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I'm feeling below par. Everyone thinks I'm so fucking happy. Why can't people see I want to die?!!! I want them to see how much pain I'm in.
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my parents think im so happy too.. so do my friends. and then when people see cuts on my arms they acts so suprised.. when you know they arent
[Anonymous]
never easy. but people doesnt believe only what they see. be well. -hellboy
[Anonymous]
then stop hidding.. the best explanation is to show people, well those most trusted how you feel then you will be able to over come... trust me... you are a good person you have a lot to live for. no one sees you because you don't want to see yourself. I hope this can help.
[Anonymous]
excuse me, but wouldnt it be easier if you just tell them as you do to us? be well.
eh?
[Anonymous]
ooops...i left a note on the other entry of urs...sorry ...check it there.
finally someone agrees with me about there i no reason to live yay for u
[Anonymous]
sorry i haven't talked to you in a while. thanks for the comments. also, people see what they want to. you can show them who you really are one day, and they will forget aobut it, and think of how you have been all the other times. i have fun with this sometimes, convincing the simpled minded i'm something i am not, such as happy. anyway, people suck in general, and they won't see you the way you want them to. try to have a good day.

-mark
[Anonymous]
hey. Thanks for stopping by. I know how it feels to die. ha, a lot of my entries are like that. you did a great jon on designing your journal. i like a lot. :-)
[Anonymous]
Thanks for coming by. just wanted to say hi tO hehe .. see you around. pece.
__Jenny
[Anonymous]
i loooooove you!
[Anonymous]
hun why do u wanna die that is not good
[Anonymous]
I wouldn't doubt it, I'm already cursed.
Hey! Thanx for the positive comments. You know, I've been seein your name and wonderful "logo" all over this site ever since I arrived (in other words, I've been AWARE OF YOUR EXISTENCE)..but for some reason I never stopped by to check out your page. And, I don't know why, but I always assumed you were a guy! Now I know better. The checkerboard that appears on my screen before your page settles in really does a number on the eyes! VERY COOL!
[Anonymous]
fuck people, they're fickle
[Anonymous]
thank you very much. : )
...sorry about whatever is creating your pain....even though i dont know you ...and it might not mean much...i have an idea of what you mean when you say "why cant people see how much pain im in"..(or something to that extent)..im slowly learning that life isnt gonna get any better unless i try to just live life one day at a time and do things for myself.keep your head up. have a nice day.come back whenever you like : )
Wierd, everbody thinks I'm always happy to...must be a Jessica thing, no?

The band in the header is Kill Hannah :)
Soo sorry to hear that.
Hope you get better.

*Valerie*
[Anonymous]
I'm sorry to hear that.

What the fuck is par anyways? I thought that was a term in golf...waitaminute
I know you can be overwhelmed, and underwhelmed, but can you just be whelmed?
-murdoc
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