So, i'm really tired. I can't get to sleep with so much whirring round my head. The only thing i can do is come online cos my mp3 player is out of battereis. I can't believe i listen to one 52 second song over and over again for an hour... wow, i must really be tired thinking about that. I come online and end up talking bout something which makes my head start whirring even harder. I've got a feeling in te pit of my stomach that i can't explain. It's building up inside me... I can feel it getting stronger... I just don't know what it is. And i know it's definately not the stomach cramps i've been getting for the past 2 days, lol. I'm so tired and confused about too much stuff. I'm really happy but really sad. I feel so emotionally drained. I can't take much more on. I just got promoted to an 'elder' on a website and i keep imagining things happening. I don't know why but i always imagine something bad happening to me. things like my family dieing and none of my other family wanting to take me in and stuff. I don't know why i think these things but they come often... God, my life is such a wreck...