SUCKS. right now. grrr =[ all i wanna do... is find a decent job. save my money. and move the fuck outta here, and to florida. F...M...L

thats wat i gotta keep tellin myself, right? right. alot of people seem to be walkin out my life lately. it sucks.. but uk wat i say to it? u wanna be stupid enough to walk away, then ima be smart enough to let you go. i havent talked to ryan for about a month now. ever since he randomly told me to leave him alone. like i said, u wanna leave my life, go for it. it was hard at first especially cuz i texted him 24/7 n how close i was with him n i really did love him.. but as the days went on, it jus got easier n easier. i think this is something that was meant to happen tho.. and shoulda happened a long time ago. he wasnt doin me any good at all.. jus lead me on n shit. wanted to have his cake n eat it too. obviouslyy that only works out for a lil bit.. everyone knows that. and if all ur gonna do for me is bring me down n lead me on, then honestly, im glad u left. cuz now my eyes are once again opened to reality. past few nites tho ive been havin dreams bout him textin me.. kinda funny cuz i have him in my phone as "kiss my ass" n thats how it comes up in my dreams too aha. i jus hope they arent them kinda dreams that eventually come tru over the next few weeks =/. so watever happened to bros before hoes? especially wen ur supposedly "best friends". then this hoe ass comes along n decides to control ur life n u LET her.. like wtf... n then she makes u cut me outta ur life simply cuz she "dont kno me" and is obviously jealous. lololol. watever seriously. u wanna let a hoe come between us n control ur life n make u cut ur friends out cuz she dont accept em, then so be it. byeee. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. idk wat the reasoning for these recently few things are but i guess its something.. right? its jus kinda funny how its been all guys leavin my life lately, ha. maybe thats a good thing tho, now that junior walked into my life. completely unexpected. with his cuuute lil mexi self :). but im not gonna say much bout him cuz im not tryna jinx anything :). so shawn.. idk wats goin on with him anymore. i think we're on 2 complete different levels. age difference prolly doesnt help with that, ha. but since hes older than me, you would think that hes gonna be more mature than me n wat not... but lately ive been feelin like its the opposite. he goes out allllll the timeee. damn near every nite. n he dont jus drink socially or for a buzz or nothin.. naw, he drinks to get fucked up. def not tryna deal with that. n the fact that he moved back in with his baby mama.. according to him it aint nothin, jus for the kids. ok i can understand that.. but hes basically on house arrest with her 20 thousand rules. so do i really wanna try to pursue somethin with someone like that...? the more that i think about it, i reallyy dont.. n i hate wen hes drunk. its annoying.. n he calls a million times n tries to see me... but then wen i go see him, we sit there n argue. cuz hes fuckin ignorant n shit. like wtf... im not gonna sit there n let u run ur mouth n try bashin me n shit... hell naw, ima open my damn mouth n argue back n eventually ima jus say FUCK IT n walk away. shits sad.. not even dating n ur already tryna argue. and ik hes a player. i aint down with that... i been with too many players n been hurt too many times. its time for me to have a good guy who will treat me the way i deserve to be treated.. like how i treat whoever im with. damn. so my guess is that junior came into my life like this to show me that i needa stop fuckin with these other lamesss. hmm? i guess we'll jus have to wait n see. mind you, i HATE waiting! drives me crazyy... but good things come to those who wait.. so lord grant me patience.

wow didnt realize how many months have passed since i last wrote in this. my how time fliesss. well lets see.. dont talk to douche bag anymore. def a good thing, seein as how he LIVES with his bitch n shit but yet still wants to be "friends with benefits" with me. HAA good joke, buddy. fuckin idiot. oh well, i pissed him off anyway cuz i told him i was moving out with a guy =] ahaha. anywhooo.. lets seee... well i walked off my shithole job, FINALLY! wooohooo =D def told them i had to run somethin out to my car quick.. sykeee, i got in my car n floored itttt. and the dumb bitches didnt have the courtesy to call me n ask wat was going on. instead they had all my coworkers text me askin if im comin back or if they should jus say fuck it n take me off the schedule. SERIOUSLY?! uhm ok fat heffers wat if there was an emergency n i had to leave right away. thats exactly how i kno i made the right decision. u can only push someone so far before enough is enough; tired of bein treated like complete shit. so now the job search continues.. its hard, but i never give up. had an interview yesterday, and they want me for a second one tomorrow. so fingers crossed n everything that i get it! cuz man oh man, i miss my shopping sprees! ahh def goin crazy. soo wat else.. hmm.. guys. oh boy. well.. me n zach are getting close again. but i dont think its gonna get anywhere. def not as long as the courtney hoe is in the picture. i swear she is a super jealous stalkin ass bitch. EVERYY SINGLEEE TIMEEE i write on his damn fb wall or like/comment on his status, she has somethin to say.. like immediately. STALKER. bitch aint even dating him. so, of course i cant hold back my temper; i snapped aha. then zach got mad n blah blah blah.. told me im more mature than that lol watever. ended up snappin on him too n told him im done tryin n if he wants to actually see me, then he can lemme kno. yeaaa he kissed my assss for like the next week or so ha. so obviouslyyy im more important than youu courtney hoee ;). duh. but he aint ready to settle down. we already talked bout this... but im not sure that i can wait around for him. cuz now that i can honestly n 100% sure that im completely over douchebag, i kinda wanna be ina relationship again. i mean im not out lookin for someone.. cuz i enjoy bein single n havin my freedom n goin out n all that shit.. but if someone comes along, hey im not gonna back awayy. as for ryan.. he says one thing, n does another. AS ALWAYS. god. i swear his fuckin mexican ass is never gonna leave his baby mama. i can guarantee it. he wants his cake and he wants it too. its ridiculous n im sick n tired of waitin for that shit n gettin hopes up for nothing. ugh he really works my mf nerves. dont sit there n tell me u love me soo much n u wanna marry me n move in together n blah blah blah.. but yet WONT BE WITH ME. uhmmm hellooo im not stupid.. i KNO ur still with ur bitch, u jus dont wanna be real n honest with me. which i cannot standdd. dont sit there n lie to me n sugar coat shit. mother fucker be honest. watever.. def sick of his head games. jus last nite he told me he loves me n mwah.. then an hr later i texted him n he said can u leave me alone. i said uhm wtf? n he said bye. soo i thought maybe he fell asleep n it was his bitch textin so i said uhm wtf is ur problem unless this aint even u. n he said this is ryan. leave me alone. this is the shit that im talkin bout.. like wtf bipolar ass. think im bout to be done with his mexican hoe ass. sooo theres this guy shawn. i like to call him my sexxyy neighbor. weird, cuz i dont normally go for white guys. but i think its cuz everything else about him is my type. hes like that thug type.. looks talks n acts hard.. covered in tattoos.. gets faded up n designs in his hair. and he cuts hair like that n hes raww. he wasss livin with his baby mama by me.. his 2 lil girls are ADORABLE omg i love them. me n him clicked real good like right away wen we first started talkin.. n since of course all everyone ever does by me is talk shit, ppl started sayin that shit was goin on between me n him, wen it wasnt. so his baby mama has a prob with me n shes never even talked to me before in her mf life time. i even make the effort to smile every time i see her but all she does is mug. so watever. then last weekend we were all outside drinkin. she never comes out. but she sits there n spies out the window to make sure shawn aint by me n shit. well she seen that he walked me home so she came outside n started snappin on him but wouldnt say shit to me. he went inside n came back out like a half hr later n said she went psycho on him n attacked him n kicked him out. so he moved in with a friend n me n him been talkin n hangin out more... but now his baby mama been cryin to him n shit. hes uncomfortable with where hes at now so hes talkin bout movin back in with her BUT makin it well known to her that it aint no relationship.. hes jus gonna be there to help out with the kids. he asked me how i felt about this.. n he said if im not comfortable with it, then he wont do it. i mean dont get me wrong, i really appreciate the fact that hes askin me my opinion n thoughts n all that.. but i aint his girl..... yet.. lol. so i guess i cant really say much.. but i totally understand that hes movin back for his kids. hes a real good dad. and i dont want him to stay somewhere if hes uncomfortable or anything like that. we jus gotta be on the low low with shit now. but im ok with that for now especially cuz we aint even together or anything. he is reallyy sweet to me tho. like i wasnt expectin that shit from him jus cuz of the way he looks n presents himself. but he always calls me beautiful n gorgeous. we went down to the lakefront the other nite n went out on the pier to jus chill n look at the stars n all that. n he held me the entire time. idk, its jus a nice change cuz all my exes didnt like doin that shit. n he calls me jus about every nite. n he actually listens wen i talk to him n he remembers everything i say to him. he asks me how my appts go n interviews n all that. idk, i jus like it. alot. so i guess we'll see where things go between us. :)

ahh man.. idk why i do this to myself? idk why im doin this. but its like.. it feels right.. and its weird. its like blowin my mind.. =. he made a new sn to specifically get a hold of me. n talk to jus me. its soo weirdd. ahhh.. n he says how much he misses me n my fam. i knew eventually this day would come. i guess i jus wasnt prepared for it. kinda came outta no where. so sudden. but i dont wanna go back to that. i forreal cant let myself go back to that. jus to get hurt all over again n prolly worse n worse. jus cant do it. i guess bein friends is ok right now. if thats wat u wanna call it. it even feels weird sayin that. ahhh. i hated himmm n wanted to kill him wen i seen him last weekend. i guess it all goes back to "everything happens for a reason". but i jus wonder n wonderrr wtf this reason could be.. that hes back in my life, once again. only one person knows tho. and thats all who will prolly ever kno. cuz shes literally the only person in my life that no matter wat i do, she doesnt judge me. and i am soo thankful to have someone like that. it feels so nice to be able to tell her anything n everything n kno that i wont be judged or critized by it. i mean u can only please everyone for so long before u realize that u need to please urself, and urself only. cuz wen it comes down to it, all that matters is how YOU feel. if ur HAPPY, then thats all that matters. who cares wat others think. its ur life.. not theirs.. ur not hurtin them or destroyin their life. u only live once. do wat YOU want. not wat others want u to do. although i hate admitting this, it feels nice to be talkin to him again. woww.. never thought id say that haha. its nice to talk bout our past. our good times. n we talked bout the whole break up n how everything ended n wat not. it was nice to have that closure. still dont understand why everything happened the way it did n why he acted how he did. but i mean, wats done is done. cant change the past. now all u can do is move forward n make the most of the future. which is exactly wat i plan on doing. i like to jus go with the flow. and take things day by day. who knows wat my future holds. only time will tell.

id like to say that everything has been pretty much going my way lately =] and i couldnt be happier. aside from school n work; but thats the normal drama, right? things between me n rick seem to be pickin up a lil bit n goin real good. i now jus have to relax n learn not to shut him out so quickly. i freak out wen i start to get close to a new guy. idk why.. jus everything. scares me. n then i always end up losin out on somethin that coulda been good. but its hard not to do it.. its damn near impossible. but i jus gotta try = take things slow. that always helps. i dont think im quite ready jus yet to be in another serious relationship. things will all eventually fall into place. wats meant to be will always find a way, right? =] speaking of... ryan. he wont leave me along. and his kid is due any day now. and hes still with her. so then why does he gotta sit here n constantly tell me how much he loves me n wants to get a fuckin hotel n fuck n move in with me n this n that.. like i dont get it.. at all. shouldnt he be tellin all that to his gf... whos the mother of his kid any day now? and wen i bring it up he jus gets all pissy bout it n tries changin the subject. oh but yet he wants me to let my guard down? yea i dont think thats gonna be happening anytime soon with him. guarantee it. and then i got zach all pissed at me cuz i wouldnt pick his drunk ass up from the bar last nite. really? it was 130 in the damn morning wen u call n u knooo damn well i gotta be up at 630 for work. goddd. dont get all pissy at me cuz i didnt answer. forreal. guys have some nerve. anywho. st patricks day is in 3 days!! soo excited.. gonna go out n partyyy my ass offff =D.. andddd gary comes home from the army FOR GOOD tomorrow nite!!! yayyy! FUCKINNN FINALLYYY... i havent seen him in almost a year n a half.. cant freakin wait.

Things are startin to look up for me lately =]. Honestly couldn’t be happier with the way things have been going in my life. I have the best friends that anyone could ever ask for to help get me thru anything n everything that I go thru. I <3 them. Single life couldn’t be any better right now either =] I love the fact that I can go out n party n get drunk without havin to check in with anyone or tell anyone where ima be at n wat time ima be home n shit. N I can talk to who everrr the fuckkk I want =] LOVE. Although, I did go on a date Sunday nite =P but hes different n ik that for a fact cuz ive known him for 2 yrs now. It pretty much went p.e.r.f.e.c.t <3.. car show, dinner at Chilis, then went to see “no strings attached”. Topped off with a good nite kiss =]. Cant get any better right? Buuut we’ll see how things go. Right now our schedules collide majorlyyy n we don’t kno how to work around it yet =.. I work 730-530, he works 2-11. I have off fri-sun.. he has off wed n thurs = gayyy. But who knows wat can/will happen. Only time will tell. Good things happen to those who wait… well, im pretty sure I deserve to be nothing but happy n in the as perfect as perfect can get, relationship. Done with the douches. Out with the old, in with the new =]

why the fuck do u gotta keep tryin to get back in my life? Holy shit.. every time I finally start to completely get the fuck over u, u ALWAYS gotta do SOMETHIN to make ur goddamn presence known. God. I blocked you from everything specifically cuz I don’t want u to ever try getting in contact with me ever again. So then u gotta resort to ur guys phones n then call me blocked cuz U KNO I wont answer ur number?! That’s fuckin pathetic! Goin outta ur way to use ur guys phones to call me. Ahaaa.. SAD. Oh and thennn u gotta use a fuckin VOICE CHANGER n try to talk shit?! Wowww how old are you? But yet im the so called immature one? Good joke buddy. I jus wish u would leave me the hell alone already.. u took enough from me from the past 2 yrs.. u have a damn gf, wtf more do u want? U said u didn’t want me. So then LEAVE ME ALONE. Damn.. I BEEN done n moved on.. I think its time u do the same. All I wanna do is get my life back on track after u completely destroyed it.. I did jus fine before u, and now after all the bullshit n drama u put me thru for 2 yrs, im doin even BETTER without u again. Take a hint.. ugh. Guys jus irritate me now. A lot. Like I don’t even wanna talk to them anymore cuz theyre all the same. All jus want one thing. N wen they don’t get it, they flip out on you. Well wtf, sorry I aint a hoe like them bitches ur used to. Shit. I needa vacation. Soo bad. Jus a weekend get away. Have nothing but fun n clear my head n relax n get my old self back. Im goin to florida wen I get my taxes back.. thank God.. I cant wait. Needa get outta this coldd ass snow n shit. Grr that’s another thing, this shitty ass weather always affects my mood n shit.. I don’t wanna do anything but sleep in winter. I hate the cold. I hate the snow. I hate Wisconsin. I hate how it gets pitch black by 5pm. Ugh. Its like depressing. I should prolly start lookin for apartments in florida.. I wanna move soo bad.. I jus wanna pay my car off first.. which wont be til next year =/ idkkk if I can go thru another Wisconsin winter. Grrr…

2011.. new year; new attitude; new me. Def time for a whole new change. So much shit happened in the past year its ridiculous.. lets see… I broke up with joey right before Christmas in 2009 n bought a plane ticket to florida for 2 weeks n left on Christmas day.. he blew my phone up for 2 days straight before I finally decided to pick up.. he begged.. n cried.. for me to give him another chance.. n promised hed stop talkin to them dirty ass hoes.. soo of course, I gave in n said ok.. a week later he bought me a plane ticket to come home early.. thennn come may, we took a trip together to florida for 5 days n stayed at Disney.. mind u, I paid for everythinggg.. well over 2 Gs.. 2 weeks after we get home, he breaks up with me.. been cheatin on me with some hoe n made her his new bitch the day after he broke up with me.. whatever.. not suicidal at all, but wanted to be fuckin dead rather than go thru the pain n hurt that I was goin thru.. a month n a week later, he begged n begged n cried n cried n apologized n got on his knees for me to jus talk to him n “hear him out”.. so I listened, why? Cuz ima good ass person.. that’s why.. he tells me how much hes missed me n made the biggest mistake of his life letting me go n how im the one for him n he knows it n he was soo depressed n jus wanted me back in his life cuz that’s where I belong n hes soo in love with me blah blah.. so I told him id have to think about it cuz im sicka him talkin to hoes non stop n lyin to me.. it aint that fuckin hard to stay faithful damn.. but of course, I give him the benefit of the doubt n think oh well maybe he really did change.. n things were goin realllll good.. 2 year anniversary was comin up on December 2 2010… I was getting all excited.. ok, so tell me why a week before our anniversary, out of no where, he says we should stop talkin for a lil bit.. n he ignores me n avoids me.. so I go to his damn house n his mother fuckin bitch ass has 2 fuckin fat ass hickies n HE TRIED COVERING THEM WITH HIS FUCKIN HOODIE… fuckin no good ass piece of shit!! I started cryin my eyes out n screamin at him n he grabs me n hugs me n wont let go n im kickin n screamin n he has the fuckin nerve to say he still wants me to be with me.. NIGGA IS U FUCKIN SERIOUS?! And come to find out hes been with the fuckin hoe for THREE FUCKIN WEEKS already!! And his dirty ass was comin home to me every nite kissin on me talkin bout baby this baby that baby I love you I cant wait til our anniversary… u lyin ass mother fucker!! Nigga u got me FUCKED UP if u think ima stay with ur lyin cheatin ass!! Second fuckin time u did this shit to me.. fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me. Hell motha fuckin YEA I said FUCK YOU.. nigga ur fuckin DEAD to me.. all the fuckin shit I did for u n gave u.. I gave u the MF world u piece of shit! N wtf did u ever give me? JACK MOTHER FUCKIN SHIT.. all the fuckin tears I cried over ur lame pathetic poor excuse for a man ass.. don’t everrrr EVER try talkin to me ever again.. don’t call me, text me, message me, come to my house.. NOTHIN.. u done FUCKED UP.. n soon enough ur ass will realize that u lost the best thing that ever fuckin happened to u.. and guess wat, wen u finally realize it, ITS GONNA BE TOO DAMN LATE. Sucks to be you! Ur loss, clearly aint my loss. That’s for sure.. Soo.. im layin in my bed last nite.. 1 in the morning, I get a text.. guess who? Haaa… jus like our last break up, A MONTH N A WEEK LATER.. he tries talkin to me again.. askin me some stupid shit that he already knows the damn answer to.. sorry ass excuse to try talkin to me.. DIDN’T WORK BUDDY.. pretty sure I made it CRYSTAL CLEAR wen we broke up that ur deaddd to me n to NEVER try talkin to me ever again.. so whyyy do u really seriously think ima text ur bitch ass back?! U got some nerve boy.. uh uh.. u aint weaslin ur ass into my life again this time.. that’s for damn sure.. u done fucked my life up enough the past 2 years.. clearly its time to move the fuck on n get the fuck over ur sorry pathetic ass.. which im doin VERY WELL. I never thought I could live without you.. I honestly thought that if I ever left you, my world would completely crumble.. but now that ur gone, and I look back n think about ALL the bullshit n hell u put me thru.. all the unnecessary drama n tears.. I honestly couldn’t be any happier that I got u out my life for good.. and it jus so happened to be at the end of the year.. perfect time.. cuz now that it’s a new year, it’s a fresh new start for me.. im getting the old Ashley back.. the Ashley that everyone loved before ur ass corrupted her.. hell yea bitches im back.. n im goin hard this year..! n now that u see that im doin jus fine, even BETTER without u in my life, baby ik its killin u inside.. sucks don’t it? oh and sweetie, karma is a bitch. And wat goes around, comes around.. so jus wait, ull get urs.. maybe not tomorrow, maybe not even this month.. but boy, wen u least expect it, karma is gonna come after u n hit u like uve never been hit before.. u got 2 yrs of built up karma comin for u.. revenge is bitter sweet.. and I don’t even have to do anything. All I gotta do is sit back, relax, n enjoy the show; cuz ik its gonna be a good one <3 Ona happier note, i couldn’t be happier bein single right now.. got all my old friends back.. all my guy friends.. I can actually go out n fuckin partyyy like I used to.. everything.. I love it. get to focus on ME n only me. I have an awesome family n the best friends anyone could have to support me n back me up on my decisions n keep me on track n in line.. wat more could a 22 yr old girl ask for? =]

originally from: October 5, 2009 So im real emotional lately. Idk why. N im having bad mood swings. Hmm. Not pmsing either. Whateverr. I think maybe its jus cuz im stressed. Idk. Life has been pretty good lately. Besides work as usual. Goshhhh i need a new job.. But every friggin place needs fuckin experience!! Grrr. Assholess. I cant wait for halloween. And i cant wait til me n joey are rich. And living in florida. And everything is everything n anything we ever wanted =] 10 months tomorrowww. Yayy i love you babyy

originally from: October 4, 2009 I wish it was how it was wen we first started dating.. You were crazy about me n would do anything for me.. You always surprised me with things n texted me cute things for when i woke up n thru out the day.. I miss you callin me beautiful n gorgeous.. Im not asking to hear it 24/7.. But its still nice to hear you think that bout me.. Remember when u always told me u needed to be reassured that i care n love you? N i always said i dont need it cuz i aint like that? Well its different now.. I changed.. U taught me to keep my guard down n that i needed to show my feelings.. I ALWAYS reassure you.. You never do it for me tho.. And now im the one who needs it.. I feel like you dont care anymore.. Like ur not crazy bout me anymore.. Like i dont mean as much to you like i did when we first started dating.. I miss all that cute stuff.. U always left me comments saying u loved me.. Or sent me icons n pictures that reminded u of us.. Why dont u do that anymore.. U mean the world to me n i feel like i mean nothing to you.. U can comment other girls n their pics but u cant comment ME back? Or put our shit back up on ur page...? Idk.. I jus want it how it was.. When u were soo happy to see me.. I want u to show me u care n love me n wanna be with me.. Cuz i show it every minute of everyday of my life..

originally from: September 27, 2009 Weddings are fun =]. I was in my best friends yesterday. It was beautifullll. And soo much fun. Everything came together n turned out so nice. =]. Im so happyy. Thennn the reception.. Yeaaa got pretty tipsy lol. The drinks jus kept comin aha. But it was a good time =]. Anddd me n my hubbyy are all better now =]. Thankkk God. I looove himmm

originally from: September 23, 2009 I need this to better.. I need this break to be over.. Im dying inside.. I havent eaten for 2 days now.. I feel like shit =[. I cant handle this.. Im so deep in love this hurts so bad.. One minute i have faith n think things are gonna be ok soon.. Then the next im crying my eyes out.. Ive never been so in love before.. Id do anything for him.. Anything n everything.. I can easily picture me marrying him n growing old with him.. =,[. God, i need ur help with this one please...

originally from September 22, 2009 ....idk wat to do anymore... Or wat to say.. Think.. Feel.. Im lost...

originally from: September 18, 2009 I dont understand where this came from or why its happening.. Everythings been goin so good for so long.. And he wants a break.. Why?!?! =[. I keep thinkin the worst case scenario n its killin me. I cant stop crying =[. I cant handle this.. Im gonna end up having a breakdown.. Idk wat i did wrong =[. I need him in my life.. Now.. And always. I cant live without him.. Idk wat id do without him =.[. I need this all to be done n over with.. Like now.. N he changed his fuckin myspace picture n status n everything.. Wtf =,[. Makes me cry even more. Omg.. I jus wanna kno wat i did.. Why this is happening n wat i can do to make it better.. I cant deal with this =,[ its too much.. I cant eat.. I cant sleep.. I cant do anything =[. Hes my fuckin world n best friend. Now wtf am i suppose to do til this is fixed =,[. I dont even kno wat to say. I wanna text him so bad but i kno i cant.. I jus wanna be in his arms but i cant =[. And to see him actin like he jus dont give a shit is killing me even more.. My heart is broken in pieces now.. And i cant fix it =,[. I need a miracle so bad..

originally from: September 15, 2009 I love being in love =] Lalalalala

oiginally from: September 12, 2009 So i almost got my car window punched out last nite at a stop light by this psycho path dude. All cuz HE ran a red light n almost hit me. Apparently it was my fault? Well, i think i mighta ran his foot over when i put the gas pedal to the floor ha. Thats wat he gets. Aside from that scary shit, girls nite was fun =]. But maria didnt show.. Guess she had drama goin on. So it was jus me n amanda n karen. We went to el fuego. New mexican restaurant. They fucked my order up n the waitress was half retarded i swear lol. But the food was amazinggg. Mmm. Thenn when i dropped amanda off, her drunk neighbor decided to grab my hand n tell me im "soo fuckin sexy.. Let me take u home!" uh... Yea.. Did i mention shes a lesbian? That would be my que to leave lol. I applied for this cleaning job. 3rd shift. Hoping n praying n fingers crossed that i get ittt!!! Goinggg to st gregs festival with mah hubby later tonight =]. Loooove.

originally from: August 27, 2009 Really, if i dont get a new job within the next few weeks to a month, im gonna make up some sickness or disability n get money from the damn state. I cant fuckin stand this mother fuckin shit hole anymore. Omfggg. The parents all need to get shot in the fuckin face n their bratty ass spoiled ass kids need to get thrown out the damn window b4 i friggin murder them!! And the fuckin ppl that work here... Seriously, where the fuck are they finding these ppl n wtf were they thinking when they hired them?! This stupid ass fuckin new teacher bitch started today n her dumb kid is in my room n we asked for a blanket for nap time n this stupid air headed ass bitchs response is.. "oh... Uhhh... Well.. Im just used to placing her in a crib... Thats it.. With nothing.. I dont even know what she would do if she seen a blanket.." WTF. ARE U FUCKIN KIDDING ME?!?! ur kid is jus over a year old n uve NEVER given her a mother fuckin blanket before?! Shes a fuckin BABY STILL!! omfg!! Parent of the year right there!!! Stupid ass bitch!! Holy shit.. Fuck this shitty ass place.. Grrr fuckin no one else is hiring!!! Im fuckin screwed =,[ And maria is off today n tomorrow.. Today is mother fuckin hell.. I shoulda called in. Like i fuckin wanted too. Screw the mother fuckin office. All they do is sit on their fatasses n eat junk food all day. No wonder ur fat ass has diabetes n looks like ur having 10 kids next month. Jus go make a fuckin pizza n shove the entire fuckin thing in ur mouth n STFU. EAT ALL THE SUGAR IN THE BUILDING N DIE BITCH!! fall off the face of this earth n eat shit fuckers. It would be fuckin awesome if u guys seen this too. Jus like u stalked my ass on fb n seen my lovely status tellin u to kiss my ass =]. Haaa lazy fat ass bitches. Must be nice to sit on ur asses all day n stuff ur face n leave whenever the fuck u want n get paid SALARY. suck my dick n choke on it.

originally from: August 25, 2009 The greatest thing that has ever happened to me. And idk what i would do without him in my life. He makes everythinggg all better and he treats me like a princess n i couldnt ask for a better future hubby. I loove him more than he knows n i never wanna be without him. My one n only, my baby, my gangsta boo, my hubby, my everything. I love you baby. Forever n always times infinity plus one. Kees kees

originally from: August 24, 2009 i hate mondays. today sucked. work sucked. hw sucked. my mood sucked. everything sucked. ugh and to top it off, im pmsing, so im arguing with everybody, n everything. pfft. i started an argument with my bf over NOTHING. ugh.. then it always ends bad, all cuz im retarded n cant control my emotions. whatever. i need to win the lottery n move far far away. from everyone. jus me n my bf.. that would be heaven. well anyways. i finally got my car painted.. BAM!! =D =D =D

originally from: August 9, 2009 really? this is exactly why i dont talk to any of my girl "friends" anymore. all fuckin backstabbin lyin drama ass bitches. for real.. wow. dont sit there n talk all ur shit talkin bout ur gonna do somethin when we both kno u aint gonna do shit then try to text n call me talkin bout the fight aint worth losing our friendship. UHM, OK?! THEN go around tellin ppl im beggin to talk to you n be friends again. HA. get the fuck off ur high horse bitch. i would NEVER beg to be ANYONES friend. are you serious?? after all the shit u pulled? ur funny. jus go drink ur shit n do ur drugs n spread ur legs some more. all in front of ur 4 year old daughter. oh but ur such a great mommy right?! yea, 2 years ago fuckin whore. HIGH SKOOL IS OVER WITH, GROW THE FUCK UP. go ahead, keep talkin ur shit.. ur makin me famous bitch n im lovin all the MF attention.