i have the worst chest and sinus cold in the history of the world. i havent left my fucking house in like 5 days. im going crazy. i talked to amber on the phone on sunday. i guess shes been pretty busy with school or something. sometimes i feel like shes avoiding me or like she doesnt like me that much anymore. i really miss her. i called her cell about 20 min ago but she didnt respond. maybe im just overreacting. but last time when i was goin out with abbi when she didnt talk to me we broke up cause she was fucking cheatin on me. amber would never do that. or atleast i dont thikn she would :-. shes always talking about her friend greg when we do talk and i get jealous. im always jealous. iv met greg and hes really cool and all but i don't trust him with amber. i guess that they used to dig each other but never went out or someting. im just real worried about her and us.. yeahh i said too much.