So yea I'm getting upset cause like I'm so confused I like 4 different guys and like they like me too but its hard cause the one I actually wanna be with is a really great guy and I'm already falling in love and everyday I wanna cry but I cant cause I have to be strong and its hard when I see my friends all over their boyfriends and kissing and hugging getting affection and I dont get any it hurts me cause I dont even want sex I want to cuddle be held and get kisses and all that basically so I feel loved but that hardly ever happens. :(
I just wish I was 18 cause I'm 16 right now and the one I truly want to be with told me I have to wait until I'm 18 to be with him cause hes 21 :( i dont know its just hard and weird for me like I'm at a friends house my BEST FRIEND! and I love her to death but like I am jealous cause she has a boyfriend and gets affection and everything and I dont get no one so I'm always sad... Faking a smile a laugh everyday of my life cause I cant truly be happy unless I have someone there for me but yea its hard for me. I wish I was happy but I cant be :( Yea I have my friends there but it only helps a little. When is it my turn to finally be happy????