ahah, i miss blink182 so much. i haven't updated this in a long time sorry.. random people read it anyway so it's not like i have to? things were going real good then some stuff happened with jon & then it was a downfall. that was only a few days ago but now i'm doing good again. i hung out with david until 3:30 this morning at his house, then fell asleep & had to get up at 6AM. went down to the california speedways to watch a bunch of car/motocycle races. i was there all day with jon's girlfriend which was a little awkward... two days of school this week & then thanksgiving on thursday or something, right? hah pretty sad i don't even know which day it is. anyways, i'm having dinner over at jon's sisters house tuesday night & everyone is supposed to be there. hopefully it isn't as depressing as the last time i was over there haha. i haven't done any of my homework this week which is bad because my grades need to be higher. i haven't had the motivation to do almost anything. i dunno why i wrote in this but i did & i need to go watch nip/tuck then sleep so i can wake up at 7 and go to a shithole called school ♥

this band is so great ♥ this week is going by fast which is good. i obviously made it home from michigan and missouri. it seems like it was forever ago but it was only since sunday haha. david picked me up from the airport and then we went to the movies.. came home & yeah. i missed two parties while i was gone, i could've hung out with jon both times gahh. atleast i got to talk to him on the phone while i was in missouri ♥ i miss that boy i need to see him soon. i hafto go finish my brochure from french, no one reads this but i figured i'd write in it anyways. hope everyone had a good halloween.. i personally think that holiday is going to shit, later!

one thing i hate is when people are in bad moods and they act like bitches to you. it's not my fault that you have a stick up your ass so chill out and fuck off before i punch you in the face. in other news, i'm going to michigan thursday-saturday & then i'm going to missouri from saturday to the following saturday. SO EXCITED ♥ i get to see all my old friends again. i hafto go to dinner now.. i think we're going to jon's tonight. :)

i'm doing good. ♥

wow, haven't updated in a while. school has been good, all of my grades are B's or higher. i'm pretty sure my gym grade is going down though lol i hate that fuckin' class. it sucks that i have french all year instead of having two different classes during semesters. things with the boys.. ahh. jon's still in the picture, i've seen him 3 times this week. he was over last night & didn't leave until almost 10:30. i'm going to his house again tonight since my stepdad is starting to work for his dad. well i'm going to go shower, finish my current event for mr. irvine's class anddd eat dinner. byee for anyone who reads this. ♥

Yesterday was hell but today I'm fine without you, runaway this time without you and all I ever thought you'd be. That face is tearing holes in me again, but today I'm fine without you. And all the things you put me through, I'm holding on but letting go of you...

Haven't udpated this in a long time sorry... I still feel like a freshman even though I'm a sophmore. You can definetly tell who's a freshman though, hahah short annoying freaks. I like all my classes I guess, except for gym (Mr. Siman) and math. No classes with him this year, that sucks. I've got an essay to write so I better go, blah.. READY FOR IT TO BE FRIDAY ALREADY! ♥

Schedule: 1. French 2. World History / College Prep (bleh) 3. Phys Ed 4. Biology 5. Algebra 1A (haha) 6. English / College Prep WOW. What a boring semester this is going to be.

School registration tomorrow, I'm hoping to see a lot of people. Sunnee called while I was at the mall with Mr. Pickles and Leilani. We're supposed to hang out Thursday so she can go school shopping. I haven't seen her in a longgg time. School starts on Monday. I'm ready for the two college prep classes and Biology I suppose. Last year of PE, yes! Hope it goes by fast hahah. I had fun today. I saw someone I haven't seen in foreverrr today, I've missed him. ♥ I got a new kitten yesterday afternoon. I named her Rainy. could you call a doctor who could stop by at nine? i had planned this day for dying but now i'm feeling fine ♥

I MISS JONATHAN. alottt actually. ♥

Ah, haven't written in this for a long time. Nothing has really been going on. I basically finished all of my school shopping, new clothes, shoes & school supplies. All I hafto do is get a haircut anddd I should be set. This band is the best. They're like rapping scenesters or something, they're really amusing haha. myspace.com/hollywoodundead -- check them out. ♥ I'm bored with life.

damnit i keep forgetting about this thing. jon spent the night for two nights last weekend, it was fun. he left his phone charger & shirt over here so he hasto come by again sometime soon. :P we had a party on sunday & that night he spent the night (so did his brother & sister). we watched team america and road trip. i love that boy. ♥ my brother left tonight, thank god. :D i'm so ready for things to go back to normal. it's 3:25 AM & i'm wide awake but whatever i'm going to bed. peace.

As much as I'm going to regret saying this once it starts back up again, I really miss school.

I got pretty buzzed last night at a friends party, it was nice. First time all year. I'm def. drinking this Sunday 'cause we're having a big party at the house for my brother. Today's my birthday.

So warped tour was pretty fun.. there was way too many people there though, I hate being around humongous groups of people haha [obviously]. Saw lots of people I know from school, didn't talk to any of 'em either haha. Jon was there (from what his dad said), it would've been weird running into him. The only two bands that I didn't get to see were MCR & UnderOATH 'cause I had to leave early. I saw Avenged Sevenfold, Senses Fail, Hawthorne Heights, From First To Last, The AAR, Fall Out Boy, Armor For Sleep, Waking Ashland, Matchbook Romance [from far away] and the Starting Line. A7x, FOB, FFTL & SF were my favorites ♥. The rest of the week I've been in San Diego. We went down there partly for vacation & to go to my brother's graduation from the MCRD. He's now a Marine. I think that's pretty cool, hah.. he's not a jackass anymore. I went to the zoo, Seaworld, the Wild Animal Park or whatever it is. I'm really sunburned & I'm so sick of people. I've been out in the sun & around huge groups of people since Warped. My stepbrother was on my computer earlier and he was in chatrooms. That only means one thing with him: cybering. Sick fuck. I finally kicked him off. Later to anyone who reads this. Waking Ashland is a new favorite, go check them out. ♥

warped tourrr

my stepbrother is driving me insane. he's taking over my house. the new mcr video makes me sad.

I want a boy. A nice boy. He'll tell me we're like Corey and Topanga. He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt. He’ll stay home with me and watch Disney Movies. And he'll tell me he loves it, even though he doesn’t, and the only person he would ever watch it with would be me. He'll call me at 3am and ask me what I'm doing. He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice. He’ll IM me every morning before school saying, “Have a great day babe I love you!”. And he'd always whisper something sweet in my ear. He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band. And he won't get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends. When I cry, he'll tell me I'm too beautiful to cry and he'll kiss every tear. He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me. All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them. He'll stay up with me all night when I'm sick. When we're walking together, he'll stop and pick up a flower and put it behind my ear. He'll love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect. We'll always end up laughing about silly fights. We wont get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it. Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me... every time he kisses me. He'll tell me he'd die without me. He'll surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food when I'm having a bad day. He would think I was beautiful if I dressed so crappy it was classy. When we go out for ice cream, he'll put some on my nose... then I'll put some all over his face. And we just never stop laughing. He wouldnt be scared to cry in front of me-- --and would hold me when i cry .. He'll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he’s ever met. He'll buy me jewelry and bouncy balls from vending machines. We would have contests of how far we could spit our gum, or how far we could jump off a swing. He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch snowflakes on our tongues. He wouldn't even like snow, but I would love it. He would grab my waist and kiss my neck. And we'd always take pictures in photo booths. He’d let me go places with his mom and not feel wierd about it. We would play tag and not care who's watching. We’d kiss in the rain. And when I'd hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again. I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me, and then go totally soft when I got sad and apologize. I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars. Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house. When we kissed, our hips would be pressed together. I want someone to be there no matter what... always and forever. Perfect for me. I'll be his everything. And he'll be even more to me. He will love me for always.

My computer wouldn't load this site soo I didn't write for a while, sorry. I don't think anyone reads this anyway. So to add on to the shit going on, my step-brother is coming up tomorrow. Until when? Fucking August. Good god, he drives me up the fucking wall. He's like having two Ken's (stepdad) around & one is more than I can stand already. My step-brother's going to bascially take over the house like he did when he was here in December. I dunno how much I'll be able to write in this. If my mom buys another ticket for him to go to Warped then I'm gonna be the biggest bitch ever that day. He's going to San Diego with us. He's going to Danny's Marine graduation with us. He's going to be here on my birthday. I cannot stand him. This fucking sucks. So much for a good Summer. PS - I still have Jon on my mind. >:[

WHAT A SUCKY/AWESOME NIGHT. Went to Jon's house because my stepdad went there to help Jon's dad for a job. They ended up coming home & getting wasted. My mom and I go over there then like everyone shows up. I only had a beer and it was fucking nasty. Know what sucks? Seeing the first guy you ever loved with his girlfriend who he picked over you even though he liked me the same way I liked him. Now her family & his family are like HEYCOMEOVERYOUGUYSAREAWESOME. I even got to see them make out. Gosh; you know I loved that. On the bright side, David got wasted. He just started drinking because Megan left him. He kept hitting on me, hahah. He's a funny drunk. My stepdad & David/Jon's dad are like the biggest homophobes ever but whenever they're drunk they're like gay lovers.. pretty annoying. My stepdad bugged the FUCK out of me tonight, god. We're all going to breakfast tomorrow and ugh. My mom thought it'd be a bright idea to invite everyone over tomorrow for lunch & then get drunk in the backyard. Haha, thanks mom you invited Jon's girlfriend & their annoying mom/dad too. Great. Later kids.