"He got in the way of us.
But you "love him""
He was already in the way, you got him between us.. You loved him too.
Im Not going to appologize if thats what your waiting for. I have nothing to be sorry for.
I love the fact that you can say everything thats on your mind in the form of art. a blog. But The second i do the same. I get a guilt trip about how i blame you for everything and i never say im sorry because i plan on doing it again.... well Congratulations. You've managed to close the open book.
If you did grow up faster then me. You'd read that and realize how pathetic it really is, on your behalf.
I kissed him because you said you were over him. i missed him. You lied.
You want to play this silly little game that 5 year olds play. "I'll write out everything shes ever done to hurt me." Sweety. My list is just as long, But im more grown up then that to remember everything you've done to hurt me. Maybe i forgive alittle to easily. But its a good thing i dont hold a grudge. I would have said this along time ago.
This is our Last goodbye.
He always says- oh! Shes upset that your not coming.
But if he didnt tell me. I wouldnt even fucking know....
Thanks alot....
I know im selfish... But... I didnt even get a full day alone with you...
And near the end.. I got maybe an hour before we fell asleep, and an hour after we woke up.
Bonding time or what?
and i wonder why we fight so much. Im sorry i love you. Im sorry im jealous, But... Fuck you!
i dont know what to do with myself anymore... i was doing so well.. I have a date with a boy on thursday.. And I saw the old boy in the hall on my school today... and its like i was back to square one.. I've deleted you off of my msn... Just to i didnt have to see the painful words of love for another. Out of sight, out of mind. But seeing her doesnt help. He's fallen for her. i know he has. Shes Gorgeous. But i cant help but hate her... She has what i want. she knows she does. and she rubs it in my face metephorically. the way she stood with him silently laughing at my inconvenience. Fuck you okay?:) thanks.
"one day faith will give you the greatest thing, to make up for all of her cold-hearted-whoreness."-Alexandra granke.
Just when i think im getting over you, you Fucking say something to make me come crashing down and and shatter once again.
More then 48 hours since our last words were said.. But theres a million things i want to scream in your face. You said i was the love of your life, you werent ready to move on. So... not even 2 weeks later. you've completely moved on. Im trying to move on, and i think i'm doing well. but theres this sickness in the pit of my stomach, everytime your name is said. I cant even look at your site anymore.. with fears of reading comments that will hurt me even more. So i've resisted. When he kissed me, all i could feel was your lips. Not his. Im a fuck up. we know that. I'm trying to become the friend... the worst part is I lost one of my best friends. You said you would always be that. If you Fucking were.. you would have been right beside me, when i needed you most.. not telling me " im sorry, i didnt want to lead you on"
Just watch out. I believe in Karma. Its about to Bite you in the large ass.
i stare at you with vacant eyes
filled with confusion, doubt; questions
questions that tear the soul into fragments
can't you see me?; please deny you do
the shade of blue-grey pools reflected
your injection, a taste of depression in me
because i foolishly drank your sweet poison
fault cannot go to you, for i have brought pain
only to myself because i refused to let you go
but honesty covers the lie i've been believing
when you were my killer in masquerade.
I've deleted all my old entrys. they arent important anymore
Welcome me back. this is the first entry in almost 2 years.
I have some problems i need to vent about. this is the best place to do it.
But we'll start with my problems later.