Everything just washes by me. I feel nothing, and all i see is a blur of colour. There is a point between awake and asleep, and i am in a constant state of it. Its unavoidable. Every movement I make feels so alien and forced. I've never senced such a feeling of Disatachemnt. I may as well be dead. Theres nothing in this useless mind of mine that would ever contribute to anything of meaning. I came home in scilence. again. I can't cry. Even if I want to, I physicaly can't do it. Im just numb. A feeling hightend by the hours in front of the coloured screan of a cyber world where i can be anyone and anything and i can leave me further and further behind. Nothing can wake me from this. except what my mother said....