6 months with him ♥ And by the way you brought me here, it makes me believe the best is still yet to come and I don't want to leave. Forgive my hesitation but I'm learning to trust in you. Help me to dream these dreams because I don't have a clue. And if you'd be honest and say what you mean you know I would promise I'd do anything because I know that without you I'm giving it away. Is this what you wanted? 'Cause I'm willing to change. Now that I'm certain, that there's much more to gain. You've introduced me to the moment oh but I'm looking to stay for good. You asked me to stay forever. Well, you know that I would, I would do anything. And if you'd be honest and say what you mean you know I would promise I'd do anything 'Cause I know that without you I'm giving it away. The nights are forever and maybe I'm wrong, but it feels like I'm so lost without you. So I step towards the heat, it's the way I can see, and it makes me believe that it's you. And by the way you brought me here it makes me believe the best is still yet to come and I don't want to leave, I won't, but anyway... If you'd be honest and say what you mean you know I would promise I'd do anything And the nights are forever, I can't get to sleep 'Cause I know there's a reason I'm in this too deep And I'm sure that without you, I'm giving it away, yeah. I'm giving it away...

all i wanted is to know i'm safe don't wanna lose the love i've found If I ever thought I could stay mad at him, I must be crazy. The love of my life... the whole of my heart... my everything. Something this ridiculous cannot ruin what we have. If you think you have to hang out with your friends just to make them happy, that's not right. Do what you want to do. They will try to come between us, but they will never succeed. Our future is so bright, it's almost blinding. P.S. I love you.

I've never EVER had a problem with my past boyfriend's friends... they were my friends as well. But Mikey's friends just piss me off. I'm grounded and Mikey can spend limited time with me. So his friends want to hangout and decide they can't wait until 7 fucking 30 and it's 6. They come pick him up without warning like they don't know it will piss me off... and he leaves with them, knowing I'm already mad. It shouldn't be a big deal, but he was just telling me how he doesn't even want to chill with them, just us two. Bullshit. I'm angry. Oh and while they're waiting when he came back to say goodbye, They rev up the fucking engine. I almost flipped them off

at times i find myself in disbelief. the love we have is incredible. but then i just know... it's has to be fate. when we're together, we don't have a fucking care in the world. it's just us, growing in love and cherishing every moment. we've been spending so much time with eachother. every chance we get, we're together. i'm leaving for four days tomorrow... this is going to be weirrrrd. i love him so much...

he'll be crawling in bed with me tomorrow morning. eventhough i want tomorrow to come sooner, it's 224 am and i can't sleep. i wish i had a snooz button on my face.

This morning I woke up sad because my baby wasn't in my bed. Then I hear a knock on the door, and he comes in to lay with me. He tells me I'm beautiful without make-up and sings me to sleep softly and in three hours, I wake up to his face, smiling at me. We lay in bed for awhile, saying how much we love eachother. Once we got the strength to get out of bed, he made me breakfast :] It wasn't the best breakfast I've had, but at the same time it was wonderful. We spent all day being lazy, playing video games and watching TV together. It doesn't sound like much, but so far, today has been amazing. Just being with him is more than enough. Sometimes I feel like my heart is just going to burst. Yes, this is true love.

anything i've ever thought about love before has changed incredibly. reading all my old entries made me realize i was only fooling myself. i almost cannot believe the love i have now. it's like nothing i've felt before. finally, truly happy. finally, one that will last. this one, skeptics, you can write in ink.

hahahah fuck relationships. always hurt in the end why bother?

Looking back, no regrets, just lies. Only pain in descriptions of despite. This will never be, you will never listen. Emotions break like glass when memories brush back. This will never be, breaking from this cycle, falls from the outside. I can't sleep with your dreams. I can sleep with my dreams. Looking back, no regrets, just lies. Only pain in descriptions of despite. While you're awake with nightmares of haunting. Did you forget something? You forgot to say "goodbye".

today, for the first time in two weeks, i saw my boyfriend. today, i was the happiest girl alive. hearts are always getting broken. we can do better than that. i know we can. ♥ ♥

i get to see him next week. he is over 200 miles away, and i can't do anythingg about it. =[ fuck distance.

i love a boy, and he loves me back. we're miles away from eachother... soon to be even more miles away. he makes me the happiest girl alive, and yet i'm the saddest girl alive; all at the same time. tell me, is this how it always is? or am i just a sucker...? i put everything i have into this. you let go, i let go of love. forever. you think i'm kidding?

i hate the fact that i can care so much about one person, but that person i care about might not care one bit about me. i hate how i have no idea what's going on in that person's mind. and i hate how he doesn't know anything going on in mine. letting a person take hold of your feelings and trusting them with your heart is a MISTAKE. that person could break your heart just a little, or break your heart into a million pieces. either by hurting you with words or actions, or not doing ANYTHING at all. jealousy can overwhelm you when you don't know what he is doing for the night. jealousy is for the weak, and i am so damn weak right now.

well, what i meant by that was "i love you."

feeling the weight of your body against mine has it's realizations. i could be stuck here forever, but would i really care? tell me your thoughts on life, love, death. am i in your vision when those perspectives come to mind? or is there someone else, perhaps no one. do you love the smell of rain as much as i do? does it trigger your senses as once euphoric? does it tell you there's no turning back, you belong together, like the ocean and the waves. i hung up too quickly, the words i wanted to say are on the tip of my tongue. does your idea of forever include us? we know we'll die as beautiful as ever, together. we are not scared of death. our adventure in life, love, death has just begun. do you love the smell of rain as much as i do? does it illuminate your senses as once knowing? does it tell you what's in store for life? you belong together, like the moon and the stars. you don't understand what this could do. you're breaking every heart she has. she'll still love you just as much, but will you know when to stop this addictive game? she's depending on every day. do you love the smell of rain as much as i do?

you took everything from me. bastard.

i'm with a boy, who makes me happy. most of the time =] I L H ♥ our song is fucking cute... Poison the Well - Nerdy Why do your eyes paralyze me? What makes me feel this way? Just carry me away with silence, and Heartbeats as rapid. Thinking about your embrace And how it makes me feel. I just want to feel this way forever. Sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you. Why have I been given the chance to fly? When I'm not with you I feel lesser alone. Why have I been given the chance to fly away? I remember your face imprinted on angels. Your voice as beautiful as the sound of waves, Crashing against my heart. Time slows down when you look at me. I'm infatuated with this, Infatuated with you. I remember your face imprinted on angels. It's so hard for me to understand. Why I hadn't found you before. Don't dull away, Hold my hand.

lately i've been feeling... i don't even know what i'm feeling. my body is never as alive as it used to be. and neither is my mind... i'm always hoping that things will get better, but i never try to make them better. when the hell is something interesting gonna happen?? my bestfriend tiffaney, who i love to death, might be moving away for a long while & i don't know what i would do without her. she was the onlyy reason i didn't move back to santa maria. with her gone, i'll have nothing. but if it's what she wants... i can't stop her. i just hope she knows i do love her, i'm just trying to figure out what's wrong with me lately. i've said muchhh to much. and i should stop, but i have so much to say, and let off my chest. lately, the simplest emotional things on tv make me want to cry. and i haven't done that in god knows how long. i'm so goddamn sick of boys. it's like i'm just a fucking hook-up to them, and that's it. i'm not just a piece of ass, i have feelings too. there's a boy who i adore right now... but i don't know what's going to happen with him. i would love to be with him, he's a sweetheart... ♥ i'm so insecure and self-conscious, that i don't let my personality come out. so that is all everyone sees. i'm better than that, i know i am. editXcore: i'm going to be with this boy =] and we're gonna have the best relationship ever. no doubt about it ♥ ♥

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over, but expecting different results. If that's true, I'm the QUEEN of insanity.

!!! I HOPE I CAN GO