me and courtney broke up a few days ago. it was ok. like she understood. and we are on good terms we still talk and both wanna remain pals. last night i went to katie penquite's house. it was totally legit. me, her, kayla, and for part of the night alyssa and some other girl whose name escapes me all chilled and watched "DEEP IMPACT" and made fun of it the whole time. may be it was because i havent been chilling with too many people these days, or i just really was in a good mood, but i had an awesome time. we were laughing the entire time just talking about whatever. then i get home later and when i pull into my driveway im overcome with extreme rage when i see courtney talking to some dude outside her house. i dont know why it got to me so bad. shes not mine. i have no reason to get mad. we broke up, i got what i wanted and yet im still not ok with the outcome i guess. the whole fact that she has been really mature about the whole thing has made it even harder. its kind of bullshit that a person can be so mature about some things that she shouldnt be mature about but then in her everyday life she acts like a 6 year old. its stupid. we had our company picnic yesterday. i won a bocce ball set, a george forman grill and a foldable lawn chair. bocce set is legit. its a tournament set so it weighs like 500 lbs. no big deal. the guy who she was talking to turned out to be an old friend that she ran into. i dont see where... she never leaves her house. she said they just talked about me the whole time. i dont buy that though. not because im suspicious, but because it sounds dumb. im making myself a desk today out of a door and a block of alder. its gonna look sick.