Ghosts in the Snow

by emocorpse14
Feeling: alienated
Life is argh right now. I don't know what to do. My whole family is fighting. Living here isn't so easy. If my mom and dad arent fighting, then it's my mom and my grandma over stupid bullshit like the mail (im not even kidding). And people call me emo. But HELLO!!! You don't even know what it's like to have sooo much pressure on your shoulders and be expected to come through like nothing is wrong. So shut the fuck up. And yeah, I may have been a cutter. But don't talk about it unless i talk to you about it. BECAUSE ITS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSSINESS. Stop telling your friends about it. Because some of you mofos are a lot weirder than I am. Sure, i may hang out with the gothic/alternative artistic kids, but atleast we are smart! atleast we are trying to succeed. so shut the fuck up. thank you and fuck you. -Mikey PS- this doesnt apply to everyone (:
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Do you want me to add you? lol I'll come back to your entry in a mo..
Yeah true... its a small fear I have with this girl at the moment. She is so pure.. like doesn't drink, smoke (and something else I'm sure) and that just goes with who I am also... I would fear that she would fall into the beasts of this world if so to say, but maybe not - perhaps I don't give her enough credit.

But yeah, I hate guys like that... girls are so not a piece of meat! I'm into art effectively and how I express things...
so how I view beauty is sometimes beyond my own words.

I love how beautiful women are, but its only because when I look at a woman I feel I can (not see her soul) but see her inner beauty. With this girl I like, I knew she had so much inner beauty and that she is not hardly like any other girl out there. lol

I kind of get what you mean with your entry as well... I honestly don't feel I'm remembering or getting what you say to an extent...
not to compare it with you... but I use to be depressed, used to feel like wanting to commit suicide... tried to cut myself!

I don't know where to go with this to be honest... but pressure... uhh... I know about pressure, but in a different way!
Well yeah, I get what you say.. lol, no idea whether I tried to know as if I understand what may be up in your life, but I try to understand - don't think I quite did though. But yeah...

I suppose we both get what I mean with the other being pure thing - that is a thing for me really... wouldn't feel like a used car - to me a woman just loses her purity! lol But whatever...

Life is never easy though... so many people have their problems
we can only hope that we have what matters in life to be able to get us through these problems... if ya want to know then I lost my dad a year and a bit ago.. my mom now seems to be falling ill and while we've been told a whole bunch of things such as it being cancer and how it has spread, the docs still have no clue.

I would feel alil boxed in with losing my mom.. especially if it were anytime soon (like the next month or so).
To an extent I've never had it bad... like any problems to really affect my life... so honestly I don't know what I'm going on about, lol.
I think why people stereotype or whatever is when people who are emo or whatever are simply "trying" to be emo or whatever they're trying to be - or in otherwords people who are fake. I'm not fond of people who are fake, but I don't stereotype. A person who can be whoever they want to be... I'll be your friend if you know whats real!

No offense at the me trying to cut myself, but yeah... it was somewhat a blunt knife!

I think to an extent
Why my life has been filled with problems is bcos I've been the one who was always there for my mom to load off her problems... I suppose I can say my dad never really treated my mom as well as she should've been... many times did she cry and I was always the one to wipe away or see those tears despite being the youngest in the family... its pretty much what has made me into the caring person I am today!