ok.. so jetlag has been attacking me so far.. cant sleep for two nights.. had only like one hour to two hours sleep so far :( that has also effect my reaction towards people when i become more quiet and sensitive (and well slutty *huh?*) lol anywho.. chris' mom has been asking me a lot of questions lol. that was kinda funny.. but yeah it was nice of her wanting to know me more :] i asked chris today whether he still like me or not and he said he doesnt know.. yet me being all stupid and all fall for him again :s i shud have think first before i answer his question.. *sigh* i really hope he wont hurt me.. yet again i shudnt think or hope too much of him anyways.. im becoming matt now *grin* thinking too far away and i mite get carried away like i used to be.. errrr.. but i will try to stay positive and just accept the way things are :] go with the flow :whoo hoo: