..::: so yeah my sister adn i mad emy lemonade diary private so just we can read it. it is kind of a relief that there is something i can keep secret from everyone but my sister. she is so cool i love her with all my heart. i would die for her in a second. she means so much to me. i don't know what i would do without her or Miranda. im going through so much right now i just don't even know exactly what im even upset about. i don't know i feel like drowning in my tears. i miss Miranda. it is like when i don't see her for even a week at a time i just start to miss her. she is just that one person i can not go like a week without seeing or i start to miss her. im so happy that i have someone like her as my best friend her and my sister are always there. and i know that they will keep me from doing everything wrong in my life. and it feels so good to know that i have at least 2 people in my life like that. Brock is such a cool kid. he just so understanding and i can just call him and cry and he will at least pretend like he cares. lol it is funny i will be like telling him all these things and he will get all emotional about it and start yelling. but not at me just because the situation is fucked up. i love him... :::..