Soo I'm at the gym in marina del rey.. And its soo funny the lady next to em has liek thios huge fake books she is gnarly fake nees.. But oh well that's la for ya... Soo I attend sassoon acadmey in santa monica I'm 7 weeks in and 35 more weeks to go or something like that...... sooon enough I'll be a hair laddddyyyy. Hahahaha. Life is always changing.. I can't get over it 7 weeks ago alone I have changed I had hair down to my butt so about 2 and half to 3 feet long and now I have pieces that are abour 3 inches long I have a different out look on things. And i don't know just everything is way miore different then I expected. The gym and everything I have now is completely diferent

Soo I'm at the gym in marina del rey.. And its soo funny the lady next to em has liek thios huge fake books she is gnarly fake nees.. But oh well that's la for ya... Soo I attend sassoon acadmey in santa monica I'm 7 weeks in and 35 more weeks to go or something like that...... sooon enough I'll be a hair laddddyyyy. Hahahaha. Life is always changing.. I can't get over it 7 weeks ago alone I have changed I had hair down to my butt so about 2 and half to 3 feet long and now I have pieces that are abour 3 inches long I have a different out look on things. And i don't know just everything is way miore different then I expected. The gym and everything I have now is completely diferent

crazy time has gone by yet i still have sit diary on my mind and its a good way for me to blog i guess i remember this was the shit before myspace came into my life. haha thats funny today i joined the other social networking sit. FACEBOOK OH NO hahha more for me to creep i guess i re read a lot of my entrys and its crazyy just crazy because i was soo weird. and intense. like boys i was head over heals i guess thats just me head over heals for someone i want it to be simple like when sitdiary.net was the only thing to do online. <3 boys boys they come they go bffs still rosie and naomi and breanna smets i like it i'm happpy take away some boy drama <3333 oxox i'll continue this shit Lata

well ha omg so much has happend i work a bunch i am friends with rosie like we are attached at the hip west hates me and it tears me apart he was my world and my world isn't there because he isn't there any more he ment everything to me and it just hurts so bad and brian is compeletely over me and i asked a boy named henry if he was going to prom so that maybe i could be his date but he said he had a date wow so much emotion in one night within like 2 hours i want to find someone to put that love into why am i so emo i am such a bitch and fuuuuuuhhh i am soo angry and and upset i have no date i have nothing well i mean i got to be with BRYAN SHEA! so it was nice and i drove to la today ohh the funness of my life i kinda have a crush on henry but i guess i have to get over that

basiclly i can not have a bad day. but lets refresh it up and let me telll you how i am doing. i have had my drivers license and i drive my dads mercedes.. i got rear ended for the 1st time by Jesse neilson i hit my moms car this morning before school and broke my right blinker.. oops.. but i'm not a bad driver the rear end...all his fault and today that was me.. but it was because i was really upset. brian broke up with and well it has been on my mind and its hurting me i don't know what to do..i want him yet mayebe its time becasue we both haven't been nice to one another but i love him soo much i can't really live without him but maybe this is wear i find more and just DATE? around but i am going to wait for brian a lil bit just because i think it would be nice just to wait for him right...for a lil i mean i don't like other boys but i mean..gah i don't know what i mean..but like i said in the begining i can't have a reallly bad day...somthing makes me soo much happier or somthing really good happends like yesturday or monday brian ended and tuesday yesturaday morning was gah but then someone said i was pretty and then i just had a goood time..and then i hung out with west and it was nice. and i went to marble slab and saw cute asian and thennnn i saw a man in BANANA SUiT hehe and yeh it was nice this morning i was bummmmed that i hit my mom's car but then i was in such a good mood its sooo weird...i like it though so its okay you know..but i had fun in all my classes my friend ryan...:) walked me to class and we just talked it was fun...and i don't know it was nice. and then west at my car..west always makes me feel better..then SHANE! came by at lunch and gave me a hug it was nice... VERY nice might i add.. and just it was nice... i love my Life yet i hate it i miss brian but camarillo is soo far but not really.. we will see how things are LATER

a year ago snap its been another year since all of it its really kind of exciting ihave nothing to do with my ex ben and brian he is my world a whole year! well kinda but its still gonna year but its been a year since ben and mel's debut and that has a lot to do with ben and i just was thinking about since last night and it just like that was the real end of me and him like it shocks me to recall all of that shit but like that next weekend i met the boy of my dreams kind of like i love brian i can't get enough of him but ben was like the perfect lil boy to date but me and brian is somthing other then fun its that warmokay i am safe feeling but with ben it was a roolllllaacoaster allll the effin time i guess thats what it is between me and brian safty but i love he makes me sad sometimes but i love him and he does rock my world and i don't know i miss my freshman year scgool is kind of hard too i am a jr this year! wow a jr! hehe but yeh i wonder how many people even use this or read this shit? everyone is like on myspace yeah i love my myspace but thenagian i love this because no one is really on it anymore but i love it myspace is overrated and i just it for my thaifriends soo whateva

so basically i am back with brian after i came back from thailand i missed brian soo much but then boston kinda came back into my life it was random we just started talking and then it was fun but it was pushed to much and i just thought maybe somthing could be so i ended it agian and then now i relized brian is the one i want to be with he is like the boy! the boy i want to be with and boston he is just a hit and quit it kinda boy and i learned that from the begining i just never listen

so boston hmmmm thats intresting... the more days go by the more i think its not real any more but thats okay its a good fanstay or whatever somthing nice to think about but ah i left brian for a reason

i miss them..but i really just want to see them

at school on my monday so i am in english but i came to the libary..hmm.. i am thinking alot this weeekend has been somewhat odd i say very odd kinda eh.. guys come to play in this 'odd' weekend alot began with brian just because we had just ended 2 weeks before and it was over 'distance' or was it....i am not sure but then this other guy comes around who i am friends with right and it just happends that i thought there was a connection...member somewhat thought thought thought doesn't get you anywhere at ALL its crazy i thought oh no it just a weekend thing and it was real commfy and stuff so then this weekend came along and he was stright up dick then what so i was crushed but thing was i had no feelings earlier untill everyone started sayin oo0o so whats going on ? how is it? is there somthing there? hmm and got all these qeustions in my head so my thinking said maybe you like this fool so the day i let that in made things worse because he became an assshhhooooooooooolllllllllllllllleeeeee and i don't know what to say with that i guess it just bummed me out..alot...then my ex comes around ahh oh shit and tries some stuff and i guess it was for the better because i am like eh now about it i never wonder anymore about how he still feels so yeh thats night but then brian comes back from him hatin me because i guess danh said that iw as alllover jimmmy..psh... but yeh so then he came back and even though we are not together at this time he still hurts me because i can't get otta my head if he is playing me and vivian at the same time and what also bothers me is that he still has a lil hold on me i don['t know why this is my birthday tme thought i should be soo happy buut i amm just blah but i am happy i am talking to brian its just that vivian what the fuck is with that vivian is ahh makes me go crazy i do don't hate her at all its that she hates me for no reason at all what is with that shouldn't i hate her...she took my boy so i should not like her but i am just fakin it i guess for now and just pretening it doesn't bother me but how it does and the fact that brian is hinding that he talks to me on the phone to her! ahh hurts me on the in the side s much it like beyoind lame i gues over all i am just very hurt from all the boys in my life at this time..and i don't know i just want a boy but doesn't alot of girls want that too so what should i say..nothing to say.. its just something lame that just happend to happend and now its nothing i want someone just someone to all the time someone wheni wanted to share somthing with and a guy who i can be a great friend with that just happend to love me too at the time.. i t hought maybe i could have that with one boy but he hurt me too fuck all this shit...sjhit i tell you but hey 16 i am gonna be 16 in like only 6 more days! yay i guess but now its like my party what happends when brian comes if he comes and jimmy too what is gonna happen and then like i am mad at alot guys right now like danhbecause i think he lied to me and alan because of other shit ahhh i ams just jhdfgjdfhrikjfhhrbdugjhj

WRONG REASONS...OR FATE i was talking to a friend of mine and she was telling me about being with a guy because she knows its safe i guess and she came to point like it was all for the wrong reason..i am begining to think its that way too right now. i don't really know how to go into detail with that. i guess i am stillgoing through a "lonely" stage right now because i don't have that someone special to talk to and like he said things are changed betweeen us now. makes me sad but i guess its for the better? but is it? we meet people every day for a reason right? like if i talk to you or i meet someone i know that there is a purpose of meeting them weither its in the future to become best of friends happend to lead me to something amazing...i think that or because it was supposed to inflicted with how our day works. i have gone through many days where its almost the best day ever but its like it has a default a cRAcK in it because we weren't really supposed to or we were but by chance we have a change in plans...he ment sombody and i think it was for a reason.to point out that maybe it just wasn't supposed to worl out because we already has had this problem..it hurts really bad to even see all this happen i want my someone...or not anything huge but someone i can talk to alll the time..i love how he cares..but i guess it has to come to end..but was it fate for them to met? and me ? i can link soo many things i was supposed to met erin and nade i knew i was i mean i ment jenny who had a brother jimmy who had a cousin named paul i guess paul i thanks soo much....2 ways way 1= paul who went out with a girl named kenzie in 6th grade who i ended up becoming friends with because i was nosie and i knew her but then held on the friendship and then from there went to met her step half kinda brother loved him and then met erin who i became in love with and just can't get enough of way 2= paul who i would talk to in like 1st period and 6th period about all these girls and then he told me and ily anbout this one asian girl that went to anacapa ..and then i went to avid and and i saw her and was like o but then i was introduced to her by paul and then form then she is my oher lover i just think i was supposed to meet paul.. hehe i guess jimmy too. but its crazy how it all happend and how my cousin went out with danhs older brother..thats right there...i was supposed to met danh too and rosie wow its like fate that i met her...she is like my soul sista and her cousin and it just all links it amazes me so if you know me there is a TRUE meaning of why i met you and if you took the time to read this you have done somthing amazing probably weither you know it or not have helped me achive somthing WONDERFUL truely like my friends from back 1st grade my 1st memories have helped me become who i am today and you did that i ran into a friend of mine's mom who i was really good friends with when i was in 1st -7th grade and it was amazing the way she talked to me its like my life is somthing and its because of people who i meet everyday thank you and to that lady i met at starbucks who gave me a hug has truely givin me a GREAT present to really be thankful.. soorrry if this makes no sense

so its almost 1 in the morning..

school went by soo fast.. so a lil update... school is oky i am kinda enjoying it but my weekend.. wow it was like a aWsoMe weekend. that had a few bumps haha i have seen paul for 7 day Straight..intense... its really funny because its like you haven't seen some one in like lets call it 3-4 years and you didn't really like them back then but now its like whoa.. id on't know how to explain it all but yeh how was your weekend? ooo ps no boy for me..lost that one to her

today 1st day back at school oh yesh but really it wasn't too bad at all i enjoyed my day kinda it went by Fast but just have been thinking like about the other girl and like ahh i don't know i guess i will just have to see the out come but now with all of this i might want to back on our togetherness and just end it but i like him soo much but i don't know how much i can trust him now....i don't want to be all that lonely and i miss someone a past love but can't do shit any way ...

when you call a guy babe.. do you like them when you leave lil miss you lots and love yous...do you mean it? is there a difernce when you say ... i(3u love u luv u ily love you and love ya? i think there is is there? tho..

today i am sitting next to rosie i am mad because boys are lame and they can go choke and no more ASIANS and THEY LIE like my daddy always say boys lie.... *member that jordyn*

ILS onLy the best band ever

so i missed this and i am back i copied the most intresting entrys from back then when on to my profile i am still with brian and thing are going well i am happpy i think so i am good i miss friends so here is my sorry to all my friends: i am sorry for last year i became somthing i never wanted to be but it happend i lost my self i let go of wonderful people but i guess i can say i am sorry and i would like to make up to all of you and bring back what i lost and i think i can if you let me i am sorry and its true from me -maycie

soo my day eh its okay i am bored and i am watching the cat and the dog play like cat and dog. so the other day my friend got this forture cookie and it said the funniest thing " all a friend asks for is your time not your money" that means somthing to me. and well i am not sure if i even want there time any more because i really don't even want to be a friend but i would love there REAL time and not just a moment with them. that would be the real thing i want today i think brian is gonna come over or something like that

it was pretty cool i enjoyed mbeit very much i shoped alot and yeh saw a buncg of asians and yeh when i got back i hung out with my asians and it was nice then i hung out with brian and gah i love him? whoa that was werid but i really like him i am happy i am with him he makes me happy and before i left i hung out with my bestfriend ever bryan shea before he left to go far far away gah i miss him tooo. but yeh okay laters