Its portrayed in many movies and tv shows but of course at the moment i cant think of a specific example. Human finds young animal separated from their mother, human raises the animal, they become best friends whatever. Then in the end the human takes the animal back to the wild and lets it go eventhough deep down the human doesnt want to but knows its best for the animal. Im sure you get the picture by now. Thats the way i feel at this moment. I am the animal.

Chantal and i just broke up. For those of you who didnt know, we actually broke up at the beginning of the month. Only for 2 days though. She has an intense amount of family drama. The reason why we initially broke up was not because we didnt like eachother but because she didnt think she could handle a relationship right now with all this stuff going on. Her family means a lot to her and she just really wants things to be how they were but it doesnt seem like they are anywhere near that. Anyways we had a long talk 2 days after we broke up and to sum it up i pretty much told her that she shouldnt push away the one person in her life who actually cares about her. We ended up getting back together and everything was really good.

But as stated early we broke up again. Mostly for the same reasons. Some new family drama came up to add on to the already existing drama and she claims she cant handle a relationship right now. She doesnt want to hold me back. I dont know how to feel about all of this. I cant force her to be relationship ready. But this really puts me into an awkward position. What do i do now. I fought so hard for this girl already. On the one hand i do want to fight to keep this alive but on the other is it really worth it just to possibly go through all of this again in a few weeks? To me its such a bazzar breakup. We both like eachother thats for sure. Yes her family is pretty messed up, i knew this from day one. But how can i hold something against her that is totally out of her control? She is an amazing person making the best out of the circumstances life has dealt her.

I dont feel like this is complete but at this moment i cant think of anything else to say.