I took a pill to feel better and now thanks to people I feel like shit. Nothing works anymore. I should just fucking kill myself right this second. Just slit my fucking wrist right infront of them. In this world things are puishable by death. No one seems to care. No one realizes that this is what tears me apart. It gets tid of what is important and kills us from the inside. That makes me worse than I was before. B/c they anyone else needs me. I just need them to need me. They will never say anything to their following friends. Never would true friends betray me like this. I was right I have on one in any of my classes that even care so what's the point. Revenge in the dimest of lights. Which isn't promised to anyone. I seemed to be okay until shit hits the fan. No one in here values me as a important anything. So how do I fit in? I don't, I never will. Never will I even fit it anywhere. And will I even care? No I won't. Everyone is so narcasstic with their make-up mirrors and pretty clothes. I don't really care what they think about my looks. I'm not on this earth to be a sex toy and be stared at. It all feels like bullshit. I did want to die at one time. But I never had the balls to. And people judging me by the way I look doesn't help. Of course my uniform hides the fact that I'm so skinny. No one knows I do have 'that body'. Nothing is real. Everything is so fake. I know I just need someone to share my life with. But no one will have me. Not one person has asked me out. What do they think of me then? I just need someone to ask me, "Where ya been? Who did you see? What they say? Hey what do you know?". I just want someone to care. I want someone to tell everything is going to be okay and just for them to kiss it all away. Please tell me lies, tell me that this will end soon, tell me that I have to live for you, tell me anything that will save me.--