Wow, its been over a month since i have written. A lot has happened, just nothing seemed sitdiary worthy. This entry is hardly worth it, im just bored and dont want to go to bed yet. I just have a few thoughts, ill get em down and then hit the hay

First off for some reason ive been really angry and all the synonyms related. I have no idea why. Just like everything pisses me off lately and im not taking shit from anyone. Thats another thing, im swearing a lot now too. I used to be like butters 'awh hamburgers'. What is wrong with me? I feel really aggressive lately too. I wish i had a punching bag so i could release all this built up stress before i hurt someone (physically or mentally) or hurt myself. I feel like the only thing that can make me feel better is if i break something. I invision myself with a sledgehammer or a baseball bat destroying absolutely anything.

On to thought number two, which envoked quite a bit of anger today. Last night at the bar Chantal and Allison were there. I let them do their own thing, as i know Allison wasnt comfortable with us being there. They danced with a lot of guys, or just the same ones a lot.. I wasnt creepin to confirm that but everyonce in a while id see em dancing. I thought this was a good thing, cuz i know Allison had been depressed lately so i was glad to see her having a good time. Anyways the whole night i gave them their space and let them do their thing. After the bar we were outside and i saw them exit, so i wanted to say hello. When i did say hi they kept walking. Allison completely ignored me and Chantal didnt put in much of an effort to talk to me, she said hi and kept speed walking with her. Im assuming they didnt stop to talk because Mike was near by (sorry to call you out bro) but i really wanted to talk to them. This didnt anger me that much. What did anger me a lot was Allisons status the next day. 'I love you Chantal :) 'At least we got something out of thoughs relationships'. No her grammer was not what angered me. It was the fact that Chantal said that. Like the only good thing that came from our relationship was that she met Allison. Was our relationship that terrible? That just really pissed me off because I really cared for her and wanted the relationship to work, shes the one who ended it. I could understand it maybe if i treated her poorly, but i didnt. At least i hope i didnt.

On a completely unrelated note, my third thought. Im taking my first fourth year course this semester. It is HRM 4520 Comparative Human Resources and Industrail Relation Management. Every class is so fast paced and its an incredible amount of information to absorb. The marks will come from 6 tests worth 10% each and a paper worth 40%. Im papers scare me so im hoping to ace these tests. I just have to say that so far this class is incredibly interesting. For once i feel like when i study, i actually want to remember the material past the test, not just keep it in my short term memory long enough to get a decent grade on a test the forget it all. The course is about comparing how Human Resources is done in different countries. In order to do this we have to look at the history of the political and economic sides of things in different countries. For the first two weeks we learnt all about capitalism and the history of things were run since the second world war. I remember in grade school i hated social studies, and i hated history.. I dont know why! This stuff is super interesting. The rest of the course we will be comparing America and Canada to other countries like Germany, Sweden, China and India. For the paper we have to do the same thing, but comparing Canada to a country not learnt about in class.

Another thought... I realized about a week ago that if i were to take International Finance next year (which i could take as a business option because i need only one more) then I will graduate with the qualifications for a degree in A) Human Resources B) Marketing C) International Business AND a minor in psychology! Holy the quadruple threat. However there really is no point in doing that as you can only have a double major, not a triple even if i have all the courses required to hold that major AND with a honours in commerce degree you cannot claim a minor :(. So I hold 24 credit hours in psych and the minor is 18 credit hours.. I want to have a double major in HR and MKT and since i hated Corporate Finance, i think im going to take a business option more interesting than International Finance. However if it was possible to declare a triple major, id totally take that class.. ohhh wellll.

Final thought. This week starts up all my sports. Ive got Floor hockey tomorrow night and Water Polo and ice hockey on Thursday night. I am slightly afraid that my aggression will take over. It usually is heightened during the sports i play, and being that its current level is already high, this could be bad.