her sidekick. We made it to the third gate before Helga the fat lesbian guard tackled us to the ground. Luckily we made it out with only cuts and brusies from Helga’s love handles. “ WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF?!?” my father yelled at me, “all you do is cause more damage, more suffering. We try and help you we even put you in a nice expensive hospital and look! Look what you do!” My hands in my lap and my eyes focused intensely on them like they were the ninth wonder of the world. “ Saying this to your daughter does not help her sir. It only causes more pain for her and yourself. Now if every family meeting we have is like this we will be forced to take away your visitation rights,” Dr. Bradley barked at my father,” she needs more time...” “No” I whispered. They both turned and looked at me.“ I said NO! Have either one of you asked me what I wanted?” I glared at them with such passion I had never shown before, “ I know I’m messed up I don’t need anyone else telling me what I ALREADY FUCKING KNOW. I’m done. I’m done with you and with the blame, the hurt, and the hatred I’ve had to deal with because you’ve told me that I’m not right in the head. Well look Dad I’m really crazy!” I skipped around the room throwing Dr. Bradley’s papers in the air. I pulled up my sleeves that day. Like Kirra used to say, ”Scars are like tattoos….but with better stories.”
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MEAT...reasons why u should eat it

Listening to: fuck cows!!!!
Feeling: aggressive
WHY SHOULD U EAT MEAT??? 1)Its fucking tasty duh 2)cows r stupid and they deaserve to b eaten 3)its natural 4)Billions of people cant b wrong 5)because the screaming chickens of death in your dreams need to die 6)to support your local burger joint 7)because its great munchie food 8)because i told u so and i will not b told otherwise 9)so you dont look like an anorexic vegitarian 10)to piss of smucktyduck the evil lezbian whore from outerspace!!! muahahahahaha what shmucketyduck has to say about this entry... I found your entry very humourus! :) What great reasons. They make so much sense! NOT. Anwyays, you have a good one too, you dirty little nigger. [shmucketyduck]
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kallen my love

Listening to: yellowcard
Feeling: alienated
now i wish he called more i wish he cared more it just pisses me off cuz i kno the reason hes been so distant and i wish i could just b like u need to stop because im afflicted with the same wounds as he is "its those damn friend"
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kallen

Listening to: marley
Feeling: alluring
well i got a bf but i dunno if hes the right guy for me i mean he treats me right and everything but i dunno. hes perfect but i may b 2 much 2 handle for him
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oh hell waz up

Listening to: sublime
Feeling: aloof
hey ya'all i got a new phone its pretty fuckin sweet yup and yea a lot of shit has gone down lately but i dun wanna write about it cuz im scared the inits might b reading this shit i hate that so much
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oh hell waz up

Listening to: sublime
Feeling: aloof
hey ya'all i got a new phone its pretty fuckin sweet yup and yea a lot of shit has gone down lately but i dun wanna write about it cuz im scared the inits might b reading this shit i hate that so much
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oh hell waz up

Listening to: sublime
Feeling: aloof
hey ya'all i got a new phone its pretty fuckin sweet yup and yea a lot of shit has gone down lately but i dun wanna write about it cuz im scared the inits might b reading this shit i hate that so much
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sweet survey

Listening to: none
Feeling: unsatisfied
have you ever 1. Given a homeless guy more than $5? i would if i had more than 5 dollars 2. Spent more than $500 on a bf/gf's gift or a night out?: where the hell would i get that kind of money? 3. Had sex with more than one person in a day?: i maybe a slut but not that big of one 4. Hooked up with a good friends bf/gf behind their back?: no i wouldn't ever do that 2 a friend 5. Dated two people at once?: i wish 6. Actually met someone from myspace that you didn't know before? i dont have a myspace 7. Been raped? hell no there would b some ass kickin goin down 8. Failed more than one class? never failed a class 9. Took someone's virginity when you weren't a virgin? no i have not 10. Hooked up with someone from a different race? yea a hawiian 11. Ran around naked outside in the daytime/night time? o yea that was a hell of a night 12. scuba dived? damnit no 13. snorkled? almost once but didnt get 2 it 14. Dated someone you didn't want your friends to meet? yea, um not 2 proud of that one 15. Got your stomach pumped, from alcohol poisoning? close but no 16. Threw up from alcohol? dont make me think about it. 17. Been suspended from school? no sir. 18. Kissed someone of the same sex? once but i wish i hadn't. 19. Wore a short skirt with out panties? once again im not that big of a slut. 20. Let a guy paint your toenails (girls) paint a girls toenails (guys)?: no but that would b intresting. 21. Met someone famous? kinda 22. Saved someone's life? yea i drove them home when they were wasted 23. Seen someone die? no but ive seen a dead body. 24. Killed someone? no but sometimes i wish i could. 25. Been in a physical fight? yea that bitch went down 26. Hooked up with someone 10yrs older or younger then you? nope i like older guys but not that old 27. Been arrested? yes, for tresspassing. 28. Spent the night in jail? nope. 29. Been in more than three car accidents in a year? nope never been in one 30. Had sex outside? no. 31. Given or gotten road head? i dont want 2 talk about it 32. Had sex in your house when your parents were home? no thats scary 33. Had phone sex? yea its not that exciting. 34. Been turned off by someone's personal hygiene? o god yea 35. Watched the donkey show? whats that?. 36. Had sex without a condom? yea and im scared shitless 37. Had a one night stand? yea and i regret it 38. Triple Kissed?yea its awful and slobery 39. Had sex on the beach? i wish 40. Watched porn with someone else? i have never watched porn 41. Been fired from a job? almost. 42. Danced on top of a bar? no. 43. Had sex somewhere in your high school? yea unfortuatly. 44. Bought a vibrator? hell no. 45. Been in a porn shop? nope. 46. Been in a dance competition? yea im a cheerleader im in them all tha fuckin time. 47. Had a threesome? close but no 48. Spent more than one night in a hospital? yea its a bad story 49. ODed on a drug? yea and went 2 tha hospitial thats another bad story.
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god damn

Feeling: athletic
practice started on sundays again and it really really sux cuz i cant go 2 the grizzly rose anymore and i have privates in the morning for tumbling so im goin twice in one day 2 the gym. this really agrivates me, if u cant tell let me get my anger out MOTHER FUCKER, FUCK,FUCK FUCKITY FUCK!!! I HATE THIS U FUCKIN CARPET MUNCHING POONANNY I WANNA RIP UR FUCKING DICK OFF U STUPID FUCKING POOPY DICK!! ok im done
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have u noticed...

Listening to: tv
Feeling: agitated
have u noticed that certian people with the same names are all bitchy for example all the ashley's i have known have always been bitches i guess u can say that i wont b naming my kid ashley
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life sux

Listening to: the tv
Feeling: aggravated
wow life def. sux 1) i have no boyfriend 2) i dont have a best friend 3) my family is gay 4) i have 2 fuckin work all summer 5) i lost some of m tumbling well i guess it could always b worse
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work bites the big one

Feeling: tranquil
i fucking hate work, hell i even hate the word work its just so fucking ugly. i get bitched at constantly and i have to get up early and go 2 bed exausted. i get paid MINIMUM WAGE FOR CHILD LABOR!!!!! if my manager insults me again i will b assulting her and after i fuck the manager up then im gunna shorten the register up!!!
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look at me

Listening to: weezer
Feeling: crabby
look at her, does she look special? because shes not.do u c her for who she really is? but what is she really? a girl in a world, with nobody 2 love, or 2 love her for that matter. does it matter that shes shallow, sad, and medicated? not 2 anyone but her. and she is me
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