I decided, today is a lazy day, and sit home. in 3 days, the first person is gone that joined the military. he will be gone 3 or 4 years at westpoint. then 4 or 5 more years in the army. i wish the best for him. hes an awesome guy. i have to start looking for a job. i cant go around having a job, that i never work at. i should just call them up, and be like... i quit. after this summer, i will be a very lonely person. so i need to make more friends. all my friends will be back in school, either still in high school, or off in college, while i'll just be around.... working n what not.hopefully i can get money this summer. and then go for my temps, and then my license, so i wont have to take the bus everywhere. or be stuck home all the time. this past year, has been a crazy one. fell in love with a guy, got heartbroken, then cant get a guy, since all them like my friends. this summer, will be a long one, but with a lot of meaning. first summer single, in 2 years... im just thinking back a few months, when my brother almost died from that really bad asthma attack. i cant even imagine what would have happened to my family if he would have died... it would be completely different. i remember having the guy i love during that, who didnt help me through it at all.. but its okay, because he lived. after beign on a ventilator for 22 hours... i've became closer friends with so many people this past year, some for the better, some for the worse. and i lost a lot of great friends the past year. im not very picky when i comes to guys. as long as my parents wont hate the guy. as long as they arent a pothead, or a someone that likes to drink all the time. i dont like the party guys, or the jocks. they are jackasses. im more into punk, skater boys. but thats because i grew up with a brother like that, so i am used to guys like that, or guys in bands, and htat liek rock, sinc i grew up with that. i dont like smokers at all. i hate being in a vehicle when someone is smoking, and its worse when they know how i feel about smoking, and still do it in front of me. thats why im glad i dont work anymore, it gets away from being in that smoke filled place, bowling alleys shouldnt allow smoking, how are you going to bowl, and smoke at the same time... i have a xanga online, but i stopped writing in that, due to the fact if i would say certain things, people would get super pissed off at me. i only know one person with one of these. so my thoughts, dont matter. i live around a bunch of racist people. i am not racist towards people, or at least try not to be, since i gone out with mixed boys... so i cant be racist of mexicans or puerto ricans, and my family has some mexicans, and blacks in it, and indians. one of my best friends are half asian. and some good friends are half mexican and puerto rican. but the full blooded mexicans in my neighborhood, are the ones i watch out for. one of these days im afraid they will actually get out of there car and try picking me up, isntead of just stopping and whistling and honking. im glad im done with highschool.since the school turned to be so ghetto. the last good year in that school was c/o 05', and then half of 06' is good, after that, the school is completely ghetto. im sorry for the white white kids in that school, having to put up with the ghettoness, it may sound wrong, but its in a white neighborhood, so the shcool should be white, but its run by a stupid principal, that lets anyone in, to get better funding, but then you over pack classes, and make it harder to learn, by letting all the black people in, ebcause you favor them, im not racist, but its true, walk in teh school, the security guards, let the black kids go straight to class, white kids have to sit in teh holding room until next class starts, and get suspended... its wrong. but good thing i was never in that position. ill put more thoughts in this thing later.