No Poems today *sigh* More On what I wrote in my other diary So Kaitlyn came late to class, and she wrote me a note asking me if i wanted to get high, and I said yes and she asked when and we said Lunch but then she said she didn;t wanna go high to drama so that got fucked, then she said she was goin to the mall after school and said we should do it there but I had no money so I couldn't get to the mall *cries* So she's either gunna get high with Brad tonight or get high with me tomorrow I told her to do what ever she wanted to...I donno i'm not as much as a stoner as I used to be... Sooo on another subject....I'm completly fucked up about the concept of "love" i've dated ppl b4 and its ended badly but my last ex really fuckin hit me and it scares the livin' shit outta me that sum1 can hurt another person that badly. Their has been times where I havn't wanted to get out of bed b/c of the pain I feel. When I see him with her I can actually feel my heart hurting and again that really scares me. Now im not say that i'll never get over him and I want to stalk him b/c thats creepy and it won't help anything it will make things even worse then they all ready are. I said somthing to my best friend the other day "i'm not fighting over him i've given up on love with him and ima find sum1 who really loves me and i love and has some of the same intrests as me and i may not find him tomorrow or the next day or the next month, year what ever but i will find him" I plan to follow my own advice but I don't know whats gunna happen I guess i'll have to wait in see. So I have a crush on 2 posbily 4 guys *i'm such a slut eh=p* well i'm really bored and I wanna talk to danielle soo i'm done so for now ~*~Razor Blades & Pocket Knives-Emo Slut¢¾~*~