Its been a while since i could hold my head up high its been a while since i first saw you and its been a while since i could stand on my own two feet agian And its been a while since i could call you And every thing that i can rember from the past up till the end and the concequences that i've rendered i've stretched my self beyond means And its been a while since i could say that i wasnt addicted its been a while since i could say that i love my self as well and its been a while since i've gone and fucked things up just like i always do its been a while but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And every thing that i can rember is from the past up till the end the concequences that i've rendered gonna fuck things up again And its been a while since I could look at my self straight And its been a while since I said i'm sorry And its been a while since I've seen the way the candles light your face And its been a while but I can still remember just the way you taste Repeat Chorus And its been a while since I could look at my self straight And its been a while since I said i'm sorry it has been a while... i think i'm relapsing. i've slowly been climbing up out of my hole...but the rope i was pulling myself up with was thin, and frayed. ...and kylie broke it. I'm not saying its all her fault. it could have happened to anyone. actually, if anything its probably my fault...i should have known better than to trust her. its just...i thought things were finally getting better. i thought i'd finally found my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, and things were finally going to turn around. but then, it was taken away, just.like. *that* iwon't pretend it didn't hurt. i wasn't so much hurt over losing her as i was over losing that feeling...the feeling that things were finally looking up, that life was finally pucking me up and dusting me off instead of kicking me while i was down. but it was just another cruel trick... i seem to be drifting back to where i was a few months ago. my grades are crashing, my friends are slipping. and i find i don't care... i'm so numb to anything but pain. i'd do just about anything to try and be happy. but hardly anything works... don't get me completly wrong. my friends aren't heartless bastards, its not that they don't care... they just don't see it. nobody knows me anymore...hell, i don't even know myself. i wish someone could just understand.