I dont know wut to do... everything in my life is falling apart...i dont know what to believe anymore...My sister is lying to me and my friends are Confusing me. ppl tell me that you hate me april, and yet u say u love me and that nothing can change that...ppl tell me that your not a friend cuz u treat me like shit...and i believed for a lil while til the other night when you told me that your sorry and u love me foreva. I miss u being there for me and im glad we are talking again, everyone else just needs to go the fuck away and mind there own lives. My sister is going downhill siveraly and yet now im starting to wonder if what my mom said is true...is it my fault? The ass wipe next door isnt going to leave my brother alone, and im scared of what i might do if i get mad enough at him. Caleb goes around when lee isnt there and asks me wheres sean and hes been saying april a lot as well...babys dont know or understand my ass... im so confused...i have secrets i cant let out i dont know wut to do ...i want to kill someone to get the truth but sometimes its not worth knowing the truth....i hate life.... loves to all... -Blondie