shinning sun warming heat sparkling water small stream rustling leaves slow winds soft grass calm splash mind empty reality gone Clouds roll in heat is gone time is still memories come memories go darkness in my mind never leaves still depressed still sad want to scream want to cry want to die clouds go away heat is back time starts life goes on again i forget i let myself smile lies and hate stand behind people see people think people imagine everythings fine inside i know the clouds will return and time will stop again memories will come memories will go life will go on but my Utopia will stay strong its there waiting for me to return and smile my famous fake smile No matter how long the clouds stay My Utopia is there for me anyway......