i need a boyfriend. things are going out wildly. do you think this time i'll make it thru phase one? ugh. i hope i will. due to the long time not having a real relationship, it seems that there's a barrier from all the dates ive been going out with to make it real. i dont know.. it seems so hard for me to make fling dates into real ones. even if we've done wild stuff on bed. its not real. i want a real relationship. where people really love each other. and have fun together. its hard to find one i guess. lets just hope this time i can work things out. love. me.