i thought.. e'rything would change. i mean.. all this stuff around, the whole world. it hasn't. people around - they do not really change, only growing older. things around - the same - the do not change. only the layer of dust is getting thicker. i put the final point. i mean my ex-bf & i broke up... and there's no way back. why should i be treated with these bullshit promises of getting together again once in the future?.. no. let's just.. forget all that. all this - good & bad. this summer... i have no money & no job .. still. i'd pass the exams & hitch-hike again. & i do not care. freedom - i would not substitute it for anything else.