i broke up with jon last night and i cant stop cring it hurts because now i know it will be another a couple years tell i start another one thats just how it is with me. guys just dont look at me that way in person. he has been my only boyfriend the only guy that seen anything in me that thought i was beautiful and i just through it all away cuz i thought he wasnt good for me. i miss the confort and it has only been a night. i miss waking up next me. feelings myself in his arms him taking me by skin is so soft that it feels nice.i want to bary myslef in blankets and cry. i know things well change and i know i dont need him to be happy but i need that confort. im not sure if what i did had to be done that is proply why im scared now. i could really use a best friend right know. sad there is noone. once again iam lonely but more then ever. things will change im sure of it. but right now it hurts so much i just need to find the stranth to get through it.