So im real emotional lately. Idk why. N im having bad mood swings. Hmm. Not pmsing either. Whateverr. I think maybe its jus cuz im stressed. Idk. Life has been pretty good lately. Besides work as usual. Goshhhh i need a new job.. But every friggin place needs fuckin experience!! Grrr. Assholess. I cant wait for halloween. And i cant wait til me n joey are rich. And living in florida. And everything is everything n anything we ever wanted =] 10 months tomorrowww. Yayy i love you babyy

I wish it was how it was wen we first started dating.. You were crazy about me n would do anything for me.. You always surprised me with things n texted me cute things for when i woke up n thru out the day.. I miss you callin me beautiful n gorgeous.. Im not asking to hear it 24/7.. But its still nice to hear you think that bout me.. Remember when u always told me u needed to be reassured that i care n love you? N i always said i dont need it cuz i aint like that? Well its different now.. I changed.. U taught me to keep my guard down n that i needed to show my feelings.. I ALWAYS reassure you.. You never do it for me tho.. And now im the one who needs it.. I feel like you dont care anymore.. Like ur not crazy bout me anymore.. Like i dont mean as much to you like i did when we first started dating.. I miss all that cute stuff.. U always left me comments saying u loved me.. Or sent me icons n pictures that reminded u of us.. Why dont u do that anymore.. U mean the world to me n i feel like i mean nothing to you.. U can comment other girls n their pics but u cant comment ME back? Or put our shit back up on ur page...? Idk.. I jus want it how it was.. When u were soo happy to see me.. I want u to show me u care n love me n wanna be with me.. Cuz i show it every minute of everyday of my life..

Weddings are fun =]. I was in my best friends yesterday. It was beautifullll. And soo much fun. Everything came together n turned out so nice. =]. Im so happyy. Thennn the reception.. Yeaaa got pretty tipsy lol. The drinks jus kept comin aha. But it was a good time =]. Anddd me n my hubbyy are all better now =]. Thankkk God. I looove himmm

I need this to better.. I need this break to be over.. Im dying inside.. I havent eaten for 2 days now.. I feel like shit =[. I cant handle this.. Im so deep in love this hurts so bad.. One minute i have faith n think things are gonna be ok soon.. Then the next im crying my eyes out.. Ive never been so in love before.. Id do anything for him.. Anything n everything.. I can easily picture me marrying him n growing old with him.. =,[. God, i need ur help with this one please...

....idk wat to do anymore... Or wat to say.. Think.. Feel.. Im lost...

I dont understand where this came from or why its happening.. Everythings been goin so good for so long.. And he wants a break.. Why?!?! =[. I keep thinkin the worst case scenario n its killin me. I cant stop crying =[. I cant handle this.. Im gonna end up having a breakdown.. Idk wat i did wrong =[. I need him in my life.. Now.. And always. I cant live without him.. Idk wat id do without him =.[. I need this all to be done n over with.. Like now.. N he changed his fuckin myspace picture n status n everything.. Wtf =,[. Makes me cry even more. Omg.. I jus wanna kno wat i did.. Why this is happening n wat i can do to make it better.. I cant deal with this =,[ its too much.. I cant eat.. I cant sleep.. I cant do anything =[. Hes my fuckin world n best friend. Now wtf am i suppose to do til this is fixed =,[. I dont even kno wat to say. I wanna text him so bad but i kno i cant.. I jus wanna be in his arms but i cant =[. And to see him actin like he jus dont give a shit is killing me even more.. My heart is broken in pieces now.. And i cant fix it =,[. I need a miracle so bad..

I love being in love =] Lalalalala

So i almost got my car window punched out last nite at a stop light by this psycho path dude. All cuz HE ran a red light n almost hit me. Apparently it was my fault? Well, i think i mighta ran his foot over when i put the gas pedal to the floor ha. Thats wat he gets. Aside from that scary shit, girls nite was fun =]. But maria didnt show.. Guess she had drama goin on. So it was jus me n amanda n karen. We went to el fuego. New mexican restaurant. They fucked my order up n the waitress was half retarded i swear lol. But the food was amazinggg. Mmm. Thenn when i dropped amanda off, her drunk neighbor decided to grab my hand n tell me im "soo fuckin sexy.. Let me take u home!" uh... Yea.. Did i mention shes a lesbian? That would be my que to leave lol. I applied for this cleaning job. 3rd shift. Hoping n praying n fingers crossed that i get ittt!!! Goinggg to st gregs festival with mah hubby later tonight =]. Loooove.

Really, if i dont get a new job within the next few weeks to a month, im gonna make up some sickness or disability n get money from the damn state. I cant fuckin stand this mother fuckin shit hole anymore. Omfggg. The parents all need to get shot in the fuckin face n their bratty ass spoiled ass kids need to get thrown out the damn window b4 i friggin murder them!! And the fuckin ppl that work here... Seriously, where the fuck are they finding these ppl n wtf were they thinking when they hired them?! This stupid ass fuckin new teacher bitch started today n her dumb kid is in my room n we asked for a blanket for nap time n this stupid air headed ass bitchs response is.. "oh... Uhhh... Well.. Im just used to placing her in a crib... Thats it.. With nothing.. I dont even know what she would do if she seen a blanket.." WTF. ARE U FUCKIN KIDDING ME?!?! ur kid is jus over a year old n uve NEVER given her a mother fuckin blanket before?! Shes a fuckin BABY STILL!! omfg!! Parent of the year right there!!! Stupid ass bitch!! Holy shit.. Fuck this shitty ass place.. Grrr fuckin no one else is hiring!!! Im fuckin screwed =,[ And maria is off today n tomorrow.. Today is mother fuckin hell.. I shoulda called in. Like i fuckin wanted too. Screw the mother fuckin office. All they do is sit on their fatasses n eat junk food all day. No wonder ur fat ass has diabetes n looks like ur having 10 kids next month. Jus go make a fuckin pizza n shove the entire fuckin thing in ur mouth n STFU. EAT ALL THE SUGAR IN THE BUILDING N DIE BITCH!! fall off the face of this earth n eat shit fuckers. It would be fuckin awesome if u guys seen this too. Jus like u stalked my ass on fb n seen my lovely status tellin u to kiss my ass =]. Haaa lazy fat ass bitches. Must be nice to sit on ur asses all day n stuff ur face n leave whenever the fuck u want n get paid SALARY. suck my dick n choke on it.

The greatest thing that has ever happened to me. And idk what i would do without him in my life. He makes everythinggg all better and he treats me like a princess n i couldnt ask for a better future hubby. I loove him more than he knows n i never wanna be without him. My one n only, my baby, my gangsta boo, my hubby, my everything. I love you baby. Forever n always times infinity plus one. Kees kees

i hate mondays. today sucked. work sucked. hw sucked. my mood sucked. everything sucked. ugh and to top it off, im pmsing, so im arguing with everybody, n everything. pfft. i started an argument with my bf over NOTHING. ugh.. then it always ends bad, all cuz im retarded n cant control my emotions. whatever. i need to win the lottery n move far far away. from everyone. jus me n my bf.. that would be heaven. well anyways. i finally got my car painted.. BAM!! =D =D =D yayyyy.. loooove it. now im jus waiting to get my underbody n interior neons installed =] and all my decals. thenn time to save up for rims. considering the ones i want are like 2 grand. pffft.. nice.

really? this is exactly why i dont talk to any of my girl "friends" anymore. all fuckin backstabbin lyin drama ass bitches. for real.. wow. dont sit there n talk all ur shit talkin bout ur gonna do somethin when we both kno u aint gonna do shit then try to text n call me talkin bout the fight aint worth losing our friendship. UHM, OK?! THEN go around tellin ppl im beggin to talk to you n be friends again. HA. get the fuck off ur high horse bitch. i would NEVER beg to be ANYONES friend. are you serious?? after all the shit u pulled? ur funny. jus go drink ur shit n do ur drugs n spread ur legs some more. all in front of ur 4 year old daughter. oh but ur such a great mommy right?! yea, 2 years ago fuckin whore. HIGH SKOOL IS OVER WITH, GROW THE FUCK UP. go ahead, keep talkin ur shit.. ur makin me famous bitch n im lovin all the MF attention.

yay! finally got my diary back, up n runnin :D after like 3 years.. damnn.. ohh how i missed my online diary =[ soo anyways.. wats new.. everythingggg!! i gotta baby niece =D well, not realli a baby anymore.. ha, shes 3 now. craziest lil girl ever =]. but its okies, she takes after her auntie hehe. ahh my uterus hurts so bad.. i hate being a grl. i hate bleeding for like 3-4 days every month. IT SUCKS. EFFFFF PERIODSSSS!! ahaa... yea idk wat else to say lol.. i miss mah hubby =[ hes at work til 7.. its 642.. woot soon enuff =]. soo in love. --iloveyoujoey--