Today has went by really slow. I got up around 8 maybe.. I donno... then came home from jessica's around 8:30. I watched a Steven King movie. It was pretty weird... not as weird as Desperation.. now that was freaky. I want to see the movie to that.. I have only read the book. Ummm.. lets see... i walked 2 miles on the tredmill. I was going to go run outside but it is kinda cold. Other than that I really havnt done a whole lot. I need to study for a test and do some homework, but I will probably wait till homebase tomorrow... or during band first hour. I donno. Im still pretty down in the dumps... it is not too much fun. I miss him a lot and keep thinking in my head that one day I might get him back when really I know it aint gonna happen.I know it has been a month.. and i am still complaining about it... but it is my way of venting and getting it out of my head so people dont have to listen to it. On here ... I guess if you dont want to hear about it... dont read it. I just really liked him. And I felt confortable with him... which doesnt happen a lot. Like... comfortable to be myself around him. I mean yeah I did try to hide stuff from him... alcohol... but like i wasnt shy around him... I acted like the true idiot I am... :-) I could tell him anything. And I just feel like I lost a really great guy and it sucks! Yeah okay... soo.. I am talking to Mason right now on Yahoo. He is a pretty awesome person.. when he wants to be. He is being kinda dumb right now. I think he has selective hearing. Hears what he wants and gets mad at us when he doesnt know stuff that he just didnt want to listen to. Anyways .... Im am done venting for now.. soo... later