hey. today jess' mom(kay) brought over some "hand me downs." and some pictures of jess. I broke down and cried forever today. It was the worst feeling in the world. Other than jess in my arms... As everyday passes live with out Jess gets hard and hurts more but also see how my daughter is going to grow up makes me so happy i wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. Sure i still think of death all the time. just to see jess' face i would kill myself. I want to die now only because i don't want any other man in my life besides jess. But Jess is in my heart forever. and thanks to whoever said "DONT MAKE THAT BABY CRAZY" thanks for your blessing and hope kid lol just kidding. well yall have a great day