I saw Sean the yesterday at Quizno's. I guess he works there, at first i didn't realize it was him,and thought he was cute. Which made it even worse when i realized who he actually was. I know that seeing him shouldn't bother me, but it sorta did. I just kept thinking .. wow he looks really good, and... wow they were together for a long ass time.. but i have nothing to be worried about.. she's with me now. And thats all that matters. And we're happy. I'm happy, im really happy. I havent felt like this in a long time, and its nice. Its kinda scary, but its also really peaceful. We were talking one night, after i talked to Jennifer and she told me she's coming back after she graduates and that she's going to Brooke's, where im strongly considering going. I didn't tell her about Jennifer, but Jewel did. so she brought it up. and i asked her if that scared her, and she said yes. which is actually really relieving because i really have no idea how she actually feels about me.. not completely anyway.. when i was talking to Jewel about it she laughed and said "you really think you and Sara will still be together over a year from now?" her saying that really made me think.. and she said it to Sara too. but when me and Sara talked about it, i asked her if she thought we'd still be together and she said "i hope so" ... it was really reassuring to hear her say that, and now im a little more secure. but im still afraid, afraid of caring more, afraid of getting hurt.. What really sux is i feel like i cant talk to Emily about it.. its akward, and i dunno.. but i miss her. i havent talked to her for more than 2 minutes, in like a week... i miss my Em. :.(