Dark Cold Silent Still Empty Relax. Its all in the past Nothing stays the same It all grows old And grows apart It was beautiful It was painful Love Shallow Broken Haunted I'm leaving now, darling On my way home I stop and realize It was all a lie 'til now Tragedy Sanity Death

Funny how I can hate you More and more each day And still love you like I did Even though it was never real Funny how you can say those things And every breathe you take I want to take away from you I wanted to kill you Funny how everytime I look at you I just want to die And take a knife to my flesh 'Cause it hurts just that much Funny how one sentance Can mean so much And take away everything That was every important Funny how its not even funny at all Its just sad and pitiful Yea, that's what you are Thanks for being my nightmare

I hate crying I hate smiling I hate laughing I hate you Wishing you would have attempted to kill I would have taken it better than this The way you left me lying here I'll never be alright No longer yours No longer true But I am alone Numb to this life Numb to love Numb to you The tears never fade Blood stains my body Too weak to go for help Too strong to keep this inside No longer wanted No longer safe Just a burden to us all Let the blood flow And the tears drain Nothing left to do anyway Just give it a day or two And look to the moon You'll see that I am no more

Sooo, my friend "inspired" this one... Enjoi =) You know I hate to see you cry You're more beautiful when you smile I'll share your pain if you let me Better days will come, I promise Its not the end of the world Atleast not today You can do better, you know you can Its not worth it Don't be silent Its at at you, isn't it? Faking a smile everyday, to everyone Cheer up, child You'll see a better day ------------------- Okay, that was too... Positive.. I like my deathey ones better... =p

Her corpse lying in a coffin He's looking down on her Wondering what he could have done To put her in this position It was late that night He came home stumbling in the dark And grabbed the knife from the table, Walked into the room Se hugged him, he kissed her And stabbed her in the back As she fell to the ground He took out the knife And stabbed her again Blood stains on the carpet Her body in the closet He washes his hands clean Then goes to bed He remembers nothing of that night And today he stands Looking down at her body He then leans over slowly And kisses her lips again One last time

Sorry for the lack of updates. I wrote this one last week.. Hope ya like it :) Its your life Throw it away if you want to Take control if you need to Give it away, let someone else own it Do what you want with it Its your life Make it the way you've always dreamed Choose the wrong path if you wish Give your heart to a lover Do what you please with it Its your life Throw everything away, everything you care about Lose some friends, make new ones Die old, die young Make it yours, make it real Its your life Waste away everything you've worked hard for Be poor, be happy, be rich, be bitter Believe the impossible, whatever you want Live it your own way Its your life Make it shine, or just blend in Tell yourself its okay to be yourself Live a lie, be the lie Whatever you choose to do, do it for you Its your life

You told me you loved me Why didnt I believe you? I said I love you too anyway We all need to feel appreciated With you I didnt You said you wanted to be with me I said I did too You were never there You told me you loved me! I didnt believe you But I told you I did anyway I didnt trust you I always wondered why Love was never meant to be this way It was always hard to understand you I told you I loved you You said not today Then I found out about her

Last night was the first time I didnt want to sleep Last night was the first time I didnt want to eat Last night was the first time You made me cry Last night was the first time I wanted everything to die Last night was the first time I wanted to kill Last night was the first time I wanted to die Last night was the first time I heard you speak

And she whispers softly I love you, I love you, I love you But he goes on pretending Saying he loves her too Doesnt know how much he means to her Soon she finds out the truth he's hiding She mends the pain with a blade A sweatshirt covers the evidence Now she's hiding something too He's beginning to notice the cuts more and more Never realized how much pain He could cause such a girl like her Never realized he meant this much But she goes on pretending And he's pretending, They're tearing apart Why cant they just be real And say what's going on She's killing herself tonight She loves him but he dont love her As her blood is spilling And as she's dying He's holding her in his arms And he tells her he loves her One last time

Yea, so Its been a while since I updated.. Didnt really have anything to write about.. But, alas! Here's one... enjoy.. Tears are falling Why? It wasnt supposed to end this way I refuse to let this night end With a knife Along with blood, and the pain that consumes me I know it wasnt meant to be But, why so much guilt? This is not my place This is not my home Darkness surrounds me Why must it take over The only thing I have left The one thing I can put my hope, my life, my love in Fully and completely

Why do we do this to ourselves Why must we push ourselves further and further away As if we're helpless, hopeless, getting closer to death Lying to ourselves just to hide reality Worried, over something that was never really there Numb, every morning you wake up Numb, to anything good in life No one understands what we're going through We dont even understand ourselves We're never really, truely happy, are we It's been so long since you've felt happy You're not sure if you ever will again Hurting inside, emptiness, misery Tomorrow will be better... but tomorrow never comes It's not a choice Do you look in the mirror, only to find That the person you once knew, is missing?

she meets you in the dark underneath the street lights you told her you loved her you told me the same did you think i wouldnt find out? did you think i wouldnt care? i suspected first when you looked into my eyes as if you were hiding a dark secret you took a walk in the park and held her hand, and you kissed her the way you kissed me that night you told me you loved me is it something i did? is it something i said? you stabbed me in the back and watched me bleed

-this one is in the process of being finished... wow i need to start finnishing all these poems i got- Youre gone ive got nowhere to turn nowhere to run nowhere to hide without You i am nothing im not loved not understood im forgotten and unsure of myself i am nothing im unwanted on my own no one cares alone in the world i am nothing

i feel the love you have for me though youre far away i know just how much you care and i know one day we will see the plans you have to find a way to me, everyday brings a tear to my heart cause you are not here im left without my heart and a knife to take the pain away though i know it does nothing for you, dear i want you in my life so take my heart ive let you borrow youve given me yours, ive had for 2 years ive waited this long, i can wait a little longer til the day i have you in my arms i have your heart, you have my tears the day you return we will be stronger holding eachother in our arms

-its amazing the things i can come up with when im bored- i am the one you hate the one you criticize the one thats right outside your window i can hear you breathing, see you standing in your room without a care in the world i am the one holding the gun the one aimed straight for you taking your life with just one click i can feel your heartbeat pounding in my head like thunder in the rain i am the one you never saw coming the one you fear the most you left me no choice

i wish i could tell someone but theres nothing i can do how is it that i have all these words built up inside of me but im left here with words unspoken tell me is this wrong? what should i do? theres nothing i can do but sit here helplessly wondering if lives will crumble suddenly how is this suposed to make me feel? time is fading slowly should i be scared?

-yea. its not finished yet. but hopefully it will be by tomorrowish- they left him hanging with his blood spilling from his hands down to his feet forgive them, for they know not what they do they call out insulting remarks bid him farewell its not what it seems he's more than you think

again we wait in fear fear for our lives fear for our souls waiting for the end of our lives wondering what is to come of our days will we be saved? or will we be lost?

-sorry it took so long to post another one- cold air, hard to breathe life slowly slipping away i cant keep my grip the blood dripping to the ground the look of fear on everyone's faces im sorry i lost it im losing you and i wish there was some way i could tell you i love you before i fade away but i cant, i wont love means nothing to me anymore so let them take me away dont cry, dont look at me like that this is not the last time we'll see eachother i lay here, lifeless, helpless she took my life and now im goin to a far better place than this bullet etched inside of me dont touch me, just leave its better this way

dont really like this one much ither.. but oh well.. what is love? love is loving someone knowing they love you back just as much as you love them (maybe more) its the feeling you get when you know someone cares what is love? love is how you feel when youre in that special someones arms its always wanting to be with that person now matter how youre feeling what is love? love is looking in someones eyes and being able to see their heart and everything theyre feeling its not caring what they look like and only caring about who they are what is love? love is being best friends with the one you love being able to know how theyre feeling without saying a word its never ending lasting forever and not caring who knows about it what is love? love is being able to say anything and not having to feel stupid its sharing secrets with that one person and only that person, with no one else what is love? love is knowing everyday is diffrent and more exciting than the day before its the trust you share knowing no one can break that trust what is love? for i dont know, ive never felt it atleast not the love between two people im still waiting for my time who knows.. maybe ill never feel it