My life...

I met a guy that I just clicked with. There was none of that awkwardness of getting to know each other, it was like we just knew from the start. Things were going great until I broke my phone, then he broke his phone.. really what are the odds? He finally fixes his phone and drops the bomb that his "ex" came to him and is saying she is pregnant. Now I put ex in quoations because they weren't boyfriend and girlfriend, they were basically fuck buddies. We aren't talking to each other, which is for the best because he is flipping out but its killing me not knowing. I want to know if its his and if she is keeping it. Personally, I think she should just get an aboration and save everyone's lives. I have concluded that it could be serveral things.. one she isn't really pregnant and she just wants george back or she is pregnant but its her ex's (who she still lives with might i add) and she doesn't want him to be father so she is going to george. Now if its the first one Im gonna kill the bitch and if it is the second one she just needs to suck it up and tell the truth. Then of course there is always putting it up for adoption. Now the only problem with figuring out whose baby it is.. is the waiting 9 months and performing a dna test. I really like george but I dont think I can wait that long, I mean a lot can happen in 9 months ans its notlike we were boyfriend and girlfriend we were just dating and it would be weird to wait that long for him, especially if we arent talking to each other. He told me he would let me know the more he knows and it hasnt even been a week but I am very impatient person so this is just getting to me. I hate bitches, I swear they ruin everything. Also I miss my ex boyfriend. That's the problem george was my escape from those heartbreak feelings. He made them melt away. But now that we not talking those feeling have submerge and are taking over. Im trying really hard but its not working. I dont eat or sleep. I cry every chance I get. It sucks. Everytime I think Im gonna get that break I don't. Something always ruins it. I believe things happen for a reason but this is just getting annoying.
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Do you think it's important to have someone to always keep you from feeling lonely and heartbroken - as you paid reference to in your entry (I mean heartbroken). I don't think you have to rely on someone like that. If we do, I think it's likely that we will end up settling for people who aren't actually so deserving of us. But I hope you get things sorted anyways!

Keep Cheerful madam :-)
thanks for the advice [bethlake93}
[Anonymous]
It's understandable.. wondering how you'll cope with emotional burden by yourself. They call it being 'independent'. Might sound hard? It doesn't have to be if you believe it isn't. Will make you a better person in finding guys also. I always then to feel that guys take advantage of women who are more vulnerable, but a woman who can handle herself.. ain't no guy gonna want to mess with her, and if he does.. he'll sure get what he deserves.
What ever pain you go through. Deep down you will get through it.. even if by yourself.. you will get through it. I hope all is well with you! Keep Cheerful :-)