Before going to a club on Saturday my parent's had great news for both of us (my brother and I). They were going to get Divorce! Yes, isn't it marvellous? After 18 fucking years together, love flies away. WTf are they thinking of? The didn't even bother to explain us why . . . they just told us that we wouldn't understand, ohh Fucking A . . . well at least I could yell at them without a further remorse. Anyway, now my father has gone, he has moved living my mother, my brother and me alone. The worst thing is that I shall have to decide who i will be staying with . . . or not. Well, don't know what to do, things are getting better day over day, aren't they?

-The worst thing of being dead is living our lives-. Don't know were i got that shit from but anyway, maybe they're right but why bother? God, i'm on a dilemma. Going to canada, not going to Canada. Living everything behind for 3 months, or not? Well, i have till wednseday, pff. Well, got to go and have some food, i?m starving.

Well, i fucked up again, well this time it wasn't my fault, but anyway . . . Yesterday I went to this huge party at one of the most famous schools in Madrid. It was benefic, to help poor people in Africa i think. So at first everything was allright, but then everything changed. My "fuckfriend" (if you want to call her that) got mad at me because i wanted to talk with her bestfriend, anyway, and she told me she wanted to be with me, and she made me go there, with the rain and everything, and just, 15 minutes after i arrived, she told me she had to go, and I was WTF! The most important thing happened at nightfall, i was pissing in some tree nearby and some friends came over, one of them, he is fucking annoying, told me smth, i told him to go and fuck himself and we started fighting, punching eachother, well . . . mad. He told me i didn't deserve my friends, blabla, he was drunk at the time, and i was like, WTF! again :P:P Well, i got really pissed and i just want to kick his face very hard, but well, tomorrow it's a very long day . . .

3 FUCKING MONTHS, 3 FUCKING MONTHS, I tried to get on the habbit of writing at least 2ice a week, but I failed, I'm trying again though. 1)Things are going great for me now, weird ey?Well yeah, right now i'm pissedoff but for some stupid discussion i'm having, things are going great, i haven't fell lonely and depressed for some time. 2)Love life, well yeah, it's quite good. I have the weirdest relationship ever, i don't understand it myself, but for me it's ok, it's just very very weird. 3)New guitar! I've got the guitar of my dreams, it's a gibson sg from 1962 brownish (wooden texture), it's the same as angus youngs'. 4)New style. I was sick of having long, nice hair so i cut it. I shaved it, only the left and right side. I left some kind of big mohawk in the centre. People love it other hate it, i love it though, it's cool. 5)At last, i've got my ear pierced, just once, my parents almost killed me, but well, i'm not like my sweet, polite, old brother, sorry to disappoint you :P But my brother's so fucking awesome, you should meet him, anyway, before going to Kamp, i'm getting my ear pierced again, or my lip, or maybe my eyebrow, dunno, you choose, hehe. 6) I'm going to Kamp with 3 friends, it will fucking rock! it will be awesome, at last, it's just 2 months so i can see everyone again. I specially want to see you Hardial, i sware i missed u so much during easter. I don't know why, i suddenly started thinking of you, all day long, cause i hadn't talk to you for so long! Anyway, maybe i've realized you are so important for me, you allways help me when i need it, and you know i'll allways be there for u, but well, let us not get romantic, :P:P Few, what a long entry, anyway i had so many other thing to tell, maybe another time, when i'm a bit less tired. Luv ya all! Ps: Hardial remind me to e-mail you the story i was telling you before you got off-line, remember. te quiero

we live in a world of shit. That's the conclusion i've got from all the things that had happened in my live. I hate it, i fucking hate everything and everyone, and the only thing i've realized is, that you can't trust nobody, not even your family, friends or possible girlfriend. I just want everything to stop. I just want to sit alone, without anyone bothering me.

Ooo, more than a month without writing, i should get on the habit of writing at least 2 times a week. Well, i'm sorry, I was bussy or maybe i'm just too lazy to keep writing. Well, i made a balance of how was my last year and i got to the conclusion that it was preety shitty, anyway, new year, we'll leave the past year behind, shall we? So, christmas was fine, i love all my presents, specially an album i was looking for a year and one graphic novel that had been sold out for about 2. The album is "Besos de perro" (Marea) you won't know the band, but they are awesome, and the graphic novel was "V for Vendetta" (Alan Moore), it's awesome, i'm not a fuan of comics but this one is awesome, it's all about anti-fascism, and freedom and shit in a near future. It's worth it. Anyway, my new year was insane, i got home at 10 o'clock in the morning after a long night drinking, and smoking. I shall put the pic's of the party. We smoked this huge joint of about 10-15 papers (no joke) you'll have to see it, it was huge. And we smoked it between 10 people all of whom were allready drunk (me too) and it was . . . i have no word to describe it. Anyway, bad news, smoking is banned on public places, and also drinking, and right now i'm heading to a "botellon" which has been made ilegal yesterday so, wish me luck, my brother is allready known bu the fucking police, they caught him with weed or smth, and i allway have to run. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!

Man, it's been so long since i wrote for the last time, i'm so fucking happy, strange isn't it? Things are going so great, my notes are fucking awesome (yes, i've allready done my exams) and my friends told me they would never let me down.Plus, The fucking doctor told me i have a fucking amazing body for my age, that i was so fucking healthy and i'm feeling so great. Things are going back to it's origins. I love myself, i love everybody around me, i close my eyes and start seeing flowers and people dancing :p:P:p migy

In love with the girlfriend of my best friend, FUCKING A, i'm so stupid I just want to hung myself. By the way, Hardial, did you got the letter? And i can't phone you cause i lost the phonecard, anyway, yeah, it's bullshit, i'm with him for telling you not to do shrooms, but your going to do them anyway, so what's the point? migy

OMG, life is so fucking horrible, a girl that i thought she was in love with me just dumped me, and told me to fuck off, no aparent reason, anyway, fuck her. Yesterday, it was my grandfather's 80th birthday, it seems he is very old, but my grandmother is 64 (yeah well, he liked teens :p) i talked with everyone but food was so fucking aweful, i didn't eat. And i got back home, thinking in what this girl told to me, just trying to find a reason, and nothing, i'm blank. I got up this morning and was so depressed, i need to cry or talked to someone, and i talked for 3 hours with one of my best friends and i think i'm getting in love again, oooh i'm just so fucking stupid. migy

Well, well, i've realized life isn't as depressing as i thought it was. It's tuesday and no school :p Party wasn't so bad, we drunk a lot, we smoked a lot, we got so fucking high that we didn't realize my parents were watching everything for 5 minutes. But, the didn't say shit. I had to stand my best friend fucking his girlfriend in the grass that sorrounds the swimming-pool, that's when i got depressed, cause everybody was making out with someone or even fucking, or iono, and i was alone watching the fucking clouds moving, i felt so fucking sick. Anyway, at 12 o'clock i brought down my guitar and started playing and we talked and talked, and smoked and drink for waht seemed to me an eternity, till 4 o'clock in the morning when everybody left and Millan, Rubio, Javi and I got back home and just when we got into my brother's room (where we were supposed to sleep) and couldn't stop ourselves from laughing for half and hour or so, it was so awesome. Have to get some sleep, good night sweeties. migy

Fuck, everybody is so fucking annoying wuth the party i'm gonna give on Sunday, i feel they just talk to me because i'm doing it, i just want to tell them they fucke up, i not going to do nothing at all, FUCK THEM ALL. Live is so fucking depressing

Ok, monday wasn't so bad, english was awesome, Rachel (my teacher) wanted us to perform a role play as this wird chat host and it was so awesome. After, we listened to the real interview and the english interviewer (who was interviewing a french rally driver) was hilarious. The french guy was so pissed off he started insulting the guy and make him sniff cocaine :p Anyway, i met this girl, who i had never talked to, and found out she is so amazing, so fucking intelligent, dunno, don't worry, i'm not falling in love (again) hahha, i just liker as she is. And i talked to teresa (another girl)and she told me she wanted to fuck with me, that she can't wait till monday (that's when we are going go out together, not as boyfriend and girlfriend, just because we have nothing to do) and she started saying all these things and i was so fucking shocked. Anyway, wish me luck :p migy

Well, today was a fucked up day. I hate my family, i do hate it, i'm so lonely, so fucking depressed and nobody seems to care, they are like: "ohh, leave him alone, he'll sort it out". Yo fucking bastards, then you want me to organize things and do stuff for you, and because i'm so fucking dum i do them, ohh i hate myself. migy

Well, it's been a long time. This entry it's just for you so YOU CAN READ IT!! Here in spain, as you may not no, there has been a strike in the transport section, this is paralyzing all the economy, if this lasts more than 3 days, Spain will not recieve food any more, right know there is no gasoline in petrol stations, we hae no gas at all, allmost any food supply and the most important I CAN SEND THE FUCKING LETTER CAUSE THE MAIL IS PARALYZED TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, i'm really sorry but you'll have to wait till this ends. migy. Ps: I hate my country, please, please, please, tell your family to addopt me or smth :p

Man, yesterday i was at msn at 1 o clock in the morning, no school today :p spanish day, the only day i'm glad of being spanish. Anyway, as i was saying, i was on the comp and my best friend who's name is alex and is the one with the cigar on the right part of the pic (top_left). He told me that on saturday his ex-girlfriend came to his house at 2 o'clock and they had a pretty romantic conversation and without warning the girl told him she wanted to fuck him. I don't know if to believe it or not, but he told me the fucking story about he fucking his girlfriend and when he finished i'd never had felt so alone and depressed. It'not that i'm jealous of him, or have envy of him too. it's just, that those kind of things don't happen to me, i mean, i don't give a fuck if i don't fuck someone this year but, everybody i know seems to have some kind of luck, of some sort, while i'm here lonely and depressed, while my best friend loses virginity at 14, my other best friend meets some random girl while drinking and they are going out together and the both are in love and i'm happy for them, but i can't understand why does type of thing don't happen to me any more. I feel sosososososo lonely, i just want to cry or smth, life's shit, i hate it,i can't get over it, i hate my life, but i don't want to kill myself. It's weird, i'm sounding like a phsycho. Anyway, wish me luck, have two exams tomorrow. migy

Well, well, don't have much to tell, me and my parents went to this huge music store last week and bought a guitar, cause i'm starting classes next thursday, tho i can play it allready :P At first they didn't let me open it, but yesterday they were so tired of me that let me, but what was my surprise when i found that the E chord was broken. I'll have to get it fixed, what a bitch. Anyway, hope all's going great :p migy

OMG!! I can stand it no more. My friends do really freak me out, they allways start bitching me, humillating me cause they know, i'm so nice that i won't say shit. I shall start changing these. I'm their objects for humillation and bitching. Today I burst out and told them to fuck off, fuck them all, i can't take it!! I don't want to be here no more, i hate Spain, I hate Spanish, i hate everyone here, i just want to get out of this (maybe it's a bad dream, those nightmares that you can't wake up and you are so horrified) Fuck everybody! It's better to be alone than in bad company as we say here, and maybe there, i don't know. And also, my fucking english teacher, which i love her so much, and she is my favourite one, without any reason, started bitching me saying that i dodn't express myself right in English, loooooooooooooooooooooong story. She also said i should stop reading Superman comics (I don't read comics in the first place) and should read something that accords to my age. What? All these shit comes because I am not good in Brochures, you know for the Advanced Cambridge exam, cause she can express so poeticaly, and I . . . Anyway, i got so pissed i told her to fuck off too, and now my parents are discussing with my principal if i sould be kicked out or not. I hate my live, maybe i should go on drugs too, it makes your life so interesting don't they? migy

I HATE YOU!!!!! HARDIAL HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME? YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I SUFFERED BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WRITE BACK? I'D ALLWAYS GO AND CHECK MY MAIL BOX TO SEE IF THERE WAS A LETTER FOR ME, AND TODAY, IT FINALLY ARRIEVED, I WAS STARTING TO GET ANXIOUS, BITTING MY NAILS, I THOUGHT YOU'VE ALLREADY FORGOT ME, YOU CARE FOR ME NO MORE!!! AND I READ THAT YOU DIDN'T WANT TO TELL ME ANYTHING CAUSE SURPRISES ARE GREAT!!! YOU DON'T DESERVE TO GET A WORD FROM ME :P HAHA, JUST JOKING, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU, ANYWAY, NEXT TIME TRY TO WRITE YOUR REPPLY IN A SHORTER AMOUNT OF TIME, WILL YA? :P LOVE YOU SO MUCH, migy

I've just gone out from the hospital. I've been sick for a week and in the hospital for a couple of days. I hardly can move but i'm so deprieved if i don't go to my computer. Anyway, i have no more to say, it's been a shitty week. migy

It has been a long time since I last wrote. Anyway I told You about the concert I was going to go on saturday night, well let me explain it with all details: Me and my friend Diego arrived at the Pza de Toros 'La cubierta de Leganes' at 5.30. Imagine my surprise when my parents told me they were giving me a lift instead on going by subway. I think it's because they want to check on the type of people I was going to mix with that night. Me and Diego waited for an hour and a half, just sitting down and watching people drinking and chatting happily. At once, some press members from the National news came to us and asked why were we there and stuff. After they left, i told Diego: "Hey, at least we got ourselves on the news" :p Anyway, at about 6:30 p.m all my frieds that we were supposed to meet, came. then the party started. We got ourselves some bottles of wine, some beers, some coke and some of us were drugdealing with other drugdealers so they could by some drugs :p We got stoned in about 1 hour, we got drunk in another half and hour and we started singing stuped songs immediately after we got drunk. At about 8:30 we got to the que so we could get in. We got in the pit, me and Diego were with some girls and after the first push they got to the upstair-seats. The bands that were introducing Ska-p were, No relax and Mama Ladilla, they were great. at 10:30 Ska-p started playing, everybody was insane, jumping, pushing singing. In a song, the lead singer asked: "Are there any Andaluces?" some people of the front line started shouting. Then he said: "And any gallegos?" (you've got to understand that spain is divided in 17 autonomist regions and Galicia is one of them, it's the region me and Diego were born). So Diego and I started shouting and screaming and got all the attention for us, the people were thinking, these guys are so fucking stupid. Ska-p is a comunist band, so the concert was for antifascist's only. It was full of references to comunism and speeches and shit. Anyway, the concert ended at 1:00, and we were so fucking ehausted because of all the punches, the pushing we had recieved. We got home and just when we touched our comfy beds we were asleep. :p Well, have to repeat it, 3 december ("La fuga") Maybe i'll be able to go . . . migy