well yesterday when i laughed for an hour over nothing and until today i didnt cry for three days straight i thought i was getting better and not feeling so bad all the time but today.. sucked a lot and i flipped out on a lot of people. i was fine when i went downtown to hang out with royce and cody but the second i came back and started talking to people they were all talking about how i should go out with mike cause hes so depressed. and it just pisses me off cause HE broke up with me and HE broke all the promises and HE fucked it up, but yea some of it was my fault. none of them get that i just dont want to! i dont even know why they care so much. its MY life they need to get one of their own cause it just makes mine worse. and i dont even feel anything anymore. no emotion for anyone. its like im numb. and it hurts a lot and its soo fucked up. and even when people are trying to help, which is usually only corey, i never talk to them about it and just do nothing about everything. i tried sleeping tonight. but i couldnt because i couldnt stop crying and thinking about all the stuff that makes me so... empty. and people are so annoying. i cant stand them anymore always asking me why i wont go out with mike or why im so upset, its terrible and i cant stand it! i need to get away from everyone. all they do is piss me off. AND ID BE HAPPY IF MOST OF THEM WOULD JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.