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Wow im so amazed i ve never had a dream about a girl twice i must really like i must really feel for her, well in both dreams i asked her out and she said yes i thought it was, it felt so real it felt like it really happend, i almost cried when i woke up it felt so real i can safly say that i love her EchoSyde

Well make sense of this i cant get her out of my mind shes just there i cant like you she wont like me i cant give her a chance,she wont give me one, i want to so bad, she doesnt at all, if i were to do it, i would surley fail, cause try once your shot down try twice your a fool, for the third time now your screwed somethings up, my mind cant handle it, what a friend she is but i like her alot if i ask her the friendshipe is lost and then i feel wierd, cause she ll surly say no, i only wish she would give me chance god i wish :'(

lol Die for the colony.........(dies) haha made you die lol that was the funniest thing i ve ever said next to......"Make those two guys mate" so anyaways yall suck no comment eat my ass touche cliche eat me bye now

Another Victor creation would mean i would right another peom oh and yes i understand i used right not write well im to lazy to go back lol anyways im not go out tonight cause i have no clean cloths and there getting wash as i writewell if its done by later ill go out but other then that um No. well todays going fine im have fun on starcraft ya im a nerd (scoffs)(jerks) anyways well im off cause i have nothiung else to say oh ya aint no one gonna know about this mystery girl HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Sounds of desperation To hear the sounds of desperation to see the colors of insperation Once upon a time the story begins You hear the stories of weak and strong Hear the stories that bear there wives there loved ones Sound of desperation to the expert ear Desperation of see loved ones. So far away yet so close just out of reach The Sounds of desperation My insperation i hear the crys of misintupritation the Whines of pain i can see that pain within the soul i can hear the sound of desperation with the Achohol and Drugs Cant ezcape the gap you ve dug cant feel your soul no more only the intestity of the substance feel your might decending to the maker the creators Descion of your fate Life of chocies and Mistakes But mistakes can be renewed and ereased if wanted but yoru sould is forever scared The sounds of Desperation Feel the sounds of Desperation CAuse i do i see the pain Feel your pain let your pain make me stronger cause your mistakes can be mine If i choose to let it happen my mistakes can be yours if you choose to let that happen now time to make the world a better place for you me and everyone with these words i speak My speech, my Writting i have the power My role models and Heros i choose wisely because the wrong choice Can make your life Choiceless Big V

Yes i feel Addictied you know to what to a girl a special girl i think i like her alot but she wont know cause you know were not meant for each other as she had said before well all the girls say that......i wounder why? i wish girl would say what they really mean. see i would care anymore if they said when i asked them out that it was because i was to ugly HELL I AM UGLY and ill tell that right to there face and then i would WELL FUCK YOU TO BITCH then walk the fuck off caus eyou know what i dont care what the fuck anyone says no mores i got a great life now all my homies and shit fuck man we fucking just chill at richs house and do nutting at all and im still having more fun then the Nigga Bitches that Diss the fat man so to all the Bitch that are Bitchs FUCK YOU TO DICKS!!! well anyways this girl shes awesome shes smart beautiful cares for poeple i met here today it was fun i jsut wish i could ask her without getting rejected once more in my life....see i still wonder if it would work out....im still wondering if we should just stay friend....im wondering if imma gonna have to tell her to FUCK OFF! and then. God is our maker As our maker we must obey but if we obey then we will not live life but if we live life we will not enjoy heaven As it says to protect us As is shows that he does not they say there nothing short of a miracal But then why do we belive in our creator If there is one Then Show me my miracal if not show me that there is no creator so i can at least live my life to the fullest As god as my witness The right one will come As life is my witness My love will not come so now i leave my faith in the hands of others it is now time for them to help me and me not to help my self i am me with the question of my wonder Our Creator OR our Life. A Poem By Big V

Why say yes when you dont know him? do girlsz say yes to guy because they think they like them? BEcause they dont want to hurt his feelings? why? what a mystery? i jsut feel complelty stupid right now jsut plz no one ask. Whos the one to help me with my broken wings

yo sup yall s'happening me nutting much well hysyde might be goingf places you never know

well my friendship with alex is over wow well i guess if can end so easly then we shouldnt have been friends in the frist place .....

you listen up alex just insulted me and im so pissed you what i think i think that this friendship is over because if says that i deleted her off my friends list to tlak about her she was wrong you know why cause i wont stoop to her level im not like that and i know it richard knows tyler jesse josh and ali knows it im victor im to nice to say bad things about my friends look at my last few entry a while back i said how muched i loved them and now this im insulted and im gonna take off the only friends can read this because i want alex to read this one enrty

hey yall whats up how yall doing im finallly not sick and all good you know what i mean ya well me and alex had a fight even if she doesnt call it a fight im rellly mad at her and i have all the right to be because she blamed being easy on me then she blamed it on kyra what a friend huh who does that man........anywys check this out i already working on my next cd youi what its called DEATH BY CLOWNS image that huh well im in class so got to go peace

well sup gus im feeling better now just a stuffed nose but imma plan on going home at luch but first imma go see you ali at lunc lol you fool no no i luv u your my favorite charater lol but any ways ali thanks for road rage thats my favorite game now im so far ..MISSON 4!!!!! lol so ya my day isnt goign to well im feeling really bad about some stuff....oh ya and it was cassies Gamps lol i just remeber lol well check out my last + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +there

hello every one im little delirous but im still good lol fatness lol anywys....cassies or alyssa's gamps is dying i cant remeber which one but imma say a pray for him to get better(a juggaloisme pray of coursr) i dont think its fair for the wraith to take away who we love most i dont find that fair but then again we do need to die because or population would be overrunned by the specie that inhabite this plante(look look you thiunk i speak like this it the fever i tells ya) but i find death good because it shows us how much we love the people closes to us. i know i would cry if richard died who wouldn't even tyler i would and they hate each other, well they reallly dont because if they did they wouldn't have "each others back" see i find that theres a hidden message in that i think that when hey say that to each other its means i love you between them because we all know that they love each other no matter what(im talking brotherly love for you sick fucks) like im not scared to say i love you to richard or tyler cause i really mean it i love them as id they were blood...now jesse thats a different story...lol jk i love that kid to. but back to the subject...i find death inevitable. i think god is showing us what me missed out when a person dies. i think that he is showing us to change our ways. but hey thats my opinion.and now for the pray i have set for the gamps of alyssa or cassie( i cant remeber i tells ya)i leave with it. Pray for the Gamps now that you feel the sredded pain you life and accomplishments left you with gain the love and support of you loving family esspacilly love of cassi this pray is for you praying for you not to leave because you ll leave to many poeple in greave but if you do you will sure not be forgotten you will always be remebered from family and friends. may you rache the heavenly skys and reach the clouds so high so high i leave for everyone this poem prayer all i belive in is the heart and care A poem from big v

what a day..........jen just offord me a kiss when i see her next and i said no because i dont deaseve it i want to earn it i dont want one out of pity its not hte way i want it i wanna know that i earned it and that i deasve it because im such a good boyfriend i dont want a pity kiss IT WORTHLESS well thats it for another addtion to Take shots at victors heart thanks for coming ........

ya what a waorld well i jstu got shot down by yet another girl i like not surprised....well that now 50 for 0 wowo amazing huh i guess love jstu isnt for me maybe i should be gay.....hell no.....but ya well looks like im going to the movies tommaro alone....*sigh* well thats all for tongight show Lets take shots at victors heart thanks for comming and have good life....... )

well sup yall how you all. well im writing this entry because i wanted to talk about douglais.....the rancid carrot, my friend found it on the east stairway of my school and he then squeezed it and found out it was SMOOSHY...lol and then he play wall ball, you knwo that game right were you throw the ball at the wall and if you dont catch but attempt o you have to run to the wall and then someone gotta throw it and if the ball hits first you get the ball throw at you if you dodge then your still in but if it hits you out. well any ways he was doing that and then he put it in his penicl case its in there as we speak ....or wait as i speak lol but ya its rancid.....oh ya and yesterday he put the cores of it in my mouth and that was gross lol k thats all lol

brnat sucks you know that lol...but ya today was pretty fresh ya i stood up to a grade twelver and he stood down it was so cool cause all of his friends laughed at him lol but any ways i was talkign to alex and she said that i speak my mind on these sit dairys and i waas left in shock and awe lol i love that song but ya i really dont have much to talk aobut...... i punched the new recruite and i felt so bad like he wasnt hurt or anything it jsut hurt me alot i felt so bad well that was my day peace

hey yall whats..me nutting much well yesterday i was chilling with jamie and she said some thigns that surprise me intierally i jsut wish i could find a way to help her with her "person X" problem (for safty reason....namly to keep m,y balls and our friend ship) ya so anyways i want to help i jsut need some more time to think but with that i going on i dont think i have much time. and jesse and steff made a pact yesterady that jesse awasnt gonnna be clingy no more and actullay be himself. because steff didnt like that one bit. ya because when he was with his girlfriend he takes teh protagese jokes way to serously and thats only because he doesnt want his "girlfriend" that he "loves" to think of him any less. but that all gonna change. imma make a pact right now that from on until i help jaymie resolve her problem i will find a way to do it, i will concentrate on her problem....but still help other. i love helpin other you know that it gives me a sense of goodness inside of me and trust me im good, so any of you fools got probs ill help dont forget that and as a added bonus(lol bonus thats my worf for the day) i wont tell a soul about that problem it strickly confidential(lol i cant even spell it. well your bitch and my mine big v

Come over here, check this out And gimme a minute of your time, but don't doubt Anything that I tell ya'll, listen up closely It's something ghostly, my ancestors told me lol what a way to start a entry huh. well now that i have you attention imma give yout he connection im here at my place my legs fucked and its in bad shape so imma break down my day for you i was wtching tv thats true i played my game cube and again watch some shows on the tube ya well hope my leg gets betta so i dont have to go to the doctors to spend my chedda lol leave me some comment oh you know what i ment