Hello again peoples. So I'm in drama at school right? And our class is putting on this play called Check Please and we're putting it on at 7 tonite!! Arg! So I'm nervous and shit (kinda) and am just sitting here all dressed up like because we have to for the play and not knowing what to do with myself. I hope I dont fuck up... Kat's gonna be in the audience. I still dont have my cigarettes, which I really could use about 50 right now. Oy. Wish me luck. =) -Donny

Holy fuck dude! Holy fuck! I nearly got my lip shot off! So me and Kat were drinking again right? And we were with Davey and Carey this time. So Davey has this BB gun right? So we were all shootin it and shit and Kat was trying to teach Carey how to shoot but she didnt get it. So I decided to be a human target because I dont know... I was fucked up. Shit happens. So I tell Kat to shoot my leg, so she does and then I tell Carey to shoot my leg and she hits my knee. So I tell her to try again and when she's about to shoot, Davey (who was inside getting us all more drinks) comes outside and thinks its a great idea to push Carey so she misses her target. BAD IDEA! So she stumbles and the gun goes up and she fuckin shoots me in the lip! But it didnt fuckin hurt at all! I didnt even know I was bleeding until they told me, and when I looked in the mirror my fuckin lip was just like gushing blood it was mad crazy I tell ya. And then later that day when Davey and Carey's dad came home (he's cool with us drinking and all, just not their mom) and I jump on the back of the car and tell him to go and I hit the car and he peels out and I went flying. Everyone was laughing so hard it was so fuckin funny. Damn I love life! But now my fuckin stomach hurts and my parents wouldnt let me go to Battle of the Bands so I'm a little bummed. Oh well. Today was fun so Im purdy damn dandy. Haha. Bye. -Donny

Well, it's been an entire week since I did what I did and I'm still not sure if I should have done what I did do... You see our computer has been down since New Years. I'll fill you in though. Kat wasnt at the mall but Patrick invited me and a few other people over his house for New Years Eve. So we all went and were lighting off fireworks and shit but then I pulled Kat over to the side, away from everyone. I dont know what inspired me to do that. Maybe it was the Bacardi and Whiskey talking, I dont know. But usually I'm a shy little shit. So I just blurted out "Kat do you like me?" And she just said yeah. So I said do you want to go out with me if I break up with Nora? And she said yeah. So I told her that I was going to. So then I did. And being a pussy I didnt even wait until the third when she came home to do it in person. I just called her up (she actually answered for once) and told her what had been happening since she left. And then I told her that I wanted to break up and she started crying and I started crying and I was so confused and I just did the asshole thing and said well Im sorry and hung up quickly. I've tried calling her but she wont answer the phone. And I feel so guilty and I know it sounds stupid but I feel a lot of remorse I guess for doing that to her. But then when I'm with Kat I'm just so happy, I mean REALLY FUCKIN HAPPY. And I just am so happy that I broke up with her. But then I start thinking about all the fun times we had and all the good things about Nora that Kat definitly doesnt have. And I just dont know. Like I was saying before I really dont know if what I did was right or not. And in school she and all of her friends (that used to be mine up until this) are just plain ignoring me, getting up and leaving when I walk into the room... uh. That sucks, like it majorly does suck. But so the past coupla days me and Kat have been drinking and walking around and its been really fun and the only reason I thought of Nora was because there's reminders of her all over this diary. I really have to change the picture. Well, thats whats up with my life right now. See if I can get some closure. -Donny

This song has got such an awesome beat. =) But anyway... So yesterday I avoided Kat as much as I could. She called and told me to come over but I said that I was doing returns with my mom (returning crappy christmas presents) and that I would be home very late and that I was working tomorrow. So then I had to do returns with my mom. It wasnt that bad. And I got to exchange it for shit I actually liked so that was good. Like, instead of the nasty shoes she got me I got two shirts so I was literally like yay! And she told me that I get to get my ear gaged but she doesnt know when so I was like yay! again. Then Davey called me and told me to come over so I did. Carey was there too. It seems like I should be avoiding all girls right now but Carey's seriously like a sister dont worry. So I had fun over there and their mom gave me so much food holy bajesus! I could barely walk. But it was funny because on the way over there I was smoking a cigarette right? (Stole one from my brother) and I had this like longsleeved plaid shirt on you know? And a cop pulls over in front of us and I'm like shit! and Davey's just laughing. But it turns out he was pulling over some guy. But I had to keep the cigarette hidden up my sleeve and it was crazy because we were like three feet max away from him and he was completley oblivious. And when we rounded a corner, I pulled it out and I now have burn marks all over the cuff of that shirt. Burning memories. Thats some good shit. So today I have to work and tonight I may go to the mall... and Kat might be there...! And I also might get my cigarettes finally. So... sldfnkldgl. Thats all I can say, well, bye. Donny

The beach yesterday was fun. Like really, really fun. But now I'm so confused... god damnit. Here. I'll start at the beginning. So Patrick, his grandma, her boyfriend and Patrick's sister Kathryn (KAT) came and picked me up an hour late. I had to sit in between Patrick and Kat and it was weird. Like, Patrick and Kat are like polar opposites... Theres Patrick, hes the most sensitive and nice and accepting guy. And he's totally open to drugs and stuff (like he wouldnt rat you out, but hes only smoked like once in his life) and hes in love with bands like Nirvana and looks like he could be Kurt Cobain's brother. Then there's Kat, who is the most outgoing and psychotic and catty and mean girl. She's the kind who parties and does exstacy every weekend and has done cocaine and acid before. She loves the Rob Zombie and the Mindless Self Indulgence and she dresses sort of like a punk-rock hooker. So it was really fuckin weird. Me and Pat were talking and stuff but then Kat would tap me and like... show me the side bit of her thong or let me see her little baggie of pot when I thought for sure the old people saw us. But they never did. So she was taunting me. We left and went to lunch. She was sitting across from me and she kept sorta kicking me under the table and grinning. The entire time. It wasnt like savag kicking but it was enough for me to look at her and try to will her to stop with my eyes to which she would only grin maliciously. Then we all walked on the beach. Me and Pat tried to get ahead away from her. But she caught up and now that we were away from the old people she could do and say what she pleased. So we all started smoking (we werent just walking and smoking, we found a nice bush first.) And Patrick even took a hit or two. When I was all calmed down I said "why were you kicking me?" And Kat said "because you're a little hottie" And I dont know if she was kidding or serious but I didnt ask that question again. So then we left and went back to Patrick and Kat's house and their grandparents left us there. No one was home so naturally we took a walk to the park and smoked another bowl and Kat's cigarettes. Patrick does smoke cigarettes though, which is weird. We trooped home and watched Stewie Griffen the Untold Story (that they got for Christmas) but Pat kept having to leave because his dad needed help with something in the garage. and I was sitting by Kat... and she would like, scoot her foot over on top of mine and rub her leg on mine. and she would drape her arm over my back and stroke it aimlessly. and when the movie ended she asked me what my number was because she didnt want Patrick to know she was calling me and I gave it to her. I dont know what I was / am thinking. I have a girlfriend. Nora. Who I thought up until yesterday that was my one and only and that I loved and would love forever. But Kat called me and we talked for three hours straight and I was just laughing the whole time. Because everything was so funny and I felt so happy and I think I like Kat better then Nora. And I dont know whats happening. Or whats going to happen next. And I'm so confused. I mean, Nora's only been gone for what TWO DAYS? I mean god, what the fuck is wrong with me? I love Nora! I used to! I dont fucking know... fuck. But Nora hasnt even bothered to call me yet. I have to talk to Ronny really bad... and I want a cigarette, I want 20, whole damn pack thats what I want. And then I want Kat to disappear and yesterday would have never happened. Arg......... Donny P.S. I love Nora? =(

I'm going to the beach today with my friend Patrick... and his grandma.... and her boyfriend... right. And apparently his sister will be there too. Whoop-dee-doo. But so Im going soon at like ten because we're going to lunch first. I think that this is going to be a really weird day. Let me tell you something that happened yesterday. So all day me and Ronny basically drove around (yes, with my mom)and ate food and went to stores and stuff. Then my mom was like "I have to go and drop tapes off at the library." So we were like "okay......." So we went and she was picking out new movies (because we are ghetto like that and we dont rent movies from Blockbuster because that would cost money... way out of our league.) So we decide to go back to the car and listen to music and what-not and then there's this bummy lookin guy sittin outside the library. He was black and had a backwards hat and about two teeth. He was smiling really big though and asked if we had a light. So me, being a dumbshit I say, yea but its in the car. So we keep walking and he is coming with us like its some invitation to come get the light out of the car. And Ronny keeps giving me looks, and I can almost hear him telepathically going..... "good move buddy, now we're gonna get robbed, ass-raped, and shot all in one day, good going!" But I was trying to communicate back "naw man, he's cool... I think... yea, he's cool." So we get to the car and I toss him the lighter and then he gives me two cigarettes and I say "hells yes, thank you man!" And he was just like "no problem man, no problem." So it was all good, and we didnt get mugged or ass raped or shot so it was awesome. I got some cigarettes! So when he left we started cracking up and when my mom came back she was like what whats so funny and we just kept laughing, it was great. Life's so fuckin funny sometimes. Donny

Well I never did see Nora yesterday which is really quite the kick in the balls. I dont think she planned it that way.... but I dont know, maybe she doesnt care about me anymore. She didnt even call last night like she said she was going to. I could have called her I guess but I was waaaaay too busy sulking about life. One good thing did happen yesterday though. Ronny came over yesterday when my parents were out doing parent stuff (and by the way, yes, nearly everyone on the planet has already commented on the similarities between our names, it gets pretty annoying too... but anyways) so he came over and he had the best crippie I've ever smoked. I only got through one bowl (on my new pipe!) and I was completley baked but he told me to smoke another one so I did and ho shit man if I was baked before I was fuckin on fire after the second bowl. Ronny had three though, that kid is an ANIMAL. Damn. Been smoking since he was like eleven or something that crazy motherfucker. So we ate mass ammount of cheetos and watched the Angry Beavers marathon for I think three hours. And by then we were no longer fucked up and my parents were home so Ronny hit it and I left to my bedroom to sulk with my weed headache. I never did get my cigarettes... Donny

This is a really good CD. It's weird though, but I like it. I got the Flogging Molly (Swagger) CD for Christmas yesterday too and I listened to it this morning and it sounds pretty good so far too... --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I want my cigarettes! --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm dying here.... dying. I smoked my last cigarette at like 9 this morning and I get my cigarettes from this girl Morgan. But I cant get ahold of her to bring them to me. Agggggh. This sucks. Want. Cigarettes. Want. Marlboro. Reds. Fuck. I also want to see Nora before she goes to fucking Kentucky. But. I. Cant. Get. A hold. Of. Her. Either. God damn the world. I also want a taco. And that I can get. Bye. Donny

How dark is your soul? (Great pics) brought to you by Quizilla Not really me, but I like the guy's hair =) Donny

Hi. Everyone on this diary thing I guess. Alright. Ummm... yea. So I got an Ipod for christmas right? But its not an Ipod, its an "IRiver" what the fuck does that mean is what I want to know... Anyway... So that was my big christmas gift from my parents and stuff and other than that I got the usual shit... boxers and socks and you know, crap like that. But know what Nora (my girlfriend) got me? The most awesomest pipe ever. Its a pirax right, so its like hollow glass stuff and on this one theres music notes swirlied into it, its so fuckin awesome, I love Nora. I love you Nora! Merry Christmas everybody. -Donny