6-10-12

the amount of time that you love a boy, and spend so much time convincing your tender little heart to not explode at the very though of him is not congruent to the amount of time that he loves you.

i would hold you so close, i would make you coffee in the french press every single morning, i would take care of you and try to make you laugh and watch so much stupid sci-fi and have so many dance parties and listen to all your lessons on math and science and let you drive me around in your manual car and i would listen to you and i would love you because i really do love you, and i always have.

i don't want you to leave and start a life so far away, but i am so proud of you and all of the things you have done in the face of everything you have had to deal with. you are the love of my life and even if you never love me the way that i love you, i will always carry you in my heart.

you have been a part of my life since before it was a life worth remembering, and i will never displace the feelings that you gave me when i didn't have enough to feel.

all of this is to say that i love you. i always have, and i always will.