i dont make the worst choices, but i dont make good ones either. keep working? smoke the ganj? i still have a certain person problem and no one cares, its apparent he doesnt even care by the way our phone conversation went last night. maybe when i give him up i wont be so self destructive...why wont i give him up? i really hit a dead end this time i honestly dont know what to do with myself tonight. and why do i only ruin holidays lately? i cant stand what you're thinking.