From the beginning of eternity. To the end of time and space. To the beginning of every end. And the end of every place. What am I?...And what of this? When there is nothing left. When you have reached the farthest horizon, have tasted every richness humanity has to offer you, can you then find the strength to surrender Immortality?" -Armand

Pull out his teeth to stop biting his nails... Wow. Its been not one, but TWO years since my last entry. I am now 18, wow..time sure flyies.

At the poor me factory Buy princesses bulimia binge her up then watch her puke Oh, her comes her boyfriend manic depressant luck And if you think you can’t deal with it "buy one get half off" on are slit your rest kits Try are anorexia candy You’ll never want to eat again Stop talking to the voice inside your head Even if there the only ones WHO listen Just drive 0ne mile and a quarter Pass you sorry little mental disorder And come join me at the poor me factory cant I be happy and sad with out being bi-polar yeah I like sex and I won’t take it back Does this make me a nymphomaniac? Fuck you Fuck me At the poor me factory

Well mommy's little dancer's quite a little secret workin on the streets now never gonna keep it..oh baby oh baby// its been the damdest long time since I wrote anything. What happened to all the friends I had? I didn’t delete them!..dont think so..cant remember. Sitdairy is funky with is magic working. I hate liars and fakes oh ya as well cocky people. So if you either of those piss off you drunken terd. Ya you heard me dont like it, kiss my ass. What is JUSTICE? Is there justice in Canada? What is the opposite of War? One would think peace..but that’s not so. The opposite of war is social justice. Could we as a being live without war? I mean, War isn’t always what one would think of killing and genocide...there was also the cold war which didn’t involve anyone of that...Gandi is an inspiration.

With the fire from the fireworks up above me With a gun for a lover and a shot for the pain at hand You run for cover in the temple of love You run for another but still the same For the wind will blow my name across this land In the temple of love you hide together Leaving pain and fear outside But someone near you rides the weather And the tears he cried will rain on walls As wide as lovers eyes In the temple of love Shine like thunder In the temple of love Cry like rain In the temple of love Hear my calling In the temple of love Hear my name And the devil in a black dress watches over My guardian angel walks away Life is short and love is always over in the morning Black wind come carry me far away With the sunlight died and night above me With a gun for a lover and a shot for the pain inside You run for cover in the temple of love You run for another it's all the same For the wind will blow and throw your walls aside With the fire from the fireworks up above With a gun for a lover and a shot for the pain You run for cover in the temple of love Shine like thunder cry like rain And the temple of love grows old and strong But the wind blows stronger cold and long And the temple of love will fall before This black wind calls my name to you no more In the black sky thunder sweeping Underground and over water Sounds of crying weeping will not save Your faith for bricks and dreams for mortar All your prayers must seem as nothing Ninety-six below the wave When stone is dust and only air remains In the temple of love Shine like thunder In the temple of love Cry like rain In the temple of love Hear the calling And the temple of love Is falling down In the temple of love Shine like thunder In the temple of love Cry like rain In the temple of love Hear my calling In the temple of love Hear my name In the black sky thunder sweeping Underground and over water Sounds of crying weeping will not save Your faith for bricks and dreams for mortar All your prayers must seem as nothing Ninety-six below the wave When stone is dust and air remains The only haven you can trust And the devil in a black dress watches over My guardian angel walks away Life is short and love is always over in the morning Black wind come carry me far away With the fire from the fireworks up above With a gun for a lover and a shot for the pain You run for cover in the temple of love Shine like thunder cry like rain And the temple of love grows old and strong But the wind blows stronger cold and long And the temple of love will fall before This black wind calls my name to you no more In the temple of love you hide together Believing pain and fear outside But someone near you rides the weather And the tears he cried will rain on walls As wide as lovers eyes In the temple of love Shine like thunder In the temple of love Cry like rain In the temple of love Hear my calling And the temple of love Is falling down -Sisters Of Mercy-

lay my hands on heaven and the sun and the moon and the stars while the devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car... Nothing quite like the feel of something new. _ _ Why live up there when people are dying to get down here? Sorry i havent been on in ages. I just got msn. ya i know. im behind the times. If you want to chat just add me i dont care who you are. slit_wrist_theory21@hotmail.com =) anyone? im rather bored and sitdairy doesnt always work for me... -Emily

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The Used- All That I've Got So deep that it didn't even bleed & catch me, I'm caught red handed now I'm far from lonly. I sleep, I still see you lying next to me, So deep that it didn't even bleed & catch me. Aah Aah I need something else would someone please just give me. Hit me & knock me out & let me go back to sleep. I can laugh all i want, Inside I still am empty. So deep that it didn't even bleed & catch me, Aah Aah. I'll be just fine pretending I'm not, I'm far from lonly & it's all that I've got.(2x) I guess I remember every glance you shot me. Unharmed, I'm loosing weight & somebody heat. Eyes closed so hard I stopped your heart from beating, So deep that I didn't even scream, "Fuck me". Aah Aah I'll be just fine pretending I'm not, I'm far from lonly & it's all that I've got.(2x) It's all that I've got.(6x) So deep that it didn't even bleed & catch me, So deep that I didn't even scream "Fuck" I'll be just fine pretending I'm not, I'm far from lonly & it's all that I've got.(2x) And it's all that i've got.(3x) ~Though of the day... Fuck Bush

Not much is new...leave a tag. RANDOM would be BEST!!!!!!! .R.A.N.D.O.M.N.E.S.S. "Dig Up Her Bones" Anything is what she is Anywhere is where she's from Anything is what she'll be Anything as long as it's mine And the door it opens is the way back in Or is it the way back out? Anyplace is where she'll be Anyplace, she'll see you from Lies and secrets become your world Anytime, anywhere she takes me away And death climbs up the steps one by one To give you the rose that's been burnt by her son Point me to the sky above I can't get there on my own Walk me to the graveyard Dig up her bones I have seen the demon's face I have heard of her death place I fall down on my knees in praise of the Horrible things that took her away And death climbs up the steps one by one To give you the rose that's been burnt by her son Point me to the sky above I can't get there on my own Walk me to the graveyard Dig up her bones

Stickin In My Eye Lyrics-NOFX When I look 'round, I only see outta one eye As the smoke surrounds my head, the sauna I hear the voices, but I can't make out their words Saying things, saying things that I got something sticking in my eye Got something sticking in my eye Got something sticking in my eye I feel unusual from thinking About the underground decay, God help me Kill beneath the camera, watch the world begin to cry It's not from pity, it comes from What's been sticking in my eye Got something sticking in my eye Black Sabbath-Iron Man I am Iron Man! Has he lost his mind? Can he see or is he blind? Can he walk at all, Or if he moves will he fall? Is he alive or dead? Has he thoughts within his head? We'll just pass him there Why should we even care? He was turned to steel In the great magnetic field Where he traveled time For the future of mankind Nobody wants him He just stares at the world Planning his vengeance That he will soon unfold Now the time is here For Iron Man to spread fear Vengeance from the grave Kills the people he once saved Nobody wants him They just turn their heads Nobody helps him Now he has his revenge Heavy boots of lead Fills his victims full of dread Running as fast as they can Iron Man lives again! I LOVE THESE SONGS! LEAVE A RANDOM TAG!! RANDOMNESS IS GOOD!!! RANDOM,RANDOM,RANDOM!!!

I hate to get depressing. And no one has to comment to this post but its diary and I need to vent... as a child i was confused, always thinking to myself, why am i being abused? and after all those years, you still cant seem to see, you are the mistake, it was never me. you taught me i was nothing, i thought that way for so long, but now i see you are the one who has been so very wrong. never given the chance to speak. never given the chance to ask, never given time to question, was this really your parenting task? for your own insecurities, you would push me to the floor, always making you think you were something so much more. you are the American dream. you go to work, then come home, to see me sitting there all alone, you beat your kid, and yell at your wife, and to think, you were who i called dad all my life.

Pink Floyd-Time Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way. Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town Waiting for soemone or something to show you the way. Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain. You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today. And then one day you find ten years have got behind you. No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun. So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it'ssinking Racing around to come up behind you again. The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older, Shorter of breath and one day closer to death. Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time. Plans that either come to nought or half a page of scribbledlines Hanging on in quiet desparation is the English way The time is gone, the song is over, Thought I'd something more to say. I Love this song. LEAVE ME A RANDOM POST!! =D ANYTHING AT ALL

It Weebles And Wobbles But Doesn't Fall Down -What and intresting theory!!! -IMPORTANT! Does anyone know how to have only ONE entry show up at a time? So I still have all my entries but only one visable at a time? If you know how that would be VERY much appreciated. It lookes very crouded right now. ***THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!! I DID IT =D -Leave me a Message please! Anything at all. Anything thats on your mind

FRIENDS PLEASE!!! Im looking for some more pals. I took some time off. Schools isnt so bad anymore, in fact my life isnt so bad anymore. I used to hate everything about everything but now its not that bad. I love my boyfriend. DId I just say love? and for someone else? yes, I think ive finally come around. Before I didnt care what the fuck happened to me. but then I saw this quote... "While the person who commits suicide dies only once, the loved ones left behind often die a thousand deaths wondering why" I know if I were to die right now. No one would give a fuck, but knowing Brett would be hurt and have no clue why or what he could have done, I wouldnt even think about putting him throught that...At all. I put up alot of my pics. Some girl has been using my pics and im very pissed off. Ugh probley to fucking ugly to pu up her own!!! Oh yeah, and Bush was re-elected....America,America. Leave a comment about anything. I havent been on in a while and I want to see comments again

Im feeling kinda down today. I dunno I guess it's because of school,my dad,my mom,my brother,my moms boyfriend, my boyfriend, just everythings coming back at once. Oh well, not going to focus on that. I cant. Ok...so anyone like my snake Kirby?

=~Mental Health Hospital answering machine~=- Hello, and welcome to the mental health hotline ... If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly. If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you. If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5, and 6. If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want. Stay on the line so we can trace your call. If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be transferred to the mother ship. If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a small voice will tell you which number to press. If you are a manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press; no one will answer. If you have amnesia, press 8 and state your name, address, telephone number, date of birth, social security number, and your Mother's maiden name. If you have bi-polar disorder, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have low self-esteem, please hang up. All of our operators are too busy to talk to you. If you are menopausal, hang up, turn on the fan, lie down and cry. You won't be crazy forever.

I was out till 3:45am partying and im sooo tired!!! at least its saturday now. I CAN SLEEP IN!!! yea. I was thinking of washing out my black hair and letting it go back to blonde. I have nice ahir and all the dying is starting to fry the ends so I think I might give it a bit of a break. Today my brother was calling me but I dont want to speak to him. Ever again. My dad recently got out of jail and im not going to speak to him EVER again. I ran away from my mother and right now im staying somewhere. With relatives but I know they wont tell my parents where. Its none of their buisness, they've NEVER taken care of me so they dont have to worry about me ever again. Im independent and damn smart enough to know not to go back to what I had before. Ok done venting. Dont need to respond to this just need to vent. respond to the post above, its funny.

My friend who I though was my friend just told my other friend today that she hated me. Meh, we've been pals for 5 years but its just gone down hill since 2 years ago, last year was shit and im not surprised. Im actully happy, gives me piece of mind. Im starting new things in my life and this is just something else. I went to an awsome house party with Brett and it was so much fun. His green eyes are like nothing else, I love his hair his piercings his body, and he's mine. Today my cat bit my lip =( didnt cut it just bit it and it kinda hurts. BUSH SUCKS!!!! lol, ummm well today I was elected president/primister whatever!! for my school thing. I dont really want to do it.. not my thing. Oh yea today in science we watched "Star wars boy" Reeeealy funny shit. hahah im sure most people have seen it but might not recognize the name. Anyways LEAVE A COMMENT!!! RANDOM OR NOT I DONT CARE JUST LEAVE A COMMENT!!! ok? ok! +D

-Poem- "My destination is a secret And the doctrine is soft And just between the verse and me Is a place where you can see Lost, last and luminous Scored to sky yet never found Relics of jewels And ant-track tools A true ghost dance Rehearsal Ground..." Uggggggh I wrote something and it didnt save it for me!! >:/ Jhonny ramone died on Thursday =( so sad I love the ramones. I recently got a kitten if anyone has any advice on how to make a kitten not bite as hard ide like to hear it. Is it just a kitten phase or what cause I got scratches and bites on me and it aint cool. Ummm, right now im sitting in my boy shorts (black with pink trim) and black tanktop. My boobies have suddenly gotten bigger. Their a 36C.. why do my readers care? they dont im just bored and have nothing else to write :) For all the Americans who come across my journal DONT VOTE BUSH!!!!! PLEASE save yourselves and elect anyone BUT Bush. Schools been a drag, i like cheese, Mark showed me his shaved pubic hair, smooth.

Watching family guy, sitting in my boy underwear (sxxy lingere)wearing a white tank,listeining to rammstein,eating a big bowl of CHOLATE ice-cream, and having internet "fun" with ally. She just wont give up!