if i deserve the best, what the hell happened to you, you're out of my life, dont worry i wont go back to the knife, things aren't going so great, i fake it so well, wishing it can all go back, please get me out of this hell, what will i ever get back in return, nothing will come back to me, feels like a constant burn, i can not wait for my turn, enough trouble falling asleep, through out the night, i cant even count the sheep, will anything ever be allright! screw those endless thoughts! i have finally came to realize, those were careless thoughts, a waste of long loving nights,