I owe this much.

have you been well? Where are you where are you where are youwhereare you WHEARAREYOU

Me to ME- Will, wake up. You are OK. Feed the rabbit. Call your friends back. I love you, William.

ME 2 me- Hey... got your message... go fucking drown yourself dickweed, I can('t) do it without you.

I wish I could talk to myself face to face. I'm happy and then I'm miserable and it still never penetrates. Fuck you, mental condom. Let me get into myself.

End of depressive spew- I am getting it together. Hiring the security crew this weekend... got a few decent guys in mind. Waiting a few months and then getting some more of my tattoo done. I'm excited to finish the shoulder and expand on to the chest. I've been looking at nursing schools for next year, i'm excited. I feel like I know something solid now.

Not happy. Not unhappy. bleak.