im a little better. not sure though. if i knew what was bringing me down, i would be able to feel better. but i dont, so i cant. last night i went to bed at like 10:30... but didnt go to sleep til about 2:30... and woke up atl ike 10:30 this mornign to a person calling my phone which sounded like a wrong number. i was pissed. but during those four hours i listened to 3 msi cds, 1 system of a down cd, and i think disturbed cd... not sure if there were anymore cds. it was ratehrn ice. and i was coloring in a coloring book, and i cant remember what else, oh i spend a good amount of time reading a cosmo magazine... full of interesting facts. my dogs are happy now, since my dads finally home.. got home around a lil before 8.. they are usedta seeing him around 4:30-5 at the latest... they will be happy to see my mom too.. everyone decided to have stuff to do, and leave me home with the dogs. sassy ass bitches,.. my life is just a big blob. ic ant be happy. well i can. but i cant. i cant fall for a guy again. maybe i'm just looking at the wrong guys. but the last guy i started to fall for, i havent seen in 2 months. and havent talked to him in over a month.. hes ungroudned now i think though. but its not like he likes me anymore anyways... *sigh*.. kind of sucks.. oh well.. i think i still have feling for my ex.. well both of them.. but nothing can happen with me and them again anyways.. they all are happy with there life.. one just broke up with his g/f, one is gone all summer... working at a camp, with his ex g/f unless its his g/f again.. idk.. my life is pretty boring... theres a hella lotta skateboarders over here.. too bad they werent my age... or i dont think they are anyways... ohwell.. im sort of turning into the girl i used to be. getting more into the music again. like msi and punk and stuff...i probably wont dress how i usedta tho, my family likes the way i dress now more than before... babysitting wasnt that bad today... ugh....